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#581
My sister said she’ll help me with finding a place to volunteer at or work part-time at that’s low stress, so hopefully after the holidays we can find something
Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk __________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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Angelique67, Desoxyn, Sometimes psychotic, WastingAsparagus
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Desoxyn
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#582
I focused on many things... I am exhausted. The spirit realm.. And morals - How they relate to the world and self reflection..
Sometimes I just want to jump off a cliff. But I have to keep going. And... I hope I'm on the right path (I think I am) - But my god it's all just too much. It's so predictable (Everything, all patterns).. Like I might as well just be in an animation or movie. Everything is constant argument.. and misunderstanding.. What do I want? Idk.. Just peace (At night) and excitement (When I wake up). I've NEVER had depersonalization/derealization in the morning - That's when I feel invincible/strong minded (When I'm not tired and foggy brained from sleep inertia..) - I usually FEEL better, at night though. I do look now, for medium/long term things.. Or how to deal with the afterlife (It's just a string in a glass bowl - The parts where it connects to itself are death points) - Some short term indulgences are okay.... But I got to keep my head balanced, focus on the future (Mostly). I know too much... |
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WastingAsparagus
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#583
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#584
This is not going well with the medicine. I need to tell my doctor to quit fiddling with things. The way things are going is fine, and I don't need to switch to some other medicine. I know that Zyprexa and Abilify work for me. So why change it? Sorry, I'm not angry with anyone here, just need to vent.
And I feel like talking to my parents about it is just an echo chamber. __________________ "Whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it!” |
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Legendary Wise Elder
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#585
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#586
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I haven't even started the new med yet (Latuda). I just feel like my pdoc gets me to agree to these schemes on really short notice, and I don't like how that goes. It just seems like my pdoc and I make these knee-jerk reactions that do not end up serving me in the long run. I think I can just manage my weight and my appetite in other ways, such as exercising a lot. I mean, it's just too difficult when I go down on any of the medicines I currently take, because my symptoms return and my depression starts again, and then I'm back at sqaure one basically. It sucks. __________________ "Whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it!” |
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Desoxyn
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#587
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Desoxyn
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#588
I've been meditating a little bit more recently. I write down every med/chemical/nootropic/supplement that I take - I just write down in this way;
1st[]2nd[]3rd[]4th[]5th[]6th[]7th[]8th[]9th[]10th[]11th[]12th[]13th[]14th[] 15th[]16th[]17th[]18th[]19th[]20th[]21st[]22nd[]23rd[]24th[]25th[]26th[] 27th[]28th[]29th[]30th[] ... And then fill it in (But it's a full page of just copying and pasting it once every month and filling it in once every day). I'm gonna add from the "list of healthy things", "Meditation, reading, podcasts, fasting and exercise" - And just take note of "if" and "how much" I do these every day. Then, after vacation - I'll try and set some realistic goals... Now is just a time where I feel like I'm just in "No mans land" of my life. I already sleep 10+ hours every night... So I don't have to worry about that at all... |
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#589
__________________ "Whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it!” |
Angelique67, Desoxyn, Sometimes psychotic
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#590
I feel like it's super difficult right now for everyone trying to find jobs and/or volunteer positions. At least in my own case, it has been super hard to commit to anything. Kudos to you for trying to find something; it's really not easy.
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Legendary Wise Elder
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#591
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Thank you Same to you Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk __________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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#592
Have the food cooking in the crockpot , it will be finished around 3:45pm. It’s 10:30am now.
Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk __________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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Angelique67, cogladaid, Sometimes psychotic
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#593
headed to new orleans for a saints game, leaving in an hour or two, staying through monday. going with my dad and brother.
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Angelique67, Blue_Bird, cogladaid, Desoxyn, Sometimes psychotic, WastingAsparagus
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Legendary Wise Elder
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#594
Fresh bacon is cooked and set aside to crumble into the recipe later. Cooked the bacon in the oven. Was nervous about cooking but I managed to do it
Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk __________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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Angelique67, cogladaid, Sometimes psychotic
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Legendary Wise Elder
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#595
Ordered a turkey baster set
Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk __________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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Angelique67, Sometimes psychotic, WastingAsparagus
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Legendary Wise Elder
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#596
I received a really nice random note under my door from the lady across the hall (the one who does the yoga class). It said she was happy to see me at the community meal and sorry that she missed talking with me, her neck hurt, she also wrote she hopes we can talk more next time, and hopes I’m having a lovely weekend
Like right before I got the note I was sitting in my living room thinking about how much I hated myself and wished I wasn’t alive, so it was a very nice surprise I rang her doorbell and told her thank you because I was having a bad day and it cheered me up Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk __________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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Angelique67, cogladaid, Desoxyn, WastingAsparagus
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Desoxyn
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#597
Today isn't as good as yesterday but still good.
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Angelique67, Blue_Bird, Sometimes psychotic, WastingAsparagus
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Legendary Wise Elder
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#598
The food came out delicious. I had some of it on a sesame bun. Dishes are done, now I’m relaxing in the living room with the cats with the Christmas tree on.
I got a new cookbook so I’m looking through that now , trying to get ideas for Christmas and New Year’s Eve __________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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Angelique67, Sometimes psychotic
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Legendary Wise Elder
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#599
Sorry about all the posts about food lately. I’ve finally gotten the motivation to cook after almost a year of not cooking pretty much most of the time. And I’m excited about getting over my anxiety about cooking and eating. I actually enjoy cooking and baking, making things, when I’m able to get over my anxiety and do it that is.
Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk __________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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Angelique67, cogladaid
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Legendary Wise Elder
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