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Desoxyn · Feb 11, 2022 at 07:06 PM

Things are ok

WastingAsparagus · Feb 12, 2022 at 10:29 AM

Yup, things are ok for me as well. I think listening to my doctors is smart right now for me. I will not listen to the voices in my head telling me I should get off of Klonopin.

WastingAsparagus · Feb 12, 2022 at 10:29 AM

Right now I am ripping old CDs so that I have them on my computer.

Blue_Bird · Feb 12, 2022 at 10:39 AM

Heading to my friend's house in a few minutes

junkDNA · Feb 12, 2022 at 10:41 AM

So exhausted. On day 4 of 9 hr shifts in a row. Today's the last day then I get a day off

WastingAsparagus · Feb 12, 2022 at 10:51 AM

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So exhausted. On day 4 of 9 hr shifts in a row. Today's the last day then I get a day off

At my old job there was the option to do 4 10-hour shifts in a week instead of 5 8-hr shifts. I always thought the 10-hour would be nice but it would be exhausting like you describe.

Sometimes psychotic · Feb 12, 2022 at 12:01 PM

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I feel like not seeing my therapist anymore. I don't think it helps quite honestly. It's silly to pay the amount I pay for it.

I think I’m cutting mine to once a month….it’s just so time consuming and draining for me right now. I’d don’t feel like I’m learning anything.

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Blue_Bird · Feb 12, 2022 at 05:13 PM

Just got home. Had a fun time, we watched Godzilla vs Kong, then a Japanese horror movie, then we had McDonald's

Desoxyn · Feb 12, 2022 at 05:21 PM

9 out of 12 weeks before next Invega Trinza shot + Wellbutrin.

I will get more dopamines. Precious.. precious dopamine...

Blue_Bird · Feb 12, 2022 at 05:27 PM

I walked 5,800 steps today. I'm tired from going out today, plus I woke up at 4am, only slept 3 hours last night

Blue_Bird · Feb 12, 2022 at 05:59 PM

Well thankfully Stash seemed to be okay with me being gone for so long, I've never left her longer than an hour or so, I was gone for 6 hours today. She' was really happy to see me of course though when I got home, she was snuggling. That's good to know, that I don't have to worry too much about her whenever I get a part-time job and am gone 15 or so hours out of the week every week. I missed her while I was gone though, I kept thinking about her and worrying about her, I have separation anxiety with my cat Lol

junkDNA · Feb 12, 2022 at 09:53 PM

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Originally Posted by WastingAsparagus

At my old job there was the option to do 4 10-hour shifts in a week instead of 5 8-hr shifts. I always thought the 10-hour would be nice but it would be exhausting like you describe.

i like the long shifts but i prefer to have a day off inbetween instead of all 4 in a row. i dont get a lunch break either so im literally standing on my feet for 9 hrs straight lol

junkDNA · Feb 12, 2022 at 09:54 PM

my feet are so sore and swollen

junkDNA · Feb 12, 2022 at 09:54 PM

and i saw someone get fired today

Desoxyn · Feb 13, 2022 at 07:00 PM

I smoked weed and had insights - I wrote a page of them down. But they are incomplete scribblings.

Everything seems like it's not moving. I'm in the dark... Not much happening - But the whole world, chaos. So much of it.

Desoxyn · Feb 13, 2022 at 07:07 PM

My mom says that it's hot in the house. It is.. (24C). But I feel so cold.

So I turned on the Dyson fan to heat.

Desoxyn · Feb 13, 2022 at 07:22 PM

I put my hands under hot water and can't feel the heat - and my hands still turn red.

This kind of freaks me out

Maybe the water isn't heated much in the boiler

Blue_Bird · Feb 13, 2022 at 07:23 PM

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Originally Posted by Desoxyn

I put my hands under hot water and can't feel the heat - and my hands still turn red.

