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Blue_Bird · Dec 08, 2022 at 11:37 AM

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Glad you got good results at the doctor, Blue_Bird!

Thank you, how are you today?

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SlumberKitty · Dec 08, 2022 at 01:28 PM

Thanks, Blue_Bird. I'm doing well. Better than yesterday. I might have a home session with my therapist on Sunday. That would be nice.

Blue_Bird · Dec 08, 2022 at 02:29 PM

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Thanks, Blue_Bird. I'm doing well. Better than yesterday. I might have a home session with my therapist on Sunday. That would be nice.

Glad you’re doing better, I hope your home session goes well if you have it

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Blue_Bird · Dec 08, 2022 at 02:30 PM

I won a 20 piece flatware set during bingo today

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SlumberKitty · Dec 08, 2022 at 02:43 PM

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I won a 20 piece flatware set during bingo today

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Awesome prize!

Desoxyn · Dec 08, 2022 at 03:49 PM

I really miss my dad now that I'm back in Canada. This was the best week I've had since I was in Guatemala 10 years ago. Spending time with him is so important to me.

Ignore the stuff I posted on my phone, I was just venting.

I should write in a journal about what happened, share some of my thoughts. I just want people to know what's in my head.. I had cool ideas on the plane, then got tired.

I feel so sad. I don't want to be. I feel like I can do it all - But I can't. I don't want to forget. I forget so much.

Desoxyn · Dec 08, 2022 at 04:31 PM

I haven't used any weed, psychedelics, ket in over a week. I feel so much better without them. I have to quit them for a long while. No phenibut either.

I still want to learn about them though. + Pharmacological things, books, podcasts etc.

I see my psychiatrist next week. I'll just keep my meds the same.

Angelique67 · Dec 08, 2022 at 04:50 PM

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I won a 20 piece flatware set during bingo today

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Oh, that's fun! I've never had any matching sets of anything. I'm glad you won it.

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Blue_Bird · Dec 08, 2022 at 05:04 PM

My goal for the next year is to lose 20 lbs and lower my cholesterol , so hopefully by my next physical in December 2023 I have that accomplished

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WastingAsparagus · Dec 09, 2022 at 08:21 AM

I am doing fine this morning. Latuda is going better. I was getting super anxious on it, but that seems to have calmed down. Also I can take extra Klonopin PRN for the anxiety that I get.

Desoxyn · Dec 09, 2022 at 12:08 PM

Trying to vyvanse before wake me up after sleep

cogladaid · Dec 09, 2022 at 12:50 PM

Holy I saw one doctor today about previous gastro issues I was having. It was mainly because of my liver and my weight and it’s better now I lost weight and my liver numbers are normal.

Anyway they weighed me and I noticed the weight that they had from when I previously saw them. Either their scale is off, or I’ve lost 83 pounds since I last saw them. Like Jesus I thought I lost 60 pounds. I can’t believe it.

That’s insane honestly. I’m still overweight and need to lose more weight to be in a healthy range but I can’t believe I’ve lost so much more than I thought.

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Desoxyn · Dec 09, 2022 at 01:21 PM

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Holy I saw one doctor today about previous gastro issues I was having. It was mainly because of my liver and my weight and it’s better now I lost weight and my liver numbers are normal.

Anyway they weighed me and I noticed the weight that they had from when I previously saw them. Either their scale is off, or I’ve lost 83 pounds since I last saw them. Like Jesus I thought I lost 60 pounds. I can’t believe it.

That’s insane honestly. I’m still overweight and need to lose more weight to be in a healthy range but I can’t believe I’ve lost so much more than I thought.

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Just make sure you drink lots of water and consume all of the required nutrients (Potassium, magnesium, sodium, etc - For electrical heart rhythm, - Carbohydrate, some fat, proteins etc - To build amino acids, - To keep body functioning and brain to replenish neurotransmitters that the antipsychotic depletes) - Much love from me and us here

Weight is lost easier at first wave baseline, then gets harder and harder.. to infinity (When we are dead and decay - But don't worry about that now..).. Christ, I'm being morbid again... But imagine all of those COVID statistics and IQ bell curves @Data math scientist.. That's a life thing, spectrum of light.. We are all colourful like rainbows and all there is = love.

Blue_Bird · Dec 09, 2022 at 06:31 PM

Had pad thai for the first time today, it was really good, never had rice noodles before either, I really like them

Desoxyn · Dec 09, 2022 at 07:18 PM

All I want is meaning and to be understood, able to express and articulate myself, feel comfortable in my own skin (And when not, have excitement) - I want to not be afraid of what people think of me.

I'll look at pictures I took on vacation and write about what happened.. I just feel weird after watching corruption videos in the car and then my family talking about politics.. So I left to be alone.

I wish everything wasn't so religious. It scares me - Infinity. There's a finite and infinite nihilism. I've been through both. I laughed myself to death on shrooms and then became horrified - All cuz a pedo manipulated me and then tripped while my mind was zero sense.

