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#181
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Metaphysic
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#182
I have everything.. I have it all.. One of the best lives in the world.. And my thoughts still destroy me..
I'll try and meditate at 2am (Maybe outside on the grass, with my noise canceling earbuds in) =] |
Angelique67
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Metaphysic
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#183
I vented all of this to my family group chat. My brother, mom and autist friend helped. I feel much better.
It's just crazy, how my dreams were all pleasant, and then I wake up - The negative thoughts started to come again, intensely.. I'm not looking forward to tomorrow, but I can do it.. I just get bothered a lot.. I didn't meditate, but my brother told me to listen to "Brown noise - It calms an overactive mind".. It sounds like a waterfall.. It's good.. I'll go to sleep now.. And just when I'm typing right now? It seems weird.. Like I have some muscle problem in my hands/body.. Or reality is becoming laggy (Like a video game)... Sleep.. Gn all! |
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#184
Not looking forward to work tonight. It’s a holiday weekend. Right before school starts. Which means it’s gonna be extra busy due to it one being a holiday weekend and two being their second biggest sales season next to Christmas since parents are there buying clothes for their kids for the new school year.
The lady who was training me the other day said it’s okay to be slow and don’t let anyone rush me. Speed comes with time and experience. So I’m just gonna try to get through each transaction correctly and start learning the things I’m still struggling with like returns and layaways. It’s only my 2nd day on the register. Day one was orientation. Today is my third day there. Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk __________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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Angelique67, cogladaid, Desoxyn, Sometimes psychotic
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#185
I have my violin lesson in a couple hours
Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk __________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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Angelique67, Desoxyn, Sometimes psychotic
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#186
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I tell people sorry I’m new sometimes it helps. Sent from my iPad using Tapatalk __________________ Hugs! |
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Angelique67, Blue_Bird
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#187
Had a good violin lesson. My violin teacher is doing two events in upstate NY this month. She said if she’s able to on her way there or back she will stop by so we can meet in person and I said I’ll buy us lunch at a cafe around here
__________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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#188
__________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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Angelique67, cogladaid
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Metaphysic
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#189
A great day!
Work was good.. I started rambling to the new cook and asking him questions too. He's probably surprised by what I was saying.. I was just rambling to him.. I took phenibut, and a microdose gummy + The morning stim. I feel much better. Now, to recover.. from horrible feelings. I have work to do (Procrastinating doing online courses - Looking up conspiracies and listening to music). It is all I should do for today. I asked my boss if he wanted me to work tomorrow (When I don't have to) and he said "sure, if you want to" (Cuz he knows that I had a tough time working 4x days a week) - I asked him if it would be busy, and he said "Yes". So hopefully should be no problem. The video game lagging (Of my fingers, when I type) is gone.. Idk what that was all about (Last night).. |
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#190
I'm shaking now when I go out to vape. If I sit up straight it's worse than if I lean back, but then the vapor burns my lip. I don't know if it's from my meds or Parkinson's.
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#191
I don't really enjoy vaping anymore. I could quit but then I wouldn't get my outside time, or the little walk. Idk.
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#192
On my way home from work
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#193
My feet hurt, my back hurts. I got home, took my sweaty uncomfortable work clothes off and put a tshirt and shorts on and am laying down relaxing. I have the day off tomorrow. Thank God. Tonight was hectic as hell. I think I did a little better than my 2nd day though. I procesed some gift cards properly and also did a return/exchange properly too so that's something.
__________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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Angelique67, cogladaid, Sometimes psychotic
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#194
Working tomorrow from 10am to 5pm
__________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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Angelique67, cogladaid
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#195
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#196
I did an extra day of work! And it was zero problem.. I think everything is okay.. It's a good day today =] 3 days off, my dad will come to visit. He gave the codeines to his unemployed, weed smoking, conspiracy old hippie friend (Instead of my grandmother - On my moms side).
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Angelique67, Blue_Bird, cogladaid, Sometimes psychotic
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#197
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I get a 30 minute lunch break and like one or two 15 minute breaks too though. __________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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Angelique67, cogladaid, Desoxyn, Sometimes psychotic, unsure123
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#198
The manager who was in charge of making schedules died last week. So it’s kind of hectic and I haven’t gotten a schedule yet. They’ve just been calling me like the day before they need to me to ask if I can come in. They said they should have the schedules done in a few weeks from now
__________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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#199
I meet my new psychiatrist on Wednesday. Appointment will be an hour long since it’s my first time seeing him since my other one of 7 years left to work at the hospital. Hopefully he’s nice. I don’t need any med adjustments, other than maybe starting a beta blocker for anxiety for work. Other than that I’m good. Then on Thursday I see my therapist. She doesn’t even know I started working. She knew I was looking for a job for a long time but the last time I saw her was 5 weeks ago and within that time I got an interview, got hired and started working last week. So that’s gonna be some super exciting news to share. I think I’ve made a lot of progress over the years. It’s been slow but I’m definitely a lot better than I was when I was 14-24 years old. It all seemed to happen fast too. 6 months ago I wasn’t in a relationship, I wasn’t volunteering, I wasn’t working, and I wasn’t doing well mentally. Now I’m doing all those things plus taking violin lessons. It’s crazy how things can just seem to not change forever then suddenly everything has changed.
Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk __________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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Angelique67, cogladaid, unsure123
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#200
Anyone have any tips on how to figure out how the hell to fill out tax paperwork? It is so confusing and I’ve never done it before
Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk __________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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