Roll Call 202

I guess my 2nd diagnosis was anorexia binge purge type, but that’s mostly in remission now.

So he accidentally sent out a prescription for thioridazine instead of Thorazine, thioridazine is Mellaril. So I have to wait for that to get straightened out

Mellaril isn’t even prescribed anymore it was discontinued because of its risk of sudden death and cardiac issues. Idk how it even is still in the system at CVS lol

I don't want sudden death =]

I remember I was concerned about that symptom "Sudden death" (When my psychiatrist was prescribing Concerta), he laughed - It was quite funny cuz I was like 16 thinking "Wtf?".

But yeah thioridazine is a very dangerous med.

The stress is going to kill me

I’m finally sleeping since the Thorazine was increased. And I’m feeling less impulsive.

I released all of my serotonin, had a bad time, went to sleep - Never again.

My dad will visit on Monday, so excited for that (:

I stopped the 3mg Invega pill to take every evening. I don't think I need it anymore. I didn't need 10mg of olanzepine anymore (A year ago), so it's pretty damn good.

Good morning, I slept good again. Fell asleep at 8pm and woke up; at 4:45am. Don't have much going on today. Just spending time with my bf later since he has the day off work. I spent some time listening to a Zelda podcast while I played a game this morning.

I finished the Mozart audiobook, which was really long, it was 30 hours, it was really good. I also finished an ebook I was reading. I'm almost done with another ebook.

I'm on a 15 day streak of meditating daily according to my Balance meditation app.

Since January 1st this year I've read 7 books so far. My goal is 45 books this year. Not obsessing over it. Just trying to use the tracker on goodreads as a tool to motivate myself to read more.

Been playing games. Mostly:

Story of Seasons: Friends of Mineral Town on xbox
Life is Strange on Xbox
Disney Dreamlight Valley on Nintendo Switch
Kingdom Hearts final mix on Nintendo Switch (the first Kingdom Hears game)

Story of Seasons and Disney Dreamlight are casual games I kind of can drop in and out of any time, Kingdom Hearts and Life is Strange are more story driven games that are a little more involved

I'm almost done with the first Life is Strange game, after I finish that one I still have to play:
Life is Strange: Before the Storm
Life is Stange 2
Life is Strange: True Colors

After I finish the first Kingdom Hearts game there's like 9 more Kingdom Hearts games to play after that so I'll be busy with those for awhile

I also have a subscription to Xbox Gamepass now so there are tons of cool games I can play on there too.

I reactivated my Netflix subscription, watcing the Queens Gambit with my bf. I've seen it already but he hasn't and I wanted to rewatch it anyway and he wanted to see it too so we're watching that. Still watching Naruto on hulu as well. We're on season 3 of Naruto. We're probably gonna play some of the yugioh TCG or Magic the gathering at some point today.

I've been trying to draw more, I have an art thread on game forum I'm on and I let people request drawings of what they want and I try to draw what they request. It's usually game characters, anime characters, etc it's a good challenge cause I never know what they'll ask for and a lot of times it's stuff /characters I've never drawn before.

Still keeping up with violin and ukulele, taking a couple weeks off violin lessons but will be back to taking lessons every week beginning again in March. I have some violin homework my teacher gave me in the meantime to work on which is transposing two different songs into higher and lower octaves. That's gonna be challenging. And I'm obviously gonna keep practicing in the meantime. I also am working through my music theory workbook.

I have to get bloodwork done tomorrow for my psychiatrist. They said they'll be open even though it is president's day tomorrow which is good. Basic comprehensive stuff. And checking Trileptal levels. And vitamin D in case it's low he said he can give me some vitamin D. I wouldn't doubt that it's low especially it being winter and not going out much.

Anyway, sorry for the long *** post, that's what's up with me lately

BB! You're doing great

Thanks! I'm trying

We played the yugioh TCG today and I won both rounds which was a nice change, I think I'm getting better at it the more we play. I'm also trying to learn how to play chess.

We also watched a studio Ghibli movie tonight, Kiki's Delivery Service

Now I can't sleep because my stomach hurts so I'm distracting myself with videogames and podcasts. I finished another ebook book earlier and started a new one.

I don't really care what time I wake up tomorrow, as long as I sleep I'm not being strict with myself and forcing myself up early everyday. No more 24-50 hours at a time without sleep, thanks thorazine. My doctor wants to find a AP to replace the thorazine next month at our next appointment but I'm nervous about starting a new medication. I'd be willing to go back on Invega or risperdal or maybe even seroquel.... but I don't want to try something entirely new that I have no idea how it affects me because that makes me nervous.

There's a new Invega injection that lasts for 6 months now lol

I’m starting to feel a lot better. My mind feels a lot quieter. I don’t feel like I’m being pulled in 8 million directions by thousands of thoughts ideas distractions and projects. I cleaned and decluttered my apartment today. Did laundry. Read a lot. Unsubscribed from several monthly subscriptions because they add up over time and I’m trying to recover from the financial position I put myself in due to manic symptoms and overspending.

I journaled. Meditated. Taking a couple weeks off practicing my instruments because I feel like I put too much pressure on myself sometimes and get obsessive. So I’m taking it easy the next few weeks. Doing stuff for my mental health. Taking my meds, sleeping, hygiene, spending time with my cats and my bf , volunteering, getting bloodwork done, therapy appointment, having a slow couple weeks not cluttered with endless to do lists and projects I make for myself. There’s nothing wrong with that I just go overboard sometimes and end up not having any peaceful days where I can take things slow cause I was going 100mph for a few months and my mind ends up so cluttered.

Gonna try to spend time outside everyday just drinking a coffee and reading. Take a walk some days. Just be chill.

Good. No need for anxiety Chill is much more chill - Lately I've been this way.

Life is the dream of dreams. Good that your bf = Less loneliness, and you miss your mom. I'm glad my mom is still with me.

We will go skiing tomorrow. I should read more of that book I'm reading..

Hope you have fun skiing! What book are you reading?

About to head to my volunteer shift with the rescue cats

Had a good volunteer shift. Apparently cvs filled the thiorazidine (mellaril) and I called them to ask if that was actually still prescribed because I thought it was discontinued worldwide they said yes so I called my psychiatrist to ask if he made a mistake or what because we never discussed changing from Thorazine to thiordazine so I’m very confused. I’m waiting to hear back

No skiing today but tomorrow possibly!

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Pharmacist isn't doing his/her job properly.

*There needs to be extra explanations (Such as this here)*, *And this one.. That the pharmacist should ASK your psychiatrist AGAIN/Double check (About you realizing that it could be the wrong med)* lol

Communication! Like the Morse Code... This is how you say this message in Morse Code;

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It's full of people going "-.-" (Impatient) and ".-." (Confused)