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What you’re describing is all psychosis, that’s why olanzapine helps. Next time take a prn or consider adding it full time. I never realized this is what you meant by DP/DR. To me DP/DR is just a daydream state where you don’t feel connected to the world or your body. You might need more AP in contrast to what I thought before. Sent from my iPad using Tapatalk __________________ Hugs! |
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We ended up meeting at 3:30, she apologized and said she had someone go over their appointment time because they were in crisis, which was fine with me, I'm flexible. We had a good appointment, I told her about putting in the job application, about my 3 dentist appointments and future dentist appointments, about Mustachio's surgery. And we talked about my coping skills and how I've been coping during PMS (agitation/irritability, depression, sui thoughts during it) Some of my coping skills are journaling, exercise, listening to music or playing my ukulele, art, coloring, videogames, watching shows/movies, reading, etc and also we talked about art and how I used to be really into drawing and painting and took art classes in high school and college. We talked about my plans for going back to college, and what I've been up to lately. We also discussed my plans for if I don't get hired for the library job (applying to a local convenience/ice cream shop, and if that also doesn't work out then volunteering) she said it's good I have several plans
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#63
I need to retreat into my own inner world for awhile, need a break from the world/social media for a bit. So I will see you guys in a week or so hopefully if I have any self control. I want a break/my brain needs a break from being “connected” 24/7. So I’m gonna focus on my hobbies for the next week.
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#64
Sometimes I feel like I am never going to get better. It's making me depressed.
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Be safe Blue_Bird. You will be missed. HUGS kit
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What if I have to live like this forever and never get better? I can't tell if I am in a low place or this is reality. I used to be a person. Now I am just a robot or a zombie. My thoughts get eaten up. I have no life in me.
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This thought eating sounds like psychosis to me, do you have a prn AP for times like this?
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Sleep is tied to mental well being. I had to accept 10-12 hours of sleep in exchange for feeling well. Sent from my iPad using Tapatalk __________________ Hugs! |
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Yeah, but it's Lybalvi and I hate it because it is too sedating. If I take it, I will end up sleeping for at least 12 hours and I am supposed to have T tonight. When I see my pdoc in late August I am going to see if I can go back to Olanzapine. He took me off of it because of weight gain but Lybalvi sucks the life out of me and I can't function with it. I can't drive with it. I can't work with it. Nothing. It's too much. But I did forget to tell the pdoc that I cut the olanzapine in half and usually only take half so he thinks it is the same dose.
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I want to be a mystic, swimming. Then I don't have to be a psychotic, drowning.
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Yeah stick with olanzapine if it works…I have weight gain too however there are some studies suggesting you need some weight gain for it to work. Sent from my iPad using Tapatalk __________________ Hugs! |
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The shamanism actually helped me after I gained control of my reality. The key is following rules rather than your own ideas. So for example needing a drumbeat, etc, it trains your brain to go in and out of the spiritual realms on cue instead of slipping into it. Sent from my iPad using Tapatalk __________________ Hugs! |
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An Autistic shaman talks about how autism and shamanism complement each other | The Art of Autism ^ This explains the humming (Ommm, mantras etc), rocking back and forth (I do this sometimes when I try to concentrate).. I feel like if I could connect my body to be in tune with reality (Yoga for example), I'd feel much better. I've always wanted to do martial arts.. I did it as a kid but I stopped because I was too anxious. My mom and her friends met a man at a restaurant that microdosed - My mom phoned me and told me, invited him over.. I was talking with the microdose person about martial arts and I was feeling super anxious for some reason but he still said that it would be really good for me - And that I seem like the perfect person to get into martial arts.. He said I'm on the right path. He said my pupils were big (I'm not sure why they were). Then my mom made out with him and I freaked out |
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SP, I saw this on the Lego website and I thought of you!
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Here, how's this?
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I had a good T session last night with Julieanne. I think she got more of where I was coming from. It's kind of hard when one is having some psychosis to explain to someone else what is going on, especially when one isn't too sure oneself! She told me I have been destabilizing this month (and Pdoc and I lowered one of the AP's this month--Latuda) so this morning I started the process to get a sooner appointment with him. It looks like mid July. So I can go back up on that medication. It feels like a defeat or a failure to me because I was trying to get off some medication but we didn't really discuss that too much last night. We did some reality testing and stuff like that. T was very nice and encouraging and also....realistic I think about some of my expectations that might not be realistic. So that was good. It was a good session. I wish they could all be that good!
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Helen had a vet appointment yesterday, just a bi-yearly checkup and shots. She is healthy and doing good so I am relieved!
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