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Default Jan 27, 2023 at 11:10 AM
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I hope your doctor can prescribe the medication for you WA, I’m glad your trip down there went well

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Default Jan 27, 2023 at 11:13 AM
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I walked to the store today to buy 2 bags of cat litter and some cat food.

Took a shower, used nice soap and body scrub and put on lotion and some Valentino perfume afterwards. Feel really refreshed and smell great. I hadn’t showered in 3 days. Usually when I do I just try to get it over with as fast as possible so I don’t take my time. But I did today and it felt really good. I’m gonna try to start showering every single day.

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Default Jan 27, 2023 at 12:25 PM
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My Mom's Foster Mom arrives today. My parents are picking her up at the airport. She can be kind of critical so I am both looking forward to and dreading her visit. Hmm. Maybe more of that emotional stress!

I bought a few puzzles for us to do since she is older and doesn't like going out much and she is really good at puzzles. I got a King Tut one and I hope we get to that one because it looks really fun.

I'm a bit worried how Zoey (my beagle) will do. She can get crazy, and excited, and run around and jump on people--but ordinarily she is a good dog. But my Mom gets upset and then yells at her and then Zoey barks and then it just seems to escalate. I tell my Mom that when we get loud, Zoey gets loud. She forgets though, as she has memory issues.

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Default Jan 27, 2023 at 12:27 PM
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Tired today. I took some sleep medicine last night and it knocked me out. I did get good sleep but I had a hard time waking up. My Dad brought me and my coworker coffee though so it is helping a lot. I don't feel as sleepy now.

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Default Jan 27, 2023 at 01:32 PM
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I am anxious today but I do not want to take anxiety medicine because I just stopped feeling sleepy. But my chest is all tight and my breathing is shallow. I will try to do some deep breathing and see if that helps.

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Default Jan 27, 2023 at 04:17 PM
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Hope you feel better SK and hope the visit with your mom’s foster mom goes well

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Default Jan 27, 2023 at 04:27 PM
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Trigger for eating disorder recovery stuff

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Default Jan 27, 2023 at 04:29 PM
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Again, not aiming for perfection. I know I’ll eat those foods once in awhile , just trying to stop buying massive quantities of it , because I always say I’ll have just a couple cookies or something then as soon as I’m stressed, the entire package is gone

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Default Jan 27, 2023 at 04:41 PM
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Got my February calendar of events in the building

My therapist said it’s good that I’ve taken this time away from school and stuff, to work on my mental health , even though I feel like a failure due to it. Because I’ve come a long way and am a lot more stable than I used to be and have matured over the years as well. So she thinks going back in the fall is a good idea since I really want to and feel pretty confident that I can handle it , taking 1-2 classes

So I’m taking steps towards going back. Paying off the money I owe the bookstore from my last semester in 2019. I’ll have it payed off by or before June. Then I will sign up for a class or 2, depending on the minimum required for my financial aide to cover it. Usually it’s 2 class (6 credits total) I need to cover tuition as a part time student.

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Default Jan 27, 2023 at 05:06 PM
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I'm happy that I have a soul and I'm not a lifeless Artificial General Intelligence machine.

This morning was the most difficult morning it has ever taken for me to wake up... I got to work an hour late.

Last night, I felt really good - My mind was super super clear (Like never before) - I was invincible.. But needed to sleep, so I zopicloned myself (At 2am).

Too cold to run.. I still plan to organize my life. But something really strange and amazing is happening - It's like I'm super aware, .. the particle accelerator in Switzerland, it likely caused this (No jk..).

But yeah.. I'm enlightened (In some way, not fully though..) - I just want to learn and live, experience.. feel around like a fungi culture underneath the forest (That's the best that I can explain this..), sharing sugars with trees...
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Default Jan 27, 2023 at 05:08 PM
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Thanks thanks. I appreciate it.

I think, after reflecting a bit about it, it's not necessarily the medication that was/is the problem. It is that I uprooted myself from my old life and put myself into a new place. So I guess I have to grow new roots here. That is the best way I have to explain it.

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Default Jan 27, 2023 at 06:08 PM
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I need a shower. But in all likelihood I will wait until after food distribution tomorrow because I always get all grimey after that. I don't want to shower two days in a row even though I know lots of people who do. I just can't seem to get my act together enough to do that.

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Default Jan 27, 2023 at 06:20 PM
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I meditated for 15 minutes , will probably do another 15-20 minutes later tonight before bed

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I meditated for 15 minutes , will probably do another 15-20 minutes later tonight before bed

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Default Jan 27, 2023 at 09:23 PM
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You guys gave me the idea to meditate - So I did that, but I YouTubed "Advanced meditation" (I was just curious to see what it's like), eyes were supposed to be open, great ideas (With the visuals of nature), focus on breath - But after 8 minutes, I stopped (From trying to figure things out, deeply), got distracted.

My mind is foggy.. I talked to a friend and I just had to leave the conversation - My mind isn't clear.

So my advice is to not rush to advanced things... lol
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Default Jan 27, 2023 at 10:16 PM
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I’m reading a book called A Wizards Guide to Defensive Baking.

It’s a fantasy novel about a 14 year old girl who works in a bakery and there’s murders happening in town and she is getting accused of them because shes a wizard/does magic. Her magic helps the bread and stuff she bakes come out extremely well and made her aunts bakery really popular. (She’s an apprentice to her aunt) It’s like a cozy, fantasy, murder mystery novel. I keep finding more of these cool cozy type fantasy books. The first one I read was Legends and Lattes by Travis Baldree about an orc who wanted to stop living a life of traveling and fighting and opens a coffee shop.

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My downstairs neighbors are being very loud tonight. They’re drunk or high or whatever most likely, they always do this on Friday nights because they think they can get away with it because the property manager and housing support specialist isn’t downstairs in the office on weekends. They’re here every week day. Security guard is here 24 hours a day 7 days a week.

I don’t even know who lives downstairs from me but it generally escalates to fighting and yelling and slamming doors over and over which they’re doing now. There’s also someone in the hallway right now angry and yelling. It’s almost 10:30pm

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Default Jan 27, 2023 at 10:34 PM
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Tomorrow I’m cleaning my apartment and playing some of a campaign of Descent: Legends of the Dark (tabletop rpg board game) I don’t know if I can finish a whole campaign in one sitting, especially since it’s my first time playing and I’m still learning. I doubt it. But I at least want to play a couple hours of it and try to learn a bit of it.

going to my friends on Sunday, we’re going to play Descent together (he’s gonna explain more to be about how the game is played while we’re playing) and also a few rounds of the digimon TCG.

Part of me is tempted to stay up all night tonight learning about it

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Tomorrow I’m cleaning my apartment and playing some of a campaign of Descent: Legends of the Dark (tabletop rpg board game) I don’t know if I can finish a whole campaign in one sitting, especially since it’s my first time playing and I’m still learning. I doubt it. But I at least want to play a couple hours of it and try to learn a bit of it.

going to my friends on Sunday, we’re going to play Descent together (he’s gonna explain more to be about how the game is played while we’re playing) and also a few rounds of the digimon TCG.

Part of me is tempted to stay up all night tonight learning about it

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It's best to zopiclone myself to sleep - Cuz then I just fall asleep after the sun rises. lol ^-
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Feeling really good past 2 days. Hopefully tomorrow will be good too.
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