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Old Oct 02, 2023 at 07:48 PM
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I was drinking again some more but I hate it really I do. It doesnít make me feel good. Only for a moment.

So Iím trying again to be sober from alcohol.

I cut myself off from caffeine four days ago and thatís going good.

I have naturopath tomorrow (telling me my food sensitivity results) then physio on Wednesday. CT scan Wednesday night. Then next week a bunch of appointments.

Iím going to contact my tattoo artist to reschedule my butterfly tattoo. Hopefully get that soon (but not too soon because I have to wait to get paid first lol).

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Old Oct 02, 2023 at 08:20 PM
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I was drinking again some more but I hate it really I do. It doesnít make me feel good. Only for a moment.

So Iím trying again to be sober from alcohol.

I cut myself off from caffeine four days ago and thatís going good.

I have naturopath tomorrow (telling me my food sensitivity results) then physio on Wednesday. CT scan Wednesday night. Then next week a bunch of appointments.

Iím going to contact my tattoo artist to reschedule my butterfly tattoo. Hopefully get that soon (but not too soon because I have to wait to get paid first lol).

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Iím also trying cut back on caffeine. Iím not cutting it completely out. But I do need to cut it wayyyyy down because I overdo it every single day and drink like 5-6 cups a day. Ideally Iíd like to get down to one a day in the mornings. Itís hard because itís like my default drink. Black coffee. Like you Iíve also made myself physically sick from too much coffee on multiple occasions (not any time recently) I enjoy it more than water. Unless Iím really thirsty or hot/sweating, then I enjoy water. Iíd be curious to see what effects cutting back long term would have on my anxiety.

Hope being sober from alcohol goes well and hope your appointments go well too!

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Old Oct 02, 2023 at 08:25 PM
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I was thinking of getting a hydro flask water bottle. Theyíre really supposed to be good quality long lasting water bottles that keep your drink cold for very long periods of time. So Iím considering getting one. Iím weird in that I need external motivation to drink water so having a new water bottle is the type of thing that typically gets me to drink more water. And I need one anyway because I donít have a good reusable water bottle.
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Old Yesterday at 05:46 AM
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Good morning, woke up exactly when I set my alarm to seconds before it went off (5am).

Going grocery shopping later. Then have an appointment with my therapist in the afternoon.

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Was able to pick up my meds yesterday, starting olanzapine tonight. Almost got arrested this morning so that was fun. Seeing shadows/hearing things. Scared of every little noise.

Saw a snowshoe hare this AM. Fking thing was like two feet long.

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Was able to pick up my meds yesterday, starting olanzapine tonight. Almost got arrested this morning so that was fun. Seeing shadows/hearing things. Scared of every little noise.

Saw a snowshoe hare this AM. Fking thing was like two feet long.

Hope the meds help!

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Old Yesterday at 07:44 AM
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I got a jug of apple cider, pumpkin spice coffee creamer, and apple cider donuts!

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Old Yesterday at 02:05 PM
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Old Yesterday at 04:52 PM
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Had a good, long sleep. Feeling good.

I see psychiatrist in 2 weeks. Don't need meds changed - Not sure what to say.

Still no more daily olanzepine! That's awesome.

I have a really bad memory now though. The world is super nuts - I'm just going along with it.
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Old Yesterday at 07:16 PM
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My appointment with my therapist was good. I told her about becoming the talent captain at work. We mostly talked about work and how crazy it is that I got that additional/higher position so fast at my job. She was super happy to hear about and and surprised too because a month and a half ago I didnít even have a job and this is my first job. So weird how it happened so fast. So she said she was super proud of me. She is going to tell my former psychiatrist about it too because she knows she would love to hear such good news about me too. So yeah, I talked about how stressful it is sometimes especially the cashier portion and how some days I want to walk out and quit on the spot but I keep pushing through and she said that was very admirable and to be proud of myself. Thats mostly what we talked about was work because Iím doing fine as far as mental health symptoms go, I have anxiety lately but itís work related and all my other symptoms are under control with my meds.

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Old Yesterday at 07:20 PM
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I have work tomorrow from 10am to 3pm. I have a couple boxes of protein bars in my cabinet now so Iím gonna bring one to work. I donít get a lunch break tomorrow because Iíll only be there 5 hours but I get a 15 minute break and Iíll eat it on that. Donít work Thursday. Friday I work from 7:30pm to 11:30pm. Iíll get home sometime after midnight once I get off the bus

Next week I work Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday doing talent captain stuff. I might try to pick up one or two more shifts that week too doing cashiering.

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Old Today at 01:21 AM
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I'm so stupid. I can't do anything.

Let me jump into infinity. I'm already in here. I want to get out.

I tried. I'm so lost. I don't make sense.

My dreams last night were so boring. I was buying groceries. Flying across Hawaii in a jet back, smoking weed. I was like "I remember our last vacation here" (I've never been there).

**** this. DEATH IS WHAT I WANT. Lol.

I hate.. Idk? What do I hate..
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