This kind of freaks me out

Maybe the water isn't heated much in the boiler

Are you feeling dissociated? That can kind of make you feel numb, disconnected

Desoxyn · Feb 13, 2022 at 07:27 PM

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Are you feeling dissociated? That can kind of make you feel numb, disconnected

My mom says that the people upstairs ran a bath just recently. She put her hand underneath and it wasn't that hot.

Fack.. I freak out. I do get dissociated because I don't remember anything.. I don't get DP/DR anymore because of the olanzepine though - But the philosophy of illusion reality will stay with me forever.

The pandemic life has killed my already fragile mind lol..

Blue_Bird · Feb 13, 2022 at 07:29 PM

That burger and fries from McDonald's yesterday was so good. My friend and I were just randomly talking about food and I mentioned how I had been craving hamburgers for awhile and he said he was craving them too so he bought some for us. That was really nice of him. Next time we hang out and I have some extra money I'll buy some McDonalds for us too.

I've been playing the new Pokémon game a lot today. Having a lot of fun with it.

Tomorrow I need to go to the library to return some books

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Blue_Bird Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jun 2013 Location: Hogwarts Posts: 36,898 (SuperPoster!) 11 14.4k hugs given	Feb 12, 2022 at 10:39 AM #844 Heading to my friend's house in a few minutes __________________ My Blog: https://livingwithachaoticmind.wordpress.com/ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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junkDNA Comfy Sedation Member Since Sep 2012 Location: the woods Posts: 19,303 (SuperPoster!) 11 8,151 hugs given	Feb 12, 2022 at 10:41 AM #845 So exhausted. On day 4 of 9 hr shifts in a row. Today's the last day then I get a day off __________________
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Blue_Bird Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jun 2013 Location: Hogwarts Posts: 36,898 (SuperPoster!) 11 14.4k hugs given	Feb 12, 2022 at 05:13 PM #848 Just got home. Had a fun time, we watched Godzilla vs Kong, then a Japanese horror movie, then we had McDonald's __________________ My Blog: https://livingwithachaoticmind.wordpress.com/ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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Desoxyn Metaphysic Member Since Aug 2016 Location: The Netherlands Posts: 13,023 (SuperPoster!) 7 4,928 hugs given	Feb 12, 2022 at 05:21 PM #849 9 out of 12 weeks before next Invega Trinza shot + Wellbutrin. I will get more dopamines. Precious.. precious dopamine...
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Blue_Bird Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jun 2013 Location: Hogwarts Posts: 36,898 (SuperPoster!) 11 14.4k hugs given	Feb 12, 2022 at 05:27 PM #850 I walked 5,800 steps today. I'm tired from going out today, plus I woke up at 4am, only slept 3 hours last night __________________ My Blog: https://livingwithachaoticmind.wordpress.com/ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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junkDNA Comfy Sedation Member Since Sep 2012 Location: the woods Posts: 19,303 (SuperPoster!) 11 8,151 hugs given	Feb 12, 2022 at 09:54 PM #853 my feet are so sore and swollen __________________
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Desoxyn Metaphysic Member Since Aug 2016 Location: The Netherlands Posts: 13,023 (SuperPoster!) 7 4,928 hugs given	Feb 13, 2022 at 07:00 PM #855 I smoked weed and had insights - I wrote a page of them down. But they are incomplete scribblings. Everything seems like it's not moving. I'm in the dark... Not much happening - But the whole world, chaos. So much of it.
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Desoxyn Metaphysic Member Since Aug 2016 Location: The Netherlands Posts: 13,023 (SuperPoster!) 7 4,928 hugs given	Feb 13, 2022 at 07:07 PM #856 My mom says that it's hot in the house. It is.. (24C). But I feel so cold. So I turned on the Dyson fan to heat.
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Desoxyn Metaphysic Member Since Aug 2016 Location: The Netherlands Posts: 13,023 (SuperPoster!) 7 4,928 hugs given	Feb 13, 2022 at 07:22 PM #857 I put my hands under hot water and can't feel the heat - and my hands still turn red. This kind of freaks me out Maybe the water isn't heated much in the boiler
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