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Trusting family for over 20 years. And then while and during this time, learning to trust others as well. And when family is gone being alone with the others that you spent another 20 years with having trusted each day of the way. So 40 years being built on trust; first half with family, the second half with God and Church and even by self with The Lord. And then when all is gone, family and support, you have only the last ones you lived with trust with. Add another 10 years to these years and you have 50 years lived trying to feel safe trusting the ones you were given in this life. And so when those you trusted seem to test or seem to not meet 'trust' standards, the question of this thread; can a life really be wasted, becomes strangely painful.

The first half is gone having left some wounds. The second half is wounding. And the fear with the second is worse because 'family' is not around to receive support from. When family saw your fear, they tried to reassure. The second. My goodness. How fearful it can become...
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Trusting family for over 20 years. And then while and during this time, learning to trust others as well. And when family is gone being alone with the others that you spent another 20 years with having trusted each day of the way. So 40 years being built on trust; first half with family, the second half with God and Church and even by self with The Lord. And then when all is gone, family and support, you have only the last ones you lived with trust with. Add another 10 years to these years and you have 50 years lived trying to feel safe trusting the ones you were given in this life. And so when those you trusted seem to test or seem to not meet 'trust' standards, the question of this thread; can a life really be wasted, becomes strangely painful.

The first half is gone having left some wounds. The second half is wounding. And the fear with the second is worse because 'family' is not around to receive support from. When family saw your fear, they tried to reassure. The second. My goodness. How fearful it can become...
it's like a 'new family'; although having have spent over 20 years with, seeing if they want you in their lives.

Everybody will be without immediate family one day. Maybe their new family will be their own immediate family with their own children. But for those not seeking to marry but maybe live a religious life, this aloneness and the fear can become enough to drive you to the insane ward.

So, go figure. A life with immediate family gone. Living a religious life for another 20 years; gone. Living past the next 10 years, having gone... living to see if you might end up in the insane ward.... Is this a life wasted? Being falsely accused; having others see you as unforgiven by what occurs to your life, being the scorn of others because the ones you trust lets you to

be seen this way. A life wasted or something else?

And so you have 40 plus years of trust you need to contend with. Losing 40 plus years of 'trusting' is not an easy thing to do. Having trusted friends, family, neighbors, school, teachers, Government, Church, the U.S.A., etc... and then trusting God, The LORD, The Lord, etc.... not an easy thing to get rid of.

Oh, and let's not forget having 'trusted' or learned to trust 'police'. The police coming by and taking you down by a choke hold for no apparent reason. And not only once. And you wondering, how has God ordained these to be in power? 'Stop reaching for his gun', they shout out so if neighbors hear a shot, all they can testify is them hearing, 'Stop reaching for his gun'.

WT heck?

Trust..

And on top of all this, you have the daily normal things you need to deal with. Cockroaches entering in, too hot, too humid, air conditioner shooting out freon into your room, electricity shooting out corona discharges; dirty energy, phone bills, internet bills, noise, traffic, etc.... Add to these, mestic plastics giving off methane gas as it decomposes, recycled laundry water, vinyl flooring giving off formaldehyde gasses... and then you have to become 'savvy' when you buy any plastic fan. Made of mestic plastic can sure stink the room up in a quickie needing to be tossed into the trash. Waste of monies.

Methane gas, formaldehyde gas, bad electricity, bad electro magnetic currents... stirring up your hormones a bit? Feel a little 'edgy'?

Losing self control?

And the strangest thing.. when going to talk with a professional 'counselor', he asking if my 'sexual urges' were changing; getting more 'urges' than usual. Wow. how would he know?

And what is this report saying that more are turning to alcohol and that there are more divorces than usual because of this pandemic?

So please don't mind my 'humanity' if I get a little irate or upset towards directed provocations. I'm a little 'edgy'. A female daily coming around... 'you remember when you yelled at me? I don't appreciate that and I'm here to provoke you'.... Seems as though the pandemic had no effect on her life. Police taking down others with choke holds breaching the 6 feet distance. WT heck?

you know, State defense alert system, DOD? has cameras almost 'everywhere', right?

2 Court appearances. All for being chased; alone... for no reason. What about the ones 'chasing', sir Police? Have you ever thought of asking them what they're about?

Law? Who knows law? What about being 'taken down' on private residential property; your own... is that 'lawful'? Sir, is it okay, would it be okay if I just returned back into my 'home' without you harassing me on my front lawn? Please?

But yaddi yadda. And then what?

It's not a 'bad' thing to want a little 'peace' in the neighborhood, right?


And on top of all this, you have the daily normal things you need to deal with. Cockroaches entering in, too hot, too humid, air conditioner shooting out freon into your room, electricity shooting out corona discharges; dirty energy, phone bills, internet bills, noise, traffic, etc.... Add to these, mestic plastics giving off methane gas as it decomposes, recycled laundry water, vinyl flooring giving off formaldehyde gasses... and then you have to become 'savvy' when you buy any plastic fan. Made of mestic plastic can sure stink the room up in a quickie needing to be tossed into the trash. Waste of monies.

Methane gas, formaldehyde gas, bad electricity, bad electro magnetic currents... stirring up your hormones a bit? Feel a little 'edgy'?

Why? What's the problem? The problem is the others also relying on the 'trust' they learned... See mentioned above...

So sure.. cockroaches, gasses, electricity shoot offs, edginess, mestic plastic decomposition. recycled laundry waters, etc, etc... and they are 'trusting' that the officials, workers, will put a stop to these...

Call the computer, phone giants. they'll add more towers; added EMF's, the solve for all, right?

Have you heard of 'Judas' betraying Christ? Well, he really didn't betray Him, per se. In fact, he might have betrayed Him when after receiving the 30 pieces of silver, he went and wasted it by hanging himself. He might have had responsibility to use that monies to 'tend' to another member.... After all, if Judas didn't do what he did, how would Christ have fulfilled what He needed to do, right? Gotta remember, Christ was not led to the slaughter but rather willingly fulfilled so all could be completed, voluntarily.

So when Judas did what he didn't have to do, this might have been a 'waste'.. and maybe a WT heck?

After all, wasn't it Christ who commanded Judas to go and do quickly rather than 'drive out' the 'demon', for example... And what 'demon' or what 'satan' was able to coherently do business transactions and not be in caves or in wild places?

I mean, it's one thing to fear logical reasonings.. it's another thing to fear the lack of logical reasonings.

So basically, it's not complaining or murmuring, per se.. It's all that 'dirty electricity', gasses, recycled waters, etc that went into the body through the body that hasn't had opportunity to be taken out of the body....

But let's not forget for whom one might seek to remain alive and well and in good health. Not for their own sake, per se, only, but for the sake of 'good' offspring; healthy and vibrant.

And so.. Generation Alpha began in 2010..

There is not yet a general consensus on the birth years of Generation Alpha. Media sources focused specifically on Generation Alpha use starting birth years such as 2010[1][2][12] and 2011.[4] However, many definitions of Generation Z ending in 2012[13] or 2015[14] would indicate that the oldest members of Generation Alpha were born in 2013 or 2016.

Generation Alpha are the youngest people alive today. Sources suggest that the final members of the cohort will be born in the mid 2020s,[15] often specifically 2025

As of 2015, there were some two and a half million people born every week around the globe; Generation Alpha is expected to reach close to two billion by 2025.[17] For comparison, the United Nations estimated that the human population was about 7.8 billion in 2020, up from 2.5 billion in 1950. Roughly three-quarters of all people reside in Africa and Asia in 2020.[18] In fact, most human population growth comes from these two continents, as nations in Europe and the Americas tend to have too few children to replace themselves.[19]

2018 was the first time when the number of people above 65 years of age (705 million) exceeded those between the ages of zero and four (680 million). If current trends continue, the ratio between these two age groups will top two by 2050

wiki


Pakistan reports a fresh case of Polio, taking country’s toll to 15 in 2022
A 17-month boy in North Waziristan has been paralyzed by wild polio in the 14th case from the district this year!


So yes. Many do receive things maybe they ought not. But does everyone need to receive the same 'suffering'? Is this what might become 'equality'?

Does everyone need to have mestic plastics? Recycled laundry water, bad electricity, emf's?

Let's reverse the order... Does everyone need to have emf's, bad electricity, recycled laundry water, mestic plastics?

Electric and magnetic fields (EMFs)—also referred to as "radiation"—are invisible areas of energy that are produced by electricity. Common sources include power lines, cell phones, and microwaves. In the 1990s, there was concern about a potential link between EMFs and childhood cancers, there hasn't been strong research evidence to back that up.

https//wwwverywellhealthcom/what-is-emf-5092845
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it's like a 'new family'; although having have spent over 20 years with, seeing if they want you in their lives.

Everybody will be without immediate family one day. Maybe their new family will be their own immediate family with their own children. But for those not seeking to marry but maybe live a religious life, this aloneness and the fear can become enough to drive you to the insane ward.

So, go figure. A life with immediate family gone. Living a religious life for another 20 years; gone. Living past the next 10 years, having gone... living to see if you might end up in the insane ward.... Is this a life wasted? Being falsely accused; having others see you as unforgiven by what occurs to your life, being the scorn of others because the ones you trust lets you to

be seen this way. A life wasted or something else?

And so you have 40 plus years of trust you need to contend with. Losing 40 plus years of 'trusting' is not an easy thing to do. Having trusted friends, family, neighbors, school, teachers, Government, Church, the U.S.A., etc... and then trusting God, The LORD, The Lord, etc.... not an easy thing to get rid of.

Oh, and let's not forget having 'trusted' or learned to trust 'police'. The police coming by and taking you down by a choke hold for no apparent reason. And not only once. And you wondering, how has God ordained these to be in power? 'Stop reaching for his gun', they shout out so if neighbors hear a shot, all they can testify is them hearing, 'Stop reaching for his gun'.

WT heck?

Trust..

And on top of all this, you have the daily normal things you need to deal with. Cockroaches entering in, too hot, too humid, air conditioner shooting out freon into your room, electricity shooting out corona discharges; dirty energy, phone bills, internet bills, noise, traffic, etc.... Add to these, mestic plastics giving off methane gas as it decomposes, recycled laundry water, vinyl flooring giving off formaldehyde gasses... and then you have to become 'savvy' when you buy any plastic fan. Made of mestic plastic can sure stink the room up in a quickie needing to be tossed into the trash. Waste of monies.

Methane gas, formaldehyde gas, bad electricity, bad electro magnetic currents... stirring up your hormones a bit? Feel a little 'edgy'?

Losing self control?

And the strangest thing.. when going to talk with a professional 'counselor', he asking if my 'sexual urges' were changing; getting more 'urges' than usual. Wow. how would he know?

And what is this report saying that more are turning to alcohol and that there are more divorces than usual because of this pandemic?

So please don't mind my 'humanity' if I get a little irate or upset towards directed provocations. I'm a little 'edgy'. A female daily coming around... 'you remember when you yelled at me? I don't appreciate that and I'm here to provoke you'.... Seems as though the pandemic had no effect on her life. Police taking down others with choke holds breaching the 6 feet distance. WT heck?

you know, State defense alert system, DOD? has cameras almost 'everywhere', right?

2 Court appearances. All for being chased; alone... for no reason. What about the ones 'chasing', sir Police? Have you ever thought of asking them what they're about?

Law? Who knows law? What about being 'taken down' on private residential property; your own... is that 'lawful'? Sir, is it okay, would it be okay if I just returned back into my 'home' without you harassing me on my front lawn? Please?

But yaddi yadda. And then what?

It's not a 'bad' thing to want a little 'peace' in the neighborhood, right?


And on top of all this, you have the daily normal things you need to deal with. Cockroaches entering in, too hot, too humid, air conditioner shooting out freon into your room, electricity shooting out corona discharges; dirty energy, phone bills, internet bills, noise, traffic, etc.... Add to these, mestic plastics giving off methane gas as it decomposes, recycled laundry water, vinyl flooring giving off formaldehyde gasses... and then you have to become 'savvy' when you buy any plastic fan. Made of mestic plastic can sure stink the room up in a quickie needing to be tossed into the trash. Waste of monies.

