Roll Call 183

Sometimes psychotic · May 06, 2021 at 09:47 PM

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Oooh it’s ok tho, I don’t need help

Ok if you don’t want help I won’t bother you with advice.

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Blue_Bird · May 06, 2021 at 10:22 PM

I’m so sleep deprived. But I’ve been ultra productive the past several days

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Desoxyn · May 06, 2021 at 10:54 PM

I'm scared of the night..

Desoxyn · May 06, 2021 at 11:46 PM

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I'm scared of the night..

I have accepted it. I feel so different every day - It's never the same. I'm constantly reincarnating.

Desoxyn · 01:26 AM

Edit: I'm just really stressed out and antipsychotics really suck

cogladaid · May 07, 2021 at 04:50 AM

I fell asleep sometime after 9pm. Woke up at 11pm. Woke up again at 2am and I’ve been awake ever since watching TV.

I have to be up for work in about two hours. Oops.

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newtus · May 07, 2021 at 06:05 AM

I’ve been crying since last night

I feel like complete shyt physically

I think it’s the second shot

Blue_Bird · May 07, 2021 at 06:33 AM

This was my sleep last night

cogladaid · May 07, 2021 at 08:22 AM

I’m listening to music and I just feel like there are messages in it but I can’t understand them. Meds are blocking the messages

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Angelique67 · May 07, 2021 at 08:48 AM

I probably should have washed my hair last night but it was cold and I wanted to finish as soon as possible.

I didn't rescue my coffee or juice or milk so I feel dull and thirsty. At least the water was changed last night so I can drink that instead of using up a Coke. Vaping makes me so thirsty.

Feeling a little depressed. Waiting for my headphones to charge. It's so boring here.

I hope everyone's doing ok. It was warmer than I thought it would be outside, and it's sunny.

WastingAsparagus · May 07, 2021 at 09:08 AM

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I’ve been crying since last night

I feel like complete shyt physically

I think it’s the second shot

The second shot knocked me out of commission, quite honestly. Take Tylenol if you can, it somewhat helped with the symptoms I felt from the second shot.

WastingAsparagus · May 07, 2021 at 09:10 AM

Also, I'm doing fine today, always doubting my psychiatrist and stuff, but doing fine, and moving forward with life. I think I will give my psychiatrist another chance. Because it's really disruptive to switch and stuff.

cogladaid · May 07, 2021 at 10:12 AM

I’ve been ranting all morning instead of working. Googling executive dysfunction instead of planning out my work. I got some work done but not enough. I have deadlines and turn around time.

So I’m reading my laptop screen and I see this large shadow figure out of the corner of my eye moving towards me. Scared the **** out of me. When I tried to look at it directly it disappeared.

Siiiiigh.

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Sometimes psychotic · May 07, 2021 at 10:16 AM

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I fell asleep sometime after 9pm. Woke up at 11pm. Woke up again at 2am and I’ve been awake ever since watching TV.

I have to be up for work in about two hours. Oops.

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Cog, I don’t know if you’re still into the whole math/God thing but there is a new book released in April by Michio Kaku called the God equation and the guy is a physicist/writer.

cogladaid · May 07, 2021 at 10:17 AM

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Cog, I don’t know if you’re still into the whole math/God thing but there is a new book released in April by Michio Kaku called the God equation and the guy is a physicist/writer.

I’m always interested in geeky math books! Michio Kaku is great my sister has a few of his books.

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Erti · May 07, 2021 at 10:47 AM

The kids are back home... cps can suck it!

SlumberKitty · May 07, 2021 at 10:57 AM

Got my hair cut/trimmed. Managed to refrain from doing anything to harm myself like the voices wanted. The voices are still there but they seem a little more muted today so maybe this is a good thing.

Ceara1010 · May 07, 2021 at 11:09 AM

I woke up anxious again so I did some meditation and feel a lot better. It's a really pretty day out so far and I want to feel positive but worry that the delusional intrusions will wreck my day. I'll try to focus on my impending visit with my sister--we get together every Friday--which I always look forward to. I guess I can choose to NOT let the intrusions get to me even if they appear which they probably will. Meditation really helps soothe me when they start to get to me. I often do a-few-minute sessions scattered throughout the day; i just close my eyes and try to calm down and clear my mind which usually works.

I had my T session yesterday and we talked about my getting back into my DBT books to come up with some more coping skills to handle the anxiety and hypervigilance that are caused by the presence of the delusions. I've got two workbooks that I've used in the past and I'll pull them out right now so I don't forget. (Just did it.) DBT is wonderful.

I hope you all hand in there today. I'm thinking about you.

SlumberKitty · May 07, 2021 at 11:13 AM

Thanks, @Ceara1010 hope you have a good day too!

Breaking Dawn · May 07, 2021 at 12:08 PM

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Aaaahhhh. I don't know what to do with these voices that want me to harm myself. It is really getting to me. He is so relentless. I just want to bang my head to make him stop but that is giving in to what he wants. And I want to be healthy. Not unhealthy.

Possible trigger:

I'm worried about getting my hair cut. A voice is telling me to grab the scissors and stab my eye out.

I don't want to cancel my hair cut. I will have to sit on my hands. I hope the hair cut lady doesn't go on and on about how hard and horrible her life is today. I can't handle it. I need her to talk about anything else. Something light and funny would be good. She likes me so she always feels like she can confide in me which is great normally but right now I'm not up for sad and awful stuff. I have enough of that in my head. If I wasn't at work I could try talking over the voices. I think my T would tell me to talk to them. Yeah> like I want to be THAT person talking to herself.

This is not a good day.

I totally understand this. I'ts a torture chamber. Keep searching for remedy! That's all we can do, & believe we will eventually succeed.

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Blue_Bird Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jun 2013 Location: Hogwarts Posts: 36,743 (SuperPoster!) 10 14.3k hugs given	May 06, 2021 at 10:22 PM #902 I’m so sleep deprived. But I’ve been ultra productive the past several days Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk __________________ My Blog: https://livingwithachaoticmind.wordpress.com/ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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Desoxyn Metaphysic Member Since Aug 2016 Location: The Netherlands Posts: 12,987 (SuperPoster!) 7 4,912 hugs given	May 07, 2021 at 01:08 AM #905 Edit: I'm just really stressed out and antipsychotics really suck Last edited by Desoxyn; May 07, 2021 at 01:26 AM..
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cogladaid Elder Member Since Jul 2015 Location: Nowhere Posts: 5,565 8	May 07, 2021 at 04:50 AM #906 I fell asleep sometime after 9pm. Woke up at 11pm. Woke up again at 2am and I’ve been awake ever since watching TV. I have to be up for work in about two hours. Oops. Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk
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newtus The Dopamine Flux Member Since Jun 2010 Location: Ardenweald Posts: 43,644 (SuperPoster!) 13 867 hugs given	May 07, 2021 at 06:05 AM #907 I’ve been crying since last night I feel like complete shyt physically I think it’s the second shot __________________ "We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living" The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII
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cogladaid Elder Member Since Jul 2015 Location: Nowhere Posts: 5,565 8	May 07, 2021 at 08:22 AM #909 I’m listening to music and I just feel like there are messages in it but I can’t understand them. Meds are blocking the messages Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk
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WastingAsparagus Student of Life Member Since Mar 2014 Location: South America Posts: 4,658 10 2,911 hugs given	May 07, 2021 at 09:10 AM #912 Also, I'm doing fine today, always doubting my psychiatrist and stuff, but doing fine, and moving forward with life. I think I will give my psychiatrist another chance. Because it's really disruptive to switch and stuff. __________________ "Whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it!”
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Erti Princess Tutu Member Since Jun 2011 Location: Nowhere Posts: 7,912 12 2,894 hugs given	May 07, 2021 at 10:47 AM #916 The kids are back home... cps can suck it!
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SlumberKitty Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jul 2018 Location: CA Posts: 27,329 (SuperPoster!) 5 117.7k hugs given	May 07, 2021 at 10:57 AM #917 Got my hair cut/trimmed. Managed to refrain from doing anything to harm myself like the voices wanted. The voices are still there but they seem a little more muted today so maybe this is a good thing. __________________ Dum Spiro Spero IC XC NIKA
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SlumberKitty Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jul 2018 Location: CA Posts: 27,329 (SuperPoster!) 5 117.7k hugs given	May 07, 2021 at 11:13 AM #919 Thanks, @Ceara1010 hope you have a good day too! __________________ Dum Spiro Spero IC XC NIKA
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