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Blue_Bird · May 27, 2022 at 06:08 PM

Watching the Lego Movie when I get up tomorrow at 5am. Haven't seen it in a long time. I also got the Encantato DVD and the Addams Family 2 (the new animated one) DVD from the library. So I'll be watching those over the next few days.

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Desoxyn · May 27, 2022 at 07:09 PM

I have too many interests: How to narrow down and focus on one thing

My most needed article. It's so simple. The video chat people messed me up so bad about this but I'm getting over it ^-

Desoxyn · May 27, 2022 at 07:49 PM

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Yeah delusions is the other possibility but supposedly you can also have delusional disorder if the delusions could really happen. So being followed by the fbi is delusional disorder and telepathically speaking with another galaxy is sz. Either way you’re right it’s psychosis and treatable with the same meds.

I get "thought insertions"/magical thinking like the galaxy/simulation stuff but I'm so used to them. I've learned a lot from these "odd thoughts" that my psychologist said could be problematic.

I'm trying to be happy insane instead of tormented insane. It's the only way. The line is in the middle, balance.

And why? While on paliperidone and olanzepine? They are very good.. But I think the psychedelic drug momentum continues along with stimulant medication/no sedation.

I listened to a psychiatrist say that some people can be "floridly hallucinating every day but as long as it doesn't interfere with daily life, it's not considered as a disorder".

Desoxyn · May 27, 2022 at 07:59 PM

Is there anything wrong with my thinking about this?

I feel like I have no chance - But only if I think I don't. That's the problem.

I just go deeper and deeper into the thing, hoping to understand.

Desoxyn · May 27, 2022 at 08:12 PM

I can't find a word to describe what you're doing so please tell me

What do you know that I don't about me?

Desoxyn · May 27, 2022 at 08:24 PM

How to Handle People Who Play Mind Games With You | HealthGuidance.org

I want to know, in full detail, wtf you are doing and the situation. This has gone on long enough - I've posted here for years. I've changed - But in your eyes I am still the same.

The amount of pain is intentional and if it is, it's sadistic.

It's just like the video chat people.

Sometimes psychotic · May 27, 2022 at 08:33 PM

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Originally Posted by Desoxyn

How to Handle People Who Play Mind Games With You | HealthGuidance.org

I want to know, in full detail, wtf you are doing and the situation. This has gone on long enough - I've posted here for years. I've changed - But in your eyes I am still the same.

The amount of pain is intentional and if it is, it's sadistic.

It's just like the video chat people.

Are you ok? No one is playing mind games with you….

Desoxyn · May 27, 2022 at 08:35 PM

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Originally Posted by Sometimes psychotic

Are you ok? No one is playing mind games with you….

Ok.. As long as you're being honest.. Sorry..

If that isn't more relevant first to cover anything

Sometimes psychotic · May 27, 2022 at 08:41 PM

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Originally Posted by Desoxyn

Ok.. As long as you're being honest.. Sorry..

If that isn't more relevant first to cover anything

Desoxyn we all care a great deal about you and I respect everyone enough not to play with them, especially having experienced this illness and how confusing it can be.

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Desoxyn · May 27, 2022 at 08:47 PM

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Originally Posted by Sometimes psychotic

Desoxyn we all care a great deal about you and I respect everyone enough not to play with them, especially having experienced this illness and how confusing it can be.

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I know that. Sorry I just need reassurance sometimes. I'm ok. Sorry..

Desoxyn · May 27, 2022 at 08:51 PM

Well lately this past year I've been so off. Everyone's dealing with so much stuff with what's going on/what has happened. Especially you SP I don't mean to accuse people/on defense all of the time - I need therapy but I did the same thing to my therapist.

Sometimes psychotic · May 27, 2022 at 08:59 PM

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Originally Posted by Desoxyn

Well lately this past year I've been so off. Everyone's dealing with so much stuff with what's going on/what has happened. Especially you SP I don't mean to accuse people/on defense all of the time - I need therapy but I did the same thing to my therapist.

Hugs………

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WastingAsparagus · May 27, 2022 at 09:07 PM

I'm still trying to gauge whether to switch back to my old therapist because she knows more about schizoaffective than my current therapist I guess. It just seems like the new one might be a better fit though. I just have so much trouble when it comes to making treatment decisions.

WastingAsparagus · May 27, 2022 at 09:12 PM

Also I'm thinking 15 mg olanzapine is too much... I just feel so sluggish.

Desoxyn · May 27, 2022 at 10:34 PM

Pharmacy insisted that I take 60x Dexedrine instead of 30x for the 2-3rd time. I tried taking two a day but it's too much, crash, big veins, heart palps.. So I'll continue to take one.