Methane gas, formaldehyde gas, bad electricity, bad electro magnetic currents... stirring up your hormones a bit? Feel a little 'edgy'?

Why? What's the problem? The problem is the others also relying on the 'trust' they learned... See mentioned above...

So sure.. cockroaches, gasses, electricity shoot offs, edginess, mestic plastic decomposition. recycled laundry waters, etc, etc... and they are 'trusting' that the officials, workers, will put a stop to these...

Call the computer, phone giants. they'll add more towers; added EMF's, the solve for all, right?

Have you heard of 'Judas' betraying Christ? Well, he really didn't betray Him, per se. In fact, he might have betrayed Him when after receiving the 30 pieces of silver, he went and wasted it by hanging himself. He might have had responsibility to use that monies to 'tend' to another member.... After all, if Judas didn't do what he did, how would Christ have fulfilled what He needed to do, right? Gotta remember, Christ was not led to the slaughter but rather willingly fulfilled so all could be completed, voluntarily.

So when Judas did what he didn't have to do, this might have been a 'waste'.. and maybe a WT heck?

After all, wasn't it Christ who commanded Judas to go and do quickly rather than 'drive out' the 'demon', for example... And what 'demon' or what 'satan' was able to coherently do business transactions and not be in caves or in wild places?

I mean, it's one thing to fear logical reasonings.. it's another thing to fear the lack of logical reasonings.

So basically, it's not complaining or murmuring, per se.. It's all that 'dirty electricity', gasses, recycled waters, etc that went into the body through the body that hasn't had opportunity to be taken out of the body....

But let's not forget for whom one might seek to remain alive and well and in good health. Not for their own sake, per se, only, but for the sake of 'good' offspring; healthy and vibrant.

And so.. Generation Alpha began in 2010..

There is not yet a general consensus on the birth years of Generation Alpha. Media sources focused specifically on Generation Alpha use starting birth years such as 2010[1][2][12] and 2011.[4] However, many definitions of Generation Z ending in 2012[13] or 2015[14] would indicate that the oldest members of Generation Alpha were born in 2013 or 2016.

Generation Alpha are the youngest people alive today. Sources suggest that the final members of the cohort will be born in the mid 2020s,[15] often specifically 2025

As of 2015, there were some two and a half million people born every week around the globe; Generation Alpha is expected to reach close to two billion by 2025.[17] For comparison, the United Nations estimated that the human population was about 7.8 billion in 2020, up from 2.5 billion in 1950. Roughly three-quarters of all people reside in Africa and Asia in 2020.[18] In fact, most human population growth comes from these two continents, as nations in Europe and the Americas tend to have too few children to replace themselves.[19]

2018 was the first time when the number of people above 65 years of age (705 million) exceeded those between the ages of zero and four (680 million). If current trends continue, the ratio between these two age groups will top two by 2050

wiki


Pakistan reports a fresh case of Polio, taking country’s toll to 15 in 2022
A 17-month boy in North Waziristan has been paralyzed by wild polio in the 14th case from the district this year!


So yes. Many do receive things maybe they ought not. But does everyone need to receive the same 'suffering'? Is this what might become 'equality'?

Does everyone need to have mestic plastics? Recycled laundry water, bad electricity, emf's?

Let's reverse the order... Does everyone need to have emf's, bad electricity, recycled laundry water, mestic plastics?

Electric and magnetic fields (EMFs)—also referred to as "radiation"—are invisible areas of energy that are produced by electricity. Common sources include power lines, cell phones, and microwaves. In the 1990s, there was concern about a potential link between EMFs and childhood cancers, there hasn't been strong research evidence to back that up.

https//wwwverywellhealthcom/what-is-emf-5092845

But here in the U.S.. well... what can anyone say? The proud Red, White and Blue. Seats to past Presidents upright and in suits yet a bit off to ties to 1787 but still, polishing their shoes before work. And the slow incline? Slow decline. What ever happened to the Republican Party which once stood for uprightness?

Yale has got within it the secret societies. Harvard with their sectors. And still those once walled Universities which held titles of honor and recognition not or now offering admission with maybe without a standardized test. Monies? Old, of course or if not close to old.. but new? .. Meet the new generations.

Oh, the ivies, the ivies... why let them fall to the ground?

On level ground they remain creeping, not exceeding 5–20 cm height, but on suitable surfaces for climbing, including trees, natural rock outcrops or man-made structures such as quarry rock faces or built masonry and wooden structures, they can climb to at least 30 m above the ground. Ivies have two leaf types, with palmately lobed juvenile leaves on creeping and climbing stems and unlobed cordate adult leaves on fertile flowering stems exposed to full sun, usually high in the crowns of trees or the tops of rock faces, from 2 m or more above ground.

* wiki - hedera

creeping, they may; but not as those that swarm and creep; leaping withal.
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But here in the U.S.. well... what can anyone say? The proud Red, White and Blue. Seats to past Presidents upright and in suits yet a bit off to ties to 1787 but still, polishing their shoes before work. And the slow incline? Slow decline. What ever happened to the Republican Party which once stood for uprightness?

Yale has got within it the secret societies. Harvard with their sectors. And still those once walled Universities which held titles of honor and recognition not or now offering admission with maybe without a standardized test. Monies? Old, of course or if not close to old.. but new? .. Meet the new generations.

Oh, the ivies, the ivies... why let them fall to the ground?

On level ground they remain creeping, not exceeding 5–20 cm height, but on suitable surfaces for climbing, including trees, natural rock outcrops or man-made structures such as quarry rock faces or built masonry and wooden structures, they can climb to at least 30 m above the ground. Ivies have two leaf types, with palmately lobed juvenile leaves on creeping and climbing stems and unlobed cordate adult leaves on fertile flowering stems exposed to full sun, usually high in the crowns of trees or the tops of rock faces, from 2 m or more above ground.

* wiki - hedera

creeping, they may; but not as those that swarm and creep; leaping withal.

So... a wasted life? Possible? I'm not sure. It not wasted, still, as was a passing vapor that was but now is no more; soon or later.

And ah!, I've got it! Sir Sherlock. While having life, enjoy the gifts of God yet keep mindful that you will need to give account.... Yes! I've got it!

This went out with the (J)esus Movement. Taking out the Old, replacing it with a man named (J)esus. And soon to follow, the Ivies.

Re: can a life really be wasted though?

And so, this is what I shall do. I shall take the bill and where it was 100, I shall write 50 and where it was 75, I shall write 40. I shall write for myself my account to be valid and presentable.

You have trespassed me 100 times, now only 50. You have debted me 75 times, now only 40.... I love You more than I need myself.

* smiley face, emoji?



Trusting family for over 20 years. And then while and during this time, learning to trust others as well. And when family is gone being alone with the others that you spent another 20 years with having trusted each day of the way. So 40 years being built on trust; first half with family, the second half with God and Church and even by self with The Lord. And then when all is gone, family and support, you have only the last ones you lived with trust with. Add another 10 years to these years and you have 50 years lived trying to feel safe trusting the ones you were given in this life. And so when those you trusted seem to test or seem to not meet 'trust' standards, the question of this thread; can a life really be wasted, becomes strangely painful.

The first half is gone having left some wounds. The second half is wounding. And the fear with the second is worse because 'family' is not around to receive support from. When family saw your fear, they tried to reassure. The second. My goodness. How fearful it can become...


Electric and magnetic fields (EMFs)—also referred to as "radiation"—are invisible areas of energy that are produced by electricity. Common sources include power lines, cell phones, and microwaves. In the 1990s, there was concern about a potential link between EMFs and childhood cancers, there hasn't been strong research evidence to back that up.

https//wwwverywellhealthcom/what-is-emf-5092845


And so when those you trusted seem to test or seem to not meet 'trust' standards, the question of this thread; can a life really be wasted, becomes strangely painful.

But, as colloquialism puts it, 'it's all good'.


* a child with whatever it might be, looking up to The LORD and God and even to Christ Messiah, asking, 'why do I feel strange'?

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