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12AM · Mar 09, 2021 at 09:32 PM

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Yeah my sister has this salt and essential oil foot soak mix it’s relaxing.

I like massaging my feet as well when doing that. I’m good with massaging (contact person for the validity of this information: my mom). I was about to give Nick a massage when he just got here after a long flight last year but he didn’t like getting a massage. Boo. He needs to embrace the exotic life.

WastingAsparagus · Mar 09, 2021 at 09:38 PM

Not really feeling the impetus to exercise tonight. I know I should but hey. I don't know. It's hard.

Desoxyn · Mar 09, 2021 at 09:43 PM

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Originally Posted by WastingAsparagus

Not really feeling the impetus to exercise tonight. I know I should but hey. I don't know. It's hard.

You can do it!!

cogladaid · Mar 09, 2021 at 10:02 PM

I really don’t know what to do tomorrow. Do I take 10mg abilify? Do I take 5mg? Do I do more? Should I call my doctor? I talk to him on Monday but I just don’t know what to do until then.

I have to focus on work tomorrow. I was so distracted today thinking people were stealing my thoughts and stuff I got barely anything done and I have to meet deadlines.

Maybe I should call the doctor tomorrow and maybe him or the nurse can suggest what to do.

cogladaid · Mar 09, 2021 at 10:09 PM

I don’t know how much the abilify is really helping. I guess a little bit but it’s still not helping me sleep or anything. Maybe I’ll just see how it goes tomorrow morning without it and if I can’t focus I’ll call the doctor.

Desoxyn · Mar 09, 2021 at 10:10 PM

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Originally Posted by cogladaid

I really don’t know what to do tomorrow. Do I take 10mg abilify? Do I take 5mg? Do I do more? Should I call my doctor? I talk to him on Monday but I just don’t know what to do until then.

I have to focus on work tomorrow. I was so distracted today thinking people were stealing my thoughts and stuff I got barely anything done and I have to meet deadlines.

Maybe I should call the doctor tomorrow and maybe him or the nurse can suggest what to do.

I'm not sure what you should do but I can tell you that I was very paranoid on Abilify.. But if it was really making the paranoia worse, it didn't cause any long term paranoia cuz I'm not that paranoid anymore.

If you have the ability to call your doctor, I would call ^-;

cogladaid · Mar 09, 2021 at 10:16 PM

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Originally Posted by Desoxyn

I'm not sure what you should do but I can tell you that I was very paranoid on Abilify.. But if it was really making the paranoia worse, it didn't cause any long term paranoia cuz I'm not that paranoid anymore.

If you have the ability to call your doctor, I would call ^-;

I took a bunch this afternoon and it helped a bit. I think. But idk it’s not really doing much in the big scheme of things.

I just hate this all because I was perfectly fine in my hypomania Thursday - Monday.

cogladaid · Mar 09, 2021 at 10:18 PM

Part of my brain is telling me the meds are poison and I shouldn’t take them.

I can’t sleep.

cogladaid · Mar 09, 2021 at 10:27 PM

I feel like there are messages in this music I’m listening to. I have to be ready.

Bleh this is so dumb.
Sorry for spamming.

cogladaid · Mar 09, 2021 at 10:44 PM

Abilify doesn’t do **** for me apparently.

I feel so lost.

Sometimes psychotic · Mar 09, 2021 at 10:49 PM

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Abilify doesn’t do **** for me apparently.

I feel so lost.

I need 7.5mg but most people need at least 10mg......

cogladaid · Mar 09, 2021 at 10:55 PM

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I need 7.5mg but most people need at least 10mg......

Yeah I was on 10mg and it wasn’t helping my mania at all. I took idk how much today but it was more than 10mg and it looks like it didn’t really do anything. I feel it kicks in for like an hour and then wears off.

WastingAsparagus · Mar 09, 2021 at 10:56 PM

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Originally Posted by cogladaid

Yeah I was on 10mg and it wasn’t helping my mania at all. I took idk how much today but it was more than 10mg and it looks like it didn’t really do anything. I feel it kicks in for like an hour and then wears off.

I'm on 20 mg Abilify and have been on 30 mg before.

