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#963
We just ate out for the first time in a restaurant….we figure if we’re going mask free in a week we may as well.
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Possible trigger:
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I think I perceive mental anxiety as something beneficial - Except physical anxiety or when I'm having depersonalization/derealization.
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Hugs bluebird…I have been struggling because I haven’t been out doing fun stuff in a couple weeks…it magnifies everything and the lack of sun doesn’t help? Are you possibly experiencing any of the same? Maybe sit in the courtyard tomorrow. Maybe make plans with your friend?
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Angelique67, Sometimes psychotic
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I'm thinking of getting back into drawing again
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Yes.. positively, life has been good. I have learned many things.
It will get better. I just hate how I was so isolated - Then when I move to a national park, everything changed. I have good memories.... Things shouldn't be so black and white. Yesterday I Googled like 50 questions, found articles.. About self awareness and such. With high self-awareness, people don't usually use drugs - They question the reason as to why they take something. Many just do it without giving a second thought. It's difficult. Idk what to do with things.. I regret not getting to this point sooner. I just can't be sober constantly or else the awareness would present too many things at once and I wouldn't be able to handle that - So I have to ease myself into it. Anyways, I fnished 3 days of work! - Now I get a break. I took an extra 30mg Vyvanse yesterday and spent 2 hours in bed just thinking and thinking. I think too much. I don't do things as much as I think. I love to think... I like the puzzle of my mind. |
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I feel very agitated. I've also lost interest in most things I like (reading, gaming, shows/movies, spending time with people, exercising, etc) I just don't feel joy when I do them the past couple days which is really strange/unusual for me,and it's hard to get myself to shower lately.
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My mind has never felt this complex/complicated before.
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My mom is burning out from work - It's unbelievable the complexity of what she is doing and what she is keeping track of. She says that talking to my dad on the phone made her feel anxious because he's so arrogant etc.
She's always so positive and expressive - and wonders why people always put her down. She can't handle it anymore. I told my dad that he should be nice to her.. But he says that he only cares about me - And that we have a broken family. He thinks that she's not stressed - Or caused it to herself etc. All I'm doing lately is investing in myself. I have a good life to do that. If the drama happens once more, I will leave. I just can't deal with so much awareness and pain all at once - I need to drug myself. But I've been doing that since my ex step dad was around - Just this time, I'm more responsible. My mom is getting older and won't be able to attract people with her looks, will want a face lift and such. I'm just saying these things as they are.. Some of her personality is based on her looks because she has trauma and feels worthless. I don't know what to say to people that feel that way - I feel like that sometimes and I ask for help about it. My dad says that I'm smart and can figure things out - But bad luck can happen. My sister left.. All my mom has left is me. It will get bad. The world is getting bad too. I'm not sure if my mind is getting better or deteriorating further. |
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#976
I am reading a book on self-esteem called "The Myth of Self-Esteem..." by Albert Ellis.
It is a good book, and it engages my philosophical side, which is interesting. I got a job helping students with their essays again, but I'm not quite sure I want to do it. Maybe I'll give it a go just because. __________________ "Whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it!” |
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#977
Good morning everyone. I am going off of caffeine today.
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#978
Hey everybody! Just caught up on the roll call.
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