I try so damn hard. And I left a friend that tries even harder. Everything I say is wrong - But I'm going to make it all right.. It's just so fragmented. I think my schiz is mostly disorganized or PTSD. What a life, why.. I sat there ****ed up for lifetimes, high... stoned.

It'll get better. I just feel deja vu 24/7.

Desoxyn · Dec 09, 2022 at 07:23 PM

And I can't even drink alcohol without my mom complaining while also somehow guzzling wine from the bottle.

Where was she when I was doing all of those research chemicals? At my ex step dads house. Why did he leave? Cuz I said "My dad pays for the food".

Pink Floyd. That's what I'm listening to.. All of the pot heads, they're right. The crazies and outcasts. The system is screwed - And everyone knows that. Not even myself, goes deeper into it. It takes effort. All people want is distraction.

And I'm not judging - That's why I left that INTP friend. But now I'm doing the same thing. What a ****ing joke of a twisted sick elastic infinite dimensional horror movie.

I'll take the olanzepine.

Desoxyn · Dec 10, 2022 at 12:32 PM

Went 2 sleep for 12 hours =/

Desoxyn · Dec 10, 2022 at 12:59 PM

I think I accidentally took double/2x 10mg of olanzepine. I was OUT.

Blue_Bird · Dec 10, 2022 at 01:25 PM

Went to my friends house for a few hours today. Had a good time, we played the Digimon TCG, some videogames, and a dice game, and watched some of a movie. Just got home

cogladaid · Dec 10, 2022 at 03:12 PM

I feel this almost weight being lifted. Not as empty or dead inside. No longer wanting to self harm. It’s been almost a week since I’ve been up to 150mg total of lamotrigine. I feel it’s starting to work at a therapeutic dose.

I still obsess about losing weight. But I feel not as depressed.

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SlumberKitty Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jul 2018 Location: CA Posts: 27,329 (SuperPoster!) 5 117.7k hugs given	Dec 08, 2022 at 01:28 PM #2 Thanks, Blue_Bird. I'm doing well. Better than yesterday. I might have a home session with my therapist on Sunday. That would be nice. __________________ Dum Spiro Spero IC XC NIKA

Blue_Bird Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jun 2013 Location: Hogwarts Posts: 36,835 (SuperPoster!) 11 14.4k hugs given	Dec 08, 2022 at 02:30 PM #4 I won a 20 piece flatware set during bingo today Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk __________________ My Blog: https://livingwithachaoticmind.wordpress.com/ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi

Desoxyn Metaphysic Member Since Aug 2016 Location: The Netherlands Posts: 13,016 (SuperPoster!) 7 4,923 hugs given	Dec 08, 2022 at 04:31 PM #7 I haven't used any weed, psychedelics, ket in over a week. I feel so much better without them. I have to quit them for a long while. No phenibut either. I still want to learn about them though. + Pharmacological things, books, podcasts etc. I see my psychiatrist next week. I'll just keep my meds the same.

WastingAsparagus Student of Life Member Since Mar 2014 Location: South America Posts: 4,658 10 2,911 hugs given	Dec 09, 2022 at 08:21 AM #10 I am doing fine this morning. Latuda is going better. I was getting super anxious on it, but that seems to have calmed down. Also I can take extra Klonopin PRN for the anxiety that I get. __________________ "Whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it!”

Desoxyn Metaphysic Member Since Aug 2016 Location: The Netherlands Posts: 13,016 (SuperPoster!) 7 4,923 hugs given	Dec 09, 2022 at 12:08 PM #11 Trying to vyvanse before wake me up after sleep

Blue_Bird Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jun 2013 Location: Hogwarts Posts: 36,835 (SuperPoster!) 11 14.4k hugs given	Dec 09, 2022 at 06:31 PM #14 Had pad thai for the first time today, it was really good, never had rice noodles before either, I really like them __________________ My Blog: https://livingwithachaoticmind.wordpress.com/ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi

Desoxyn Metaphysic Member Since Aug 2016 Location: The Netherlands Posts: 13,016 (SuperPoster!) 7 4,923 hugs given	Dec 10, 2022 at 12:32 PM #17 Went 2 sleep for 12 hours =/

Desoxyn Metaphysic Member Since Aug 2016 Location: The Netherlands Posts: 13,016 (SuperPoster!) 7 4,923 hugs given	Dec 10, 2022 at 12:59 PM #18 I think I accidentally took double/2x 10mg of olanzepine. I was OUT.

cogladaid Elder Member Since Jul 2015 Location: Nowhere Posts: 5,566 8	Dec 10, 2022 at 03:12 PM #20 I feel this almost weight being lifted. Not as empty or dead inside. No longer wanting to self harm. It’s been almost a week since I’ve been up to 150mg total of lamotrigine. I feel it’s starting to work at a therapeutic dose. I still obsess about losing weight. But I feel not as depressed. Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk