Roll Call 185

I get really bored when it's not busy at work and the time just draaaggggsss on forever. I usually will start cleaning stuff

Today at work was rough. I feel like i have a cold or something so already not feeling great. Then 2 coworkers went on break at the same time which you don't do. so i was by myself and there's a line of people and i just wanted to die right there. I complained to someone about it and i guess they went and told one of my coworkers that was on break. So she comes back and says FOR THE RECORD i didn't go on break with her i went before her and then she went. I'm like ok whatever

I'm too old for drama and a lot of these girls are 21 years old. Maybe I'm just jaded but i don't have time for ******** and i do not let people disrespect me. I told her that i was frustrated because they both left and i was by myself and it was busy. sometimes i really have to mind what comes out of my mouth. Cause i don't want problems. But i want people to know what I think and how I feel about it.

Retail sux

So guys....

I think objective reality is starting to get symptoms of psychosis

Anyways I'll get the moderna vaccine next week cuz variants

It definitely seems like collective reality as a whole has gone into some sort of delusional mindset

I'm just like oh are y'all new here?

I think I worked retail for a year? Same things happened to me. Also I'm starting to get annoyed by Zoomers as well. But before age 20 I was as immature as could possibly be (High dose Abilify).

My dad said "You won't be here forever. Remember that" but it really felt like I would. I was suicidal almost every day, bringing shopping carts into the store. I once had to take one shopping cart from my old high school math teacher which I shouldn't be embarrassed about - But I was good at math yet high school for me was torture and most of my classmates had it good, went to university etc..

I remember my dad visiting me in the psych ward in Canada all the way from Argentina. He clipped my nails on a bench outside cuz I wasn't taking care of myself. We need people to encourage us and not say "Suck it up" etc. It's not normal to make ZERO money to work for billionaires so people can buy their groceries and binge eat/watch Netflix, destroy the environment - I could go on forever about this.

Stay strong! This isn't forever. Wait 1-2 years and the world might be in decay idk.. Prepare. We're all on the same space ship flying through the galaxy.

"Life is so beautiful that it is worth fighting for" is my daily quote today.. Possible jadedness is good. I have a humorous dark side.. All people are different.. The varieties of people = Infinite colours of paint spread across space and time.. They're all just realms.. Everything changes eventually. Be smart and manipulate your way through reality. Treat yourself for good things like good music.

Sometimes I feel like an apathetic sociopath and other times I cry or have ecstasy.. The world was set up where they dipped us in an ocean of black darkness.. Then we wake up.. But it's never too late for anything - Like Bitcoin for example or making amends, living your dreams, saving the world.

You will be OK ^-; Read some good books, do your things.. I don't do many things.. Work helps me to appreciate more but it also takes my energy.

Trauma runs the economy

Deep jungle tribes uh.. deep jungle tribes - mushroom, deep jungle tribes - full moon, deep jungle tribes - shaman..

10 Ways to Make Your Life More Magical!
Watch the sunrise or the sunset. ...
Visit your parents, stay for dinner and ask them to tell you a story about before you were born. ...
Create your life soundtrack. ...
Treat yourself with flowers. ...
Start a gratitude jar or journal. ...
Make healthy changes to your diet. ...
Make something from nothing. ...
Send a hand written letter.
Organise a friend day-date with your besties.
Lie on the grass and stare at the clouds.

my sleep schedule is awful and my apartment is a f*cking mess.....not having a good time, pretty sure im depressed.

My moms chart says she has days to weeks left.....and yet no doctor has explained that. I’m hoping it’s a mistake in my interpretation.

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((HUGS))

So sorry SP

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I’m sorry to hear SP

"We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living"

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So I got triggered again this morning from someone's post here but I lay down for awhile and calmed down. I get triggered by specific words people use, momentarily thinking there's a double meaning to what they are saying. (I know that is a classic schizophrenic symptom.) Then I try to put "blinders" on and assure myself it's not real. If it causes anxiety, I use DBT to calm down. I'm talking about all this with my T and pdoc and we have been adjusting my meds accordingly. (Although the increased meds are mucking with my self care.)

The vet has increased my dog's anti-anxiety meds to help with her nuisance barking and it's helping so far although she continues to get me up early, demanding her morning apples.

Despite getting triggered this morning, I'm feeling good about it being Friday. Friday always perks me up. My sister with be coming over this afternoon and we will order dinner and watch the new The Conjuring movie. I really look forward to visiting with her.

Hope you all have a peaceful day.

Ceara

SP, so sorry to hear about your mom, sending you both love and hugs and prayers.

This is a really great list!

Tomorrow is go to the shelter day and look at cats to adopt! So excited!


I went to the dreaded Walmart yesterday and stocked up on cat stuff.

A new bed
A scratchy thing
Toys
Collar
Food bowl/water bowl (didn't want to reuse Esther's)
Cat food

I'm hoping to find a cat tomorrow that fits the bill. Amelia is very easy going. I mean she is skittish but she isn't bossy or demanding. She is the submissive sort. So if new cat ends up being bossy that would be okay. I'm setting up the spare room to put new cat in there so she will have time to adjust to the sights, sounds, smells of the house. Then I will slowly introduce her to Amelia and to Emma (mom's dog). I'm more concerned about Mom's dog because she chases Amelia through the house sometimes and barks at her. But at least she is cat sized (about 10 lbs) and she sleeps a lot (she's 11) so that helps. Amelia just sneaks by her on the way to my room or whatever. Excited for tomorrow. I hope they have a cat that fits the bill.

Hopefully it’s a mistake

Lack of sleep for two days. Body feels weird

Pretty awesome post I've gotta say.