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#621
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My suggestion would be to talk to your therapist about this. As you said it caused a lot of self hatred. Anything that causes such strong emotion should be discussed to help you move past it and deal properly. Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk |
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#622
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Thank you I will do that, I’m glad I’m finally saying something about it after so long. I just remember feeling really guilty and self hatred for years as a little kid when I was 8, 9, 10, 11, and a lot of confusion about it. I remember it keeping me up sometimes crying. I feel like if I told someone about it as a kid it would have helped to talk through it but I was too embarrassed to ever say anything. As an adult now it doesn’t really cause me issues now but I think it could have played a small part in some of my depressive episodes when I was 11-14 and when I tried to
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#623
Anyone else hate the idea of cleaning, etc but when you’re doing it you actually really enjoy it. Like I hate the idea of doing the dishes, vacuuming, doing laundry, etc. until I actually am doing it. Once I start I really get on a roll, something about it is so mindful, organizing and cleaning feels very calming and I actually enjoy it.
Same with showering, brushing my teeth, etc. I hate the idea of doing it but once I get started I really like it Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk __________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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#624
I've never minded doing laundry. But I feel the same way as you about dishes, showering, and brushing my teeth. I have a really hard time getting into the shower, but once I'm in I do enjoy it.
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#625
I keep getting all these random phone calls from unknown numbers everyday throughout the day all day. And 99% of the time there’s never a voicemail, and occasionally there is but it’s usually just silence or some random machine noise. I think someone got my number when my Facebook was hacked and gave it to a bunch of scam bots or something.
I put my phone on do not disturb mode and have left it on that for several weeks because I got tired of my phone constantly going off Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk __________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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#627
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#628
Someone on a game forum I'm on requested a Pikachu drawing from me so I'm going to start working on that
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#629
Having really severe anxiety tonight. Had to take some of my klonopin because it keeps getting worse
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#630
I feel like people in my apartment building are after me. I know it’s not logical it’s just the way it feels. It feels like they’re all coming after me and trying to get rid of me
I’m having a hard time relaxing. I hope the klonopin kicks in soon and helps my anxiety I'm considering doing a small amount of "retail therapy" next weekend. Just get myself something small. I'm having a hard time the past week or so, and am unsure of what else to do. But do I buy something I need, like new shoes or something frivolous I want like a new journal. Maybe both, I'll see I think what I'll do is pre-order the new Pokemon game Pokemon Scarlet, it comes out November 18th, so that gives me something to look forward to Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk __________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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#631
I can't focus - I drank a lot of rum. I'll take a magnesium capsule. I took too much stim too so my heart is beating faster.
I'm really stressed out but I'm okay - Apart from having a dead cognitive ability. I hope for better days. I just wanted to get into reading again. That's all I wanted to do today - But I make everything so complicated. I want to.. Understand psychedelic therapy and pharmacology.. talk to spiritual leaders, contribute to the thing. That's what I want to do. I want to have fun too - Focus on interesting things, learn, heal, live. But I feel like I can't. And so I feel like taking acid as if my mind can't be even more screwed up. It hurts!.. to be so useless. |
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#632
The autistic person I talk to..
I think he might be one of the smartest people in the world. What was this post going to be about? I forget.. But like.. Ah **** it.. |
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#633
Every time I watch the news, my problems are completely insignificant - How could that possibly be any worse lol?
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#634
I should read "Brave New World" - Is that a good idea...
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#635
Finished the Pikachu drawing. Waiting for the person to decide whether they want it colored in
I have an art thread on this forum, in the creative corner of this forum if anyone is interested in following __________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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#636
__________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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#638
Pretty SP!
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#639
My therapist did a home visit on Saturday. It was nice. I got two hugs. Her hair is MORE PINK! It's kinda fabulous! I had dyed my hair back to brown because I had a lot of blonde highlights but the brown is kind of washing out and some of the blonde is coming back. I'm trying to decide if I should color it again or just forget about it.
My T and I agree I am having a few psychosis symptoms. Not a lot. Nothing to like freak out about or think time to go to the hospital. We are just going to keep an eye on it. __________________ Dum Spiro Spero IC XC NIKA |
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#640
Yesterday was hell. I drained all of my happy chems. Today = Good day though. No alcohol or anything - I'll try to read, meditate, organize..
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