WastingAsparagus · May 28, 2022 at 06:39 AM

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Originally Posted by WastingAsparagus

Also I'm thinking 15 mg olanzapine is too much... I just feel so sluggish.

On a positive note, however, I haven't had serious doubts that much. I've just been sad.

Blue_Bird · May 28, 2022 at 06:55 AM

Good morning. Washed my face with my cleanser and moisturized. Fed the kitties, ate a healthy breakfast, brushed/flossed my teeth, took my morning meds Now I'm just drinking a coffee and listening to music. Gonna get on the treadmill around 10am. Been doing better with hygiene, a lot better.

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Blue_Bird · May 28, 2022 at 07:34 AM

I really don't know what changed 3 or 4 weeks ago. I spent the past 2 or 3 years prior to that pretty much in my room in bed and not going anywhere unless I absolutely had to, not doing anything, no exercising, ate very unhealthy, had pretty poor hygiene, really bad sleeping habits It's like a switch flipped and suddenly I'm on a great sleep schedule, exercising, eating healthy, having really good hygiene, cleaning, being productive, doing things/socializing, making plans etc. I have no idea what the hell made such a drastic change.

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WastingAsparagus · May 28, 2022 at 07:48 AM

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I really don't know what changed 3 or 4 weeks ago. I spent the past 2 or 3 years prior to that pretty much in my room in bed and not going anywhere unless I absolutely had to, not doing anything, no exercising, ate very unhealthy, had pretty poor hygiene, really bad sleeping habits It's like a switch flipped and suddenly I'm on a great sleep schedule, exercising, eating healthy, having really good hygiene, cleaning, being productive, doing things/socializing, making plans etc. I have no idea what the hell made such a drastic change.

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That's awesome that you feel such a drastic change!

WastingAsparagus · May 28, 2022 at 07:54 AM

I'm just wondering if I have schizoaffective disorder at all. I mean I've never had hallucinations. I guess delusions count as symptoms. Maybe my current therapist needs to talk to some of the people in life who knew me when I had delusions. Or something like that. I don't know.

I just feel lost right now.

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Desoxyn Metaphysic Member Since Aug 2016 Location: The Netherlands Posts: 12,987 (SuperPoster!) 7 4,912 hugs given	May 27, 2022 at 07:09 PM #282 I have too many interests: How to narrow down and focus on one thing My most needed article. It's so simple. The video chat people messed me up so bad about this but I'm getting over it ^-

Desoxyn Metaphysic Member Since Aug 2016 Location: The Netherlands Posts: 12,987 (SuperPoster!) 7 4,912 hugs given	May 27, 2022 at 07:59 PM #284 Is there anything wrong with my thinking about this? I feel like I have no chance - But only if I think I don't. That's the problem. I just go deeper and deeper into the thing, hoping to understand.

Desoxyn Metaphysic Member Since Aug 2016 Location: The Netherlands Posts: 12,987 (SuperPoster!) 7 4,912 hugs given	May 27, 2022 at 08:12 PM #285 I can't find a word to describe what you're doing so please tell me What do you know that I don't about me?

Desoxyn Metaphysic Member Since Aug 2016 Location: The Netherlands Posts: 12,987 (SuperPoster!) 7 4,912 hugs given	May 27, 2022 at 08:24 PM #286 How to Handle People Who Play Mind Games With You \| HealthGuidance.org I want to know, in full detail, wtf you are doing and the situation. This has gone on long enough - I've posted here for years. I've changed - But in your eyes I am still the same. The amount of pain is intentional and if it is, it's sadistic. It's just like the video chat people.

Desoxyn Metaphysic Member Since Aug 2016 Location: The Netherlands Posts: 12,987 (SuperPoster!) 7 4,912 hugs given	May 27, 2022 at 08:51 PM #291 Well lately this past year I've been so off. Everyone's dealing with so much stuff with what's going on/what has happened. Especially you SP I don't mean to accuse people/on defense all of the time - I need therapy but I did the same thing to my therapist.

WastingAsparagus Student of Life Member Since Mar 2014 Location: South America Posts: 4,658 10 2,911 hugs given	May 27, 2022 at 09:12 PM #294 Also I'm thinking 15 mg olanzapine is too much... I just feel so sluggish. __________________ "Whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it!”

Desoxyn Metaphysic Member Since Aug 2016 Location: The Netherlands Posts: 12,987 (SuperPoster!) 7 4,912 hugs given	May 27, 2022 at 10:34 PM #295 Pharmacy insisted that I take 60x Dexedrine instead of 30x for the 2-3rd time. I tried taking two a day but it's too much, crash, big veins, heart palps.. So I'll continue to take one.