[meetlaw]

I spend most of my time at home but when I do leave home my life is miserable.

If I am about to leave the house I have to ”prepare” by emptying my mind of thoughts so I have nothing for people to criticize. On the drive to wherever I want to go I am able to do that to a degree but when I am actually in contact with a person she might say something which I will immediately perceive as a repetition of a thought that should have been controlled. This makes me irate. Then when I have to wait around other normies I feel I have to control my thoughts so that I won’t be criticized while they don’t seem to be controlling their thoughts at all. But this won’t stop them from viewing my body language and laughing when I display self-consciousness. I always have little thoughts that have a negative connotation which I can’t control but people know I have them because of my facial expressions and/or body language. This causes people to repeat them as if they should have been controlled.

Are others experiencing the same kind of misery?

[Skeezyks]

I spend most of my time at home as well. When I do go out it's typically with my spouse and I let her do most of the interacting with store clerks, etc. I just tag along as much as possible, push the grocery cart, carry the bags or whatever. I've always felt as though I must have had a target on my back or that perhaps other people could smell vulnerability on me. Now I simply try to keep to myself as much as possible.

[Breaking Dawn]

I totally relate to all of this!!