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#981
The Kamikazis.. My world was focused on WW2 in Japan.. Where the nuclear bombs dropped.
My aunt and uncle visited one of the sites - They were standing in the exact same spot that the bomb was detonated.. Listening to that, gave me a feeling that I've never felt before. |
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#982
Had to deal with a really rude customer on Thursday. Made me want to cry. Anyway, one customer was really super friendly to me after a really difficult customer cause I think she could tell it was overwhelming especially since they had only me and one other person as cashiers. Ridiculously understaffed for the amount of customers and the amount of purchases people make especially at this time of year. I got slammed with 5 layaways in a row, which are huge and complicated and I'm still not super experienced with those so it was confusing and chaotic and the person that was supposed to do back up was hanging out somewhere else on her phone not doing anything.
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#983
Anyway, I had yesterday off. I have today off and I have tomorrow off then I'm back there on Monday. I've mostly been staying off social media, trying to spend more time being present in my actual life rather than scrolling for hours. I've slept really good the past two days which I needed because I was up for 40 hours straight before that. Anyway, hope you all have a good rest of the weekend. I'll check back in next friday
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#984
Having a lazy Saturday, drinking beer, watching football, and eating some comfort food. Hope everybody is doing well.
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#985
Today I've been feeling out of this world weird, even clumsier and nearly falling more than yesterday and the voices are very active, telling me they're healing me, etc. I started putting 1+1 together and remembered like 4 days ago I hit my head so hard on a tree branch nearly knocking myself out and blood from the wound and all my recent symptoms (headache and burning around large area of brain injury, clumsy, stumbling, confusion, absolute need to sleep a lot). So I entered symptoms in docus dr ai assistant and it says there's 70% chance I have TBI, traumatic brain injury. I'm not scared and not seeing no doctor. TBI can heal on it's own as the brain knows how to rewrite itself.
It's weird, today I kept checking the temperature to see if there was a heatwave because my head's been burning bad today like a bad sunburn. But I noticed it's all centered around the head injury. Besides that everything's so so right now. Just a tough few days but everything always seems to magically get better. I swear my life feels like I'm under a microscope being watched and probed by entities who make my life difficult but always keep things just barely in the manageable pain range. Anyway at least there's a lot of very nice voices recently. They say they love me and are healing me. |
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#986
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But in your case, you're having symptoms (I just recommend, that's all... You don't have to listen to me) - I know you might be scared and have reasons to not see a doctor - But yknow what? At least you're not like me, and that they'll test your urine, and find a whole bunch of positives for random drugs. Beware of change in your consciousness - Be responsible for, unfortunately, a possible new reality (Which is happening for everyone anyways, so no need to worry). ![]() |
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Anyway, glad/hope you didn't have brain bleeding! That sounds deathly serious! Can't imagine going to ER. You have a lot of courage! That was awesome what you said at the end, a new reality. That's definitely what I've been feeling so strongly lately. It's kinda freaking me out, especially today. TBH numerous times today had to ask if I died and if reality is slowly migrating to a heavenly realm. Thanks again! Keep being awesome! Much Love! |
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#988
With "entities who make my life difficult but always keep things just barely in the manageable pain range" - Just make sure you're not suffering too much, and always seek help, talk here or let someone know how you're feeling. There's always good people in the world that will care about you, me, anyone.
