advertisement
Reply
Thread Tools Display Modes
Desoxyn
Metaphysic
 
Desoxyn's Avatar
Desoxyn We are one mind
 
Member Since: Aug 2016
Location: The Netherlands
Posts: 12,962 (SuperPoster!)
5 yr Member
4,902 hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default Jan 21, 2022 at 07:54 PM
  #361
I want ketamine..

I also want my dx changed from "schizophrenia" to "ASD with psychosis"

Cuz Autism = ADHD and OCD

+ I'm not afraid of psychosis in the slightest. I get quasi-psychosis...

So thy lower thee antipsychotics

Enough of this "caught early" stuff.. Although being on the injection probably saved me from bad neuron pruning
Desoxyn is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
 
Hugs from:
Breaking Dawn, SlumberKitty
 
Thanks for this!
Breaking Dawn

advertisement
Desoxyn
Metaphysic
 
Desoxyn's Avatar
Desoxyn We are one mind
 
Member Since: Aug 2016
Location: The Netherlands
Posts: 12,962 (SuperPoster!)
5 yr Member
4,902 hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default Jan 21, 2022 at 08:30 PM
  #362
Unless "schizophrenia" really is what I have. But I think it's much more complicated than some disease that doesn't heal and if you are cured, you never really had it.

I tried to understand.. But I don't.
Desoxyn is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
 
Hugs from:
Breaking Dawn, SlumberKitty
 
Thanks for this!
Breaking Dawn
Desoxyn
Metaphysic
 
Desoxyn's Avatar
Desoxyn We are one mind
 
Member Since: Aug 2016
Location: The Netherlands
Posts: 12,962 (SuperPoster!)
5 yr Member
4,902 hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default Jan 21, 2022 at 08:46 PM
  #363
I can't focus
Desoxyn is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
 
Hugs from:
Breaking Dawn, SlumberKitty
 
Thanks for this!
Breaking Dawn
Breaking Dawn
Legendary
 
Breaking Dawn's Avatar
Breaking Dawn Thankful for my blessings.
 
Member Since: Sep 2019
Location: USA
Posts: 16,689 (SuperPoster!)
3 yr Member
42.2k hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default Jan 21, 2022 at 10:14 PM
  #364
Quote:
Originally Posted by Desoxyn View Post
Unless "schizophrenia" really is what I have. But I think it's much more complicated than some disease that doesn't heal and if you are cured, you never really had it.

I tried to understand.. But I don't.
Oh my goodness, you sound like I feel! It's so hard! I have the voices, but that doesn't make me whatever the so-called experts say I am.

__________________
"Every moment is a fresh beginning." (T. S. Eliot)

"Problems are not stop signs, they are guidelines."(Robert H. Schiuller)

* * * * * *
Breaking Dawn is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
 
Hugs from:
Desoxyn, SlumberKitty
 
Thanks for this!
Desoxyn
Desoxyn
Metaphysic
 
Desoxyn's Avatar
Desoxyn We are one mind
 
Member Since: Aug 2016
Location: The Netherlands
Posts: 12,962 (SuperPoster!)
5 yr Member
4,902 hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default Jan 21, 2022 at 10:20 PM
  #365
My mind is organizing. I'm updating my notes and such and visualizing the things that I do.

It will take time...
Desoxyn is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
 
Hugs from:
Breaking Dawn, SlumberKitty
Desoxyn
Metaphysic
 
Desoxyn's Avatar
Desoxyn We are one mind
 
Member Since: Aug 2016
Location: The Netherlands
Posts: 12,962 (SuperPoster!)
5 yr Member
4,902 hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default Jan 21, 2022 at 10:22 PM
  #366
Quote:
Originally Posted by Breaking Dawn View Post
Oh my goodness, you sound like I feel! It's so hard! I have the voices, but that doesn't make me whatever the so-called experts say I am.
Voices didn't bother me. But psychiatrists wanted them gone - They were like "Nope! That's not normal..."

DP/DR voices/thoughts however did bother me. It was one of the worst things I've went through.
Desoxyn is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
 
Hugs from:
Breaking Dawn, SlumberKitty
Desoxyn
Metaphysic
 
Desoxyn's Avatar
Desoxyn We are one mind
 
Member Since: Aug 2016
Location: The Netherlands
Posts: 12,962 (SuperPoster!)
5 yr Member
4,902 hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default Jan 21, 2022 at 10:28 PM
  #367
Auditory hallucinations, at least I perceive that I can hear them physically..

Dissociative voices(?) feel like I'm truly losing my mind and that reality/my mind isn't real.
Desoxyn is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
 
Hugs from:
Breaking Dawn, SlumberKitty
Breaking Dawn
Legendary
 
Breaking Dawn's Avatar
Breaking Dawn Thankful for my blessings.
 
Member Since: Sep 2019
Location: USA
Posts: 16,689 (SuperPoster!)
3 yr Member
42.2k hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default Jan 21, 2022 at 10:40 PM
  #368
Quote:
Originally Posted by Desoxyn View Post
Auditory hallucinations, at least I perceive that I can hear them physically..

Dissociative voices(?) feel like I'm truly losing my mind and that reality/my mind isn't real.
But that's what I deal with every day all day long.

__________________
"Every moment is a fresh beginning." (T. S. Eliot)

"Problems are not stop signs, they are guidelines."(Robert H. Schiuller)

* * * * * *
Breaking Dawn is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
 
Hugs from:
Desoxyn, SlumberKitty, Sometimes psychotic
Desoxyn
Metaphysic
 
Desoxyn's Avatar
Desoxyn We are one mind
 
Member Since: Aug 2016
Location: The Netherlands
Posts: 12,962 (SuperPoster!)
5 yr Member
4,902 hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default Jan 21, 2022 at 10:48 PM
  #369
Quote:
Originally Posted by Breaking Dawn View Post
But that's what I deal with every day all day long.
I'm sorry <3

Risperidone stopped my voices but I only heard 10-20 a day. It wasn't bad so idk what it's really like. ((Hugs))
Desoxyn is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
 
Hugs from:
Breaking Dawn, SlumberKitty
 
Thanks for this!
Breaking Dawn
Desoxyn
Metaphysic
 
Desoxyn's Avatar
Desoxyn We are one mind
 
Member Since: Aug 2016
Location: The Netherlands
Posts: 12,962 (SuperPoster!)
5 yr Member
4,902 hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default Jan 21, 2022 at 11:04 PM
  #370
I'm starting to feel better now..
Desoxyn is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
 
Hugs from:
Breaking Dawn, SlumberKitty
 
Thanks for this!
Angelique67
Breaking Dawn
Legendary
 
Breaking Dawn's Avatar
Breaking Dawn Thankful for my blessings.
 
Member Since: Sep 2019
Location: USA
Posts: 16,689 (SuperPoster!)
3 yr Member
42.2k hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default Jan 21, 2022 at 11:11 PM
  #371
Quote:
Originally Posted by Desoxyn View Post
I'm sorry <3

Risperidone stopped my voices but I only heard 10-20 a day. It wasn't bad so idk what it's really like. ((Hugs))
Thank you! If only! I wish so much!

__________________
"Every moment is a fresh beginning." (T. S. Eliot)

"Problems are not stop signs, they are guidelines."(Robert H. Schiuller)

* * * * * *
Breaking Dawn is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
 
Hugs from:
Desoxyn, SlumberKitty, Sometimes psychotic
 
Thanks for this!
Desoxyn
cogladaid
Elder
 
cogladaid's Avatar
cogladaid is feeling more stable
 
Member Since: Jul 2015
Location: Nowhere
Posts: 5,559
8 yr Member PC PoohBah!
Default Jan 22, 2022 at 10:05 AM
  #372
I’m sorry just everything is just annoying to me now. Like I spent years battling my mental health and I finally got to feeling under control and now what? I might have lymphoma?

Did some tests and have more tests to do so there’s no update on it but it’s just been going around my head a lot lately.

Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk
cogladaid is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
 
Hugs from:
Blue_Bird, Breaking Dawn, Desoxyn, Erti, Job 30 26, junkDNA, SlumberKitty, Sometimes psychotic
unsure123
Grand Poohbah
 
unsure123's Avatar
unsure123 has no updates.
 
Member Since: Apr 2014
Location: uk
Posts: 1,607
8 yr Member
45 hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default Jan 22, 2022 at 01:34 PM
  #373
Quote:
Originally Posted by cogladaid View Post
I’m sorry just everything is just annoying to me now. Like I spent years battling my mental health and I finally got to feeling under control and now what? I might have lymphoma?

Did some tests and have more tests to do so there’s no update on it but it’s just been going around my head a lot lately.

Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk
((HUGS)) Don't be too hard on yourself, you have a lot going on at the moment.
unsure123 is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
 
Hugs from:
Breaking Dawn, SlumberKitty
 
Thanks for this!
Angelique67, cogladaid
Sometimes psychotic
Legendary Wise Elder
 
Sometimes psychotic's Avatar
Sometimes psychotic Typo queen !
 
Member Since: May 2013
Location: Chicago
Posts: 26,409 (SuperPoster!)
10 yr Member
22.8k hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default Jan 22, 2022 at 02:57 PM
  #374
Quote:
Originally Posted by cogladaid View Post
I’m sorry just everything is just annoying to me now. Like I spent years battling my mental health and I finally got to feeling under control and now what? I might have lymphoma?

Did some tests and have more tests to do so there’s no update on it but it’s just been going around my head a lot lately.

Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk

Hugs cog my only advice is try not to worry until you know for sure.

Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk

__________________
Hugs!
Sometimes psychotic is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
 
Hugs from:
Breaking Dawn, SlumberKitty
 
Thanks for this!
cogladaid
Blue_Bird
Legendary Wise Elder
 
Blue_Bird's Avatar
Blue_Bird is ready for recovery!
 
Member Since: Jun 2013
Location: Hogwarts
Posts: 36,661 (SuperPoster!)
10 yr Member
14.3k hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default Jan 22, 2022 at 07:22 PM
  #375
Sorry cogladaid

__________________


R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16

“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
Blue_Bird is online now   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
 
Hugs from:
Breaking Dawn, SlumberKitty
 
Thanks for this!
cogladaid
Blue_Bird
Legendary Wise Elder
 
Blue_Bird's Avatar
Blue_Bird is ready for recovery!
 
Member Since: Jun 2013
Location: Hogwarts
Posts: 36,661 (SuperPoster!)
10 yr Member
14.3k hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default Jan 22, 2022 at 07:23 PM
  #376
I walked to Family Dollar earlier today and bought some food. Practiced ukulele for awhile tonight, I'm thinking of getting one of those hand/finger exerciser things to help my hands get stronger for playing.

I took a long nap with Stash today, it's always so cozy sleeping with her purring on me.

I'm a little anxious, but am trying to distract myself

Need to clean tomorrow.

Have been playing a lot of games

Have appointments with my psychiatrist and also my therapist next week, both over video. Not sure what I'm going to discuss. I kind of want to come off the trileptal but I've been on it for so damn long I don't know if it's worth bothering with coming off it or not if I'm doing okay.

__________________


R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16

“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
Blue_Bird is online now   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
 
Hugs from:
Breaking Dawn, SlumberKitty
 
Thanks for this!
Angelique67, Breaking Dawn, Desoxyn, Sometimes psychotic, unsure123
Desoxyn
Metaphysic
 
Desoxyn's Avatar
Desoxyn We are one mind
 
Member Since: Aug 2016
Location: The Netherlands
Posts: 12,962 (SuperPoster!)
5 yr Member
4,902 hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default Jan 22, 2022 at 10:00 PM
  #377
I want to be at an airport, ready to fly away
Desoxyn is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
 
Hugs from:
Breaking Dawn, SlumberKitty
Job 30 26
Grand Member
Job 30 26 has no updates.
 
Member Since: Jan 2020
Location: Norway
Posts: 897
3 yr Member
1,251 hugs
given
Default Jan 22, 2022 at 10:37 PM
  #378
I'm sorry, Cogs ((hugs))
Job 30 26 is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
 
Hugs from:
Breaking Dawn, SlumberKitty
 
Thanks for this!
cogladaid
Desoxyn
Metaphysic
 
Desoxyn's Avatar
Desoxyn We are one mind
 
Member Since: Aug 2016
Location: The Netherlands
Posts: 12,962 (SuperPoster!)
5 yr Member
4,902 hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default Jan 23, 2022 at 01:05 AM
  #379
I watched an episode on TV with my mom about mental health, ketamine and psilocybin. It was interesting.

I'm too tired to type about it though. I must sleep.. Work in the morning.
Desoxyn is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
 
Hugs from:
Breaking Dawn, SlumberKitty
 
Thanks for this!
Angelique67, Breaking Dawn
Sometimes psychotic
Legendary Wise Elder
 
Sometimes psychotic's Avatar
Sometimes psychotic Typo queen !
 
Member Since: May 2013
Location: Chicago
Posts: 26,409 (SuperPoster!)
10 yr Member
22.8k hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default Jan 23, 2022 at 10:42 AM
  #380
Idk why but I generally don’t care much about my health….but now I’m sad about it because I have to change and because I need to see a doc and that wreaks havoc with my anxiety.

It snowed a fair amount last night. Just hoping it gets cleaned before work.

Sent from my iPad using Tapatalk

__________________
Hugs!
Sometimes psychotic is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
 
Hugs from:
Breaking Dawn, Desoxyn, junkDNA, SlumberKitty, WastingAsparagus
All times are GMT -5. The time now is 05:50 PM.
Powered by vBulletin® — Copyright © 2000 - 2024, Jelsoft Enterprises Ltd.



 

My Support Forums

My Support Forums is the online community that was originally begun as the Psych Central Forums in 2001. It now runs as an independent self-help support group community for mental health, personality, and psychological issues and is overseen by a group of dedicated, caring volunteers from around the world.

 

Helplines and Lifelines

The material on this site is for informational purposes only, and is not a substitute for medical advice, diagnosis or treatment provided by a qualified health care provider.

Always consult your doctor or mental health professional before trying anything you read here.