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#561
Crazy dreams, hard to get out of bed, took stim at 9am, dragging on with work but enough energy to get by, came home, shower, clean litter box, made coffee, gave my cat some milk, refilled more stim and will now smoke weed, look at whats happening in this crazy world then might read something on my tablet..
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I'm going to stretch my ears again back to a 22mm gauge. I miss all the fun colorful different styles of plugs I used to wear. I left them without wearing anything in them for a few years and they shrank back down. But I'm really getting the urge to wear them again. I'll have to start back out from the beginning it will take awhile till I'm at 22mm again.
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It helped to organize/write daily tasks on a piece of paper. It seemed weird because I wrote down every single thing that I did - I started off with 1-2 things a day (Because I was so dissociated and panicky). I used to not do anything.. No shower, or brushing teeth, no making my bed, no chores (Once my moms ex got kicked out) - I didn't know what to do. In the psych hospital, my dad took me to a bench outside to cut my nails because I wasn't taking care of myself and told me to get haircuts, shower etc. But it's good now.. It just takes time to build habit. If I don't do the things I need to do, I can't focus and get intrusive thoughts. Taking the stimulant as prescribed really helps too. I still procrastinate things because I'd rather scroll social media and listen to music etc but I make sure to keep thinking about what I want to do until I finally do it. Sometimes it can take days. I remember in high school, no one wanted to do a certain safety course (It was one of the biggest pains) and a classmate said "Let's just get it done and over with" and I thought to myself, "Wtf? How can someone be like that?".. I was really depressed but I thought about it for a long time. |
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That's awesome! I'm trying to get like that, it will take some work but I think I can do it __________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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#566
I use Microsoft's To-Do app to keep track of things.
This is tomorrows to do list, plus washing/changing bed sheets and washing my comforter. I also will need to take a shower. It will all take a few hours but I can just take it one step at a time. I'll start at 8am tomorrow morning then report back on here around 1pm with how it went, to help hold me accountable kind of Sent from my M8L using Tapatalk __________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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#567
Been feeling kinda meh even though I have the day off and all. Idk we went out to the park but it was so cold we walked like ten minutes total and the rest of the day was errands. I feel like a change is coming, maybe I’ll go out on my own tomorrow….it’s championship weekend or some sporty thing that bf wants to see. So maybe I should go out on my own.
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#568
I feel nauseous and have a headache. I think it’s because I keep waking up too late and missing my morning meds
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#569
I feel weird and paranoid.
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I don't know, the morning ones are trileptal, Zoloft, abilify, Wellbutrin, naltrexone. These are the ones I keep missing
The night ones I haven't been missing are the 2nd dose of trileptal and my thorazine. Those I've been taking. Sent from my M8L using Tapatalk __________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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Pretty soon once I'm off the trileptal I'll just be on
10mg abilify 200mg Zoloft 300mg Wellbutrin 50mg Naltrexone And 200mg thorazine Klonopin prn but I rarely take that That's the least amount of meds I've been on in a long time. I hope things go well with coming off the trileptal. I have been on it for like 6 or more years. So we'll see. So far we stopped the 300mg afternoon dose of trileptal. I'm still taking 600mg in the morning and 600mg at night. We're cutting it down one pill per week till I'm off it. Sent from my M8L using Tapatalk __________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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#575
I feel very anxious and slightly paranoid about some things I can't keep letting my anxiety and whatnot take over though.
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#576
It’s 4 degrees right now with a wind chill that makes it feel like -14 degrees
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Does the abilfy keep you awake at night, it actually makes me sleepy so I take it at night. Anyway since it’s your main AP you might want to move it so you’ll take it every day. It’s got a 72 hr half life but the dose if you miss is still too low. Sent from my iPad using Tapatalk __________________ Hugs! |
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#579
I have some lavender scented wax welting in my Scentsy wax warmer, smells amazing
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#580
So I was at work.. And people were talking casually. I wanted to say things but it felt the same as when I was as a teenager. I felt anxious.
I still feel paranoid about the vaccine. The spots all over my body don't seem to be going away. I procrastinated the first shot and then didn't want to take the second but the bloody government phoned me and told me to get it - So I did. I'm definitely not getting the third or more. I was tricked. This whole world is ****ed - And I'm in too much fear to at least enjoy my life during the end times. A coworker was talking to someone as I walked out the door about the situation in Canada and she said "Yeah now a bunch of people are awakening to the corruption". I just have to accept my decision. Anyways, I see my psychiatrist tomorrow. I am dependent on a very low dose of phenibut. I wish I could do MDMA assisted psychotherapy or something. I don't know what to do. I need to write a book or something about my past and what happened. I'm so confused. My decision making is too fixed now to buy any drugs. All I'm basically doing is waiting to die it seems. I'm going to tell my mom about all of this. I took extra phenibut which should kick in soon. It's extremely difficult. I don't know how most people can think spiritually and I needed psilocybin to be normal. And no one knows what is real - It's all nonsense. I went on Twitter and I think, "Why are people wasting their time trying to be RIGHT?". I feel like we're too lost to save at this point. I knew this in 2012. That's why I gave up - Everything was chaos. My parents and ex step dad are insane. I grew up in nonsense, I will die in nonsense and my afterlife will also be nonsense. |
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