There was music I always listened to with the label "Strange Music" (Rappers that write about mental health and life - But with strange/disturbing vibe) - If you've heard of "Tech N9ne", at the end of one of his songs (And collaboration with some others), he said; "Remember, don't kill yourself.. Or anyone else! Stay here with us.. Your time to shine is coming, trust!" We gotta stick together, through this ^- And sooner treatment for possible complications of TBI is better than later. I would hit my hand/fingers off the side of a table (When feeling too much mental pain), but never my head - I'm a scientist, not a mad scientist! (No jk). When I was lining up for meds (In the psych hospital), a woman was standing behind me - She was manic, and said "The bumps on my head are cuz I can't sleep - I want to sleep so bad, I hit my head off the wall, to knock myself out" and I thought "!!! No way!.." - She always said "I'll meet you again" (And that stuck with me). She said "You seem too smart. I used to be like you. Try meth!" (She got put into the side room, put on 12mg of risperidone every 12 hours, for 3 days). But I realize, it's just how it is.. She mentioned some numbers to me, I then answered, and she said "See! He has a little bit of it!" (I'm 100% sure she was referring to.. Non-dualism or something.. Something like that)... She helped.. But I lost my mind to come to that realization. But no jk, SP is a real scientist like legit ^- |
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#989
Good morning. The past two days since we’ve decreased the Thorazine I’ve only slept 4 hours per night. I slept 4 hours Saturday night and 4 hours last night. Which sucks. I hope my sleep eventually improves, cause I don’t want to go back up to the dose I was on. It’s like my body is incapable of sleeping with anything under 200mg of it. I have work today from 11am to 3pm. I don’t know how long to let the lack of sleep go on before calling my doctor. He said to call him if I struggle sleeping on the lower dose. I guess if it happens again tonight I’ll call him tomorrow. I can technically go back to the 200mg but I’m trying to avoid that because I want to get off Thorazine eventually. But I don’t sleep when I’m off it or on a low dose. I sleep a maximum of 4 hours of light tossing and turning then I’m up for the day. It’s always been this way, even before I was on it, which is part of the reason I got on it in the first place , I barely slept. First I was on seroquel but I got off that due to weight gain and switched to Thorazine 400mg. Eventually I got down to 200mg Thorazine but it seems anything lower than that and I just don’t sleep or get tired. Even though I’m not tired it still concerns me because I know it’s not healthy to only sleep 4 hours per night
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#990
Last 2 nights were best night sleep ever. It always happen with physical or mental trauma. But doubt it will happen tonight. Head feels lot better but not 100% yet.
Desoxyn, I love meeting people like that lady!! It's been too long since meeting someone like that. I was in a psych ward only twice. Met a lot of interesting people, but can't recall anyone like that lady you met. Every so often I recall the psych ward days. Lot of good & bad. Your experience makes me want to walk down skid row out here to find interesting people. Will definitely listen to N9ne. He sounds like an awakened artist. Who is SP? That's awesome to hear you're a scientists. Us scientists need to stick together! |
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#991
Feeling a lot better. For awhile this morning anxiety and panic was unusually high.
Still thinking about that psych ward lady you met, Desoxyn. I used to watch a lot of IRL streamers. Only the positive ones. This one streamer has a gift for finding amazing interesting people exactly like you described. They're usually homeless. Those people seem like gods in a human body. Makes me wonder about life. |
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#992
Just got home from work. It was extremely busy. One of my customers spent $650 which was a massive amount of clothes.
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I didn’t know you listened to Tech N9ne Desoxyn, I’m a big fan of him
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#994
I decided I’m staying on the 200mg of Thorazine. I sleep perfectly on that amount. With 100mg only sleep 4 hours per night. Idk why. But it’s probably best to not mess with it because it works so why mess with it. I can’t keep going for days on 4 hours of sleep because even though I don’t feel tired it’s definitely not healthy to be that sleep deprived all the time regardless.
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#995
I brought my Pokémon go plus + to work today and had it connected with the Pokémon go app. Caught a bunch of Pokémon with it and spun a bunch of PokéStops. I got over 10,000 steps today according to my Fitbit. And meditated for around an hour total today
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#996
I have tomorrow off work. I volunteer with the cats tomorrow.
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#997
I bought some protein bars and protein powder. Going to try to start doing some of these workouts that come with my Fitbit premium subscription. I already get a lot of physical activity at work but I want to do some more. So far I’ve lost 14 lbs, my goal is to lose another 40 lbs
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