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#401
I wanna be able not to be reached at certain times. I am setting up cell phone office hours. I think I'll keep my phone off from all hours of the day except 5:00 - 6:00 PM. I know it sounds extreme, but I mean, this is really causing me problems.
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#402
I ended up sleeping most of the day. I wasn't fully awake till 6:30pm
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#403
Feeling nauseas
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#404
Eh, I am good again. Just took my 15 mg prescribed olanzapine. Helps a lot.
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#405
I think I have to practice gratitude like Desoxyn said. Honestly. I have a lot to be grateful for. I have a job. I have meds that work pretty well. That alone is a lot.
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#406
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#407
My current psychiatrist and my previous psychiatrist offered to put me on Effexor (Venlafaxine - An SNRI) but I said no (Not yet).
I never tried it. I should try a low dose (25-37.5mg) and see if it could help with my symptoms; "Sadness, unhappiness Loss of interest in enjoyable activities Anger, frustration, irritability Sleep changes (too much or too little) Feelings of worthlessness Thoughts of death or suicide; suicidal attempts Weight loss or weight gain" A little serotonin to lift my mood, a little more norepinephrine for alertness and ADHD.. Why not? I'll taper off of phenibut completely, stop smoking weed and stop using psilocybin mushrooms. I should give it a try... Cuz self medicating is extremely mentally exhausting. |
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#408
It can increase blood pressure dramatically in some people... Idk man. I asked someone and he said that it made him irritable.
Edit: Nah I'll just quit the phenibut etc.. I'll see how I am with ONE WEEK, just prescribed med. But it will take about 2 weeks of tapering. I will start tomorrow. |
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#409
I finally got myself to vacuum my apartment. And I did laundry. Still have to clean up the bathroom, kitchen and clean the trash can.
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Just going to throw this out there but irritability can come with high mood in some people....it may not have that effect on you. If they tapering etc doesn’t work I would consider trying it. Sent from my iPad using Tapatalk __________________ Hugs! |
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#411
So bf and I had a long discussion about him yelling at me and he realizes he was wrong....he said he thought it would help me remember. I was like it’s no big deal if I forget there’s a light switch at the door you can use....I mean really. Not a big deal. We were talking about his mom and how she stopped eating once she found out the food was from me....I was like yep.
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#412
So it’s occurred to me I’m living the life of rapunzel. Trapped in an upstairs bedroom except when I go downstairs to eat. Plus there are a million rules. I don’t think I can live like this but I’m not sure where I want to be either. Housing is so unaffordable right now.
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#413
I'm feeling better today. Had a good sleep.
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#414
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#415
The restaurant owners son really bothered me at work today. This happens every time he comes in an hour before I leave.
He asks me "How's life?" and I said "It's alright" and then laughed at me. He asks me what I do like if I go skiing and I said I go 2x a week. I felt the need to explain that it isn't all I do extrovertedly - But I'm an introvert so what am I really going to tell him? I said that I don't like the winter cuz it's cold can't go hiking or mountain biking. His sister gave me a cold drink and he said "He doesn't like the cold" and they laughed - So I said "Yes but I like this drink" and he laughed again. I don't just not like the cold. Sometimes I have cold showers, I like snow - I like fresh air. It's like my mind is made up of nonsense when people try to talk to me. He asked "How's your gf?" and I said "I don't have one" so he asked "How's your bf" and I said that I'm not gay. I'm don't think of myself as just gay because my sexuality is complicated. Mental illness was what I was dealing with in high school and all I remember from that time was an idiot telling everyone I'm gay. That's all they cared about. I wasn't even aware of my sexuality because I was dealing with much more severe things. I explained bisexuality and asexuality to someone on a video chat and he said that I'm asexual because my mom is a "*****" cuz she cheated on my dad. I don't even have a problem with promiscuity - He obviously did. He told me to call him "Dad" - I already have a dad? It was at the time I said that she was going through breast cancer. He told me to buy a dog and everyone was like "Yeah buy a dog" - But I have a cat? Do people just not think I have any emotion or I'm cynical? He said that I don't make facial expressions (Isn't that an autism/schizophrenia thing?) and after I said that I doubted my diagnosis, he said that I should stop my meds and I'll never get out of the psychiatric system. He said that I should play a sport - So he made me listen to this person talking about flying disks. He said that I would end up as a serial killer or turn to religion. It's like I'm a huge joke to people in real life and that people see me much differently than to how I see myself. My family and close friends are the only people that actually know me. What am I supposed to say? "Once you get passed the mystery about me, you'll realize that I'm not a joke for you to hate". It's the same thing at previous places that I worked at. I'm always told to smile so I did - And then I seem like an idiot. I talked to two soldiers before and I said "Brb I need to go for a piss" and they were like "Finally you said something human". What does this all mean? I don't know why people do this to me. My mind tortures itself enough already every day. |
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#416
I can't do this anymore. My life just keeps getting worse and worse because of how I think.
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#417
Just woke up from a nap with the cat, I keep taking naps every day lately because my meds make me so tired
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#418
I'm just going to ignore what people say and not care and at least try to be happy.
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#419
Sorry for what you're going through Desoxyn, I don't have any advice since I'm bad at giving advice but I just wanted to let you know that even if I don't reply, I read your posts and we all care about you here
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#420
My sister hasn't shown up again. So I still don't have that paperwork I needed from her 3 weeks ago. I'm gonna just have to talk to my care/case manager and see if she can help me get the paperwork some other way
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