WastingAsparagus · Mar 09, 2021 at 10:57 PM

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Originally Posted by Desoxyn

You can do it!!

No I can't. I feel like life is meaningless again. Sorry, not trying to be confrontational. Ugh.

WastingAsparagus · Mar 09, 2021 at 10:59 PM

Meds don't do **** but cover up the intractable problems I have. I will never recover. I don't know how to accept this illness.

WastingAsparagus · Mar 09, 2021 at 11:00 PM

Sorry not trying to be negative. Today I wrote a lot like I said. I've written like 5000 words.

cogladaid · Mar 09, 2021 at 11:01 PM

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Originally Posted by WastingAsparagus

I'm on 20 mg Abilify and have been on 30 mg before.

Idk if my doctor wants me to go that high. If I feel bad tomorrow I’ll call him and ask him what to do.

I just feel like I’m being so annoying calling everyone and talking about **** so much.

WastingAsparagus · Mar 09, 2021 at 11:01 PM

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Originally Posted by cogladaid

Idk if my doctor wants me to go that high. If I feel bad tomorrow I’ll call him and ask him what to do.

I just feel like I’m being so annoying calling everyone and talking about **** so much.

I feel the same way when I call my pdoc. I always apologize and say, sorry to bother you. But it's literally their job to answer calls and stuff. So that's how I have to rationalize it to myself.

WastingAsparagus · Mar 09, 2021 at 11:04 PM

Yikes, I feel like calling a

Possible trigger:

sui hotline

cogladaid · Mar 09, 2021 at 11:05 PM

I’m chatting everyone’s ear off. Here, with friends. Being a loud mouth and swearing in the middle of stores. I have no filter.

I can’t sleep and feel like doing things but also that I should try to sleep. Delusional thoughts and intrusive thoughts. Feeling my thoughts are being stolen and the meds are poison.

I wish it was Saturday tomorrow so I wouldn’t have to worry about work deadlines.

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WastingAsparagus Student of Life Member Since Mar 2014 Location: South America Posts: 4,658 10 2,911 hugs given	Mar 09, 2021 at 09:38 PM #962 Not really feeling the impetus to exercise tonight. I know I should but hey. I don't know. It's hard. __________________ "Whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it!”
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cogladaid Elder Member Since Jul 2015 Location: Nowhere Posts: 5,565 8	Mar 09, 2021 at 10:09 PM #965 I don’t know how much the abilify is really helping. I guess a little bit but it’s still not helping me sleep or anything. Maybe I’ll just see how it goes tomorrow morning without it and if I can’t focus I’ll call the doctor.
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cogladaid Elder Member Since Jul 2015 Location: Nowhere Posts: 5,565 8	Mar 09, 2021 at 10:18 PM #968 Part of my brain is telling me the meds are poison and I shouldn’t take them. I can’t sleep.
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cogladaid Elder Member Since Jul 2015 Location: Nowhere Posts: 5,565 8	Mar 09, 2021 at 10:27 PM #969 I feel like there are messages in this music I’m listening to. I have to be ready. Bleh this is so dumb. Sorry for spamming.
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cogladaid Elder Member Since Jul 2015 Location: Nowhere Posts: 5,565 8	Mar 09, 2021 at 10:44 PM #970 Abilify doesn’t do **** for me apparently. I feel so lost.
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WastingAsparagus Student of Life Member Since Mar 2014 Location: South America Posts: 4,658 10 2,911 hugs given	Mar 09, 2021 at 10:59 PM #975 Meds don't do **** but cover up the intractable problems I have. I will never recover. I don't know how to accept this illness. __________________ "Whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it!”
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WastingAsparagus Student of Life Member Since Mar 2014 Location: South America Posts: 4,658 10 2,911 hugs given	Mar 09, 2021 at 11:00 PM #976 Sorry not trying to be negative. Today I wrote a lot like I said. I've written like 5000 words. __________________ "Whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it!”
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WastingAsparagus Student of Life Member Since Mar 2014 Location: South America Posts: 4,658 10 2,911 hugs given	Mar 09, 2021 at 11:04 PM #979 Yikes, I feel like calling a Possible trigger: sui hotline __________________ "Whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it!”
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