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Old Nov 20, 2023 at 09:06 AM
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Since all the cats at petsmart with the organization I volunteer with go home to stay with their foster homes over the holiday so thereís no cats left there in their cages over the holiday, so I wonít have to go in tomorrow cause theyíre all in their foster homes this week/weekend, but will be back next week and I will be back to volunteering then. So I get tomorrow off volunteering, which means I can sleep in if I can actually sleep since I donít have work either tomorrow

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Old Nov 20, 2023 at 03:59 PM
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So I am trying to do my thesis again. Anyway. People wanna normalize me but they never will. I am a normal person. It's just that people wish to normalize me. And that is not good. I don't like it one bit.

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Old Nov 20, 2023 at 04:00 PM
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Also, I don't know if my girlfriend is one of those people who wants to normalize me. It's weird. I don't know how that works. It's like she wants me to fit in or something. I don't know if it's really gonna work out.

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Old Nov 20, 2023 at 04:00 PM
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I feel sometimes as if having a significant other adds significantly more stress to my life.

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I think Iíve been managing my borderline personality disorder pretty well. Meditation and mindfulness helps. Iím still taking my meds and Iím therapy of course. But I feel like Iíve made an immense amount of progress in the last 10 years. I was the definition of chaos and recklessness and impulsivity etc back in my teens and early 20ís. Tons of hospital stays, 3 suicide attempts, getting high on stuff to the point of blacking out one time, binge drinking, cutting, not being able to maintain a relationship and wrecking every single one I was in. I still deal with mood swings and paranoia and impulsivity but itís on a much lesser scale now. Itís donít act on every impulse. And itís been well over 5 years since I was last inpatient in the hospital. I havenít drank or gotten high on anything in years. I have job. Have been in a healthy relationship for 8 months. I feel like thereís so much stigma against people with BPD, but I have made it to the other side finally. Iím still impulsive in some areas in my life. Still get paranoid, still have mood swings, still think in black and white (all or nothing) sometimes, But Iím able to cope and enjoy life. My doctor wouldnít even diagnose me with it at this point because Iíve improved significantly. I think Iíll always have it. It may have calmed down, itís still there. But I think itís under control. I just have to stay on top of it and manage it the best I can like I have been. I donít act on every impulse. Iíve impulsively wanted to break up with my boyfriend for no reason (just mood swings) probably a dozen times in our relationship but I havenít. I used to act on every impulse and destroy every relationship I had.
This actually really helped me to read that you've had a similar experience to mine. I am wanting to break up with my girlfriend right now, and I know it would destroy things. Reading your post made me rethink things.

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This actually really helped me to read that you've had a similar experience to mine. I am wanting to break up with my girlfriend right now, and I know it would destroy things. Reading your post made me rethink things.
Thank you Iím glad to hear that! Yeah itís good to work on learning not to act on every impulse. Unless thereís a valid reason for it and if your emotions arenít getting in the way of making a rational decision. I think the best advice I could give is to sleep on decisions. Maybe for a couple weeks. And if you still feel the same way talk to someone unbiased about it like a therapist and see what they say. Basically donít rush to make decisions youíll end up regretting. Cause I used to do that a lot. Break up just because I impulsively get overwhelmed and think the stress in my life is caused by my relationship. I know it probably wasnít easy to be in a relationship with me in the past , I know I broke up with boyfriends randomly then regretted it and got back together and repeat etc. itís hard for the other person to deal with as much as it is hard for me and others with these tendencies. So try to be 100% sure about any decisions, and learn to ride out emotions and impulses. Usually at least in my case when I feel that way usually itís stress in other areas of my life that make me feel overwhelmed and not really the relationship but I end up deciding itís the relationship and do something stupid like impulsively break up to deal with it. And itís not a good feeling. I havenít done it in this relationship, I did impulsively break up with him once when we first started dating again. But since then , I havenít. And itís been almost 8 months. It hasnít been easy. But itís gotten better. I have less impulses to break up lately even when dealing with stress.

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Old Nov 20, 2023 at 05:16 PM
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Work went well. It was easy. I mean it was physically exhausting but it wasnít stressful. Because all I was doing today was markdowns. Which is scanning items and putting clearance stickers on them if a clearance sticker prints out of the printer the Bluetooth scanner is connected to. I was also in the stock room for awhile too later in the day putting security tags and cables on coats. The $50 plus coats require a hard tag , and a 48 H cable , both different types of security alarm tags. Itís really easy. I did accidentally stab my finger hard with the pin part of the hard tag when I was trying to connect one and theyíre extremely sharp and it hurt bad and bled. But anyway, I got all the coats tagged they wanted me to do. And I did all the markdowns they told me to do. It was a nice peaceful day where I could just do my work and not be bothered by customers for the most part because I wasnít cashiering this shift. Which was a nice break.

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Old Nov 21, 2023 at 04:15 AM
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I finally think I got the meds figured out (although I know it's constantly evolving as a situation, mental health, that is). I need 60 mg lurasidone. And no aripiprazole.

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I finally think I got the meds figured out (although I know it's constantly evolving as a situation, mental health, that is). I need 60 mg lurasidone. And no aripiprazole.
Wait wait, I think I need aripiprazole. But the lurasidone for sure at 60 mg.

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Old Nov 21, 2023 at 03:54 PM
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I slept for 13 hours. Thatís after only sleeping for 4 hours within 72 hours. I feel a lot better. Iím sore from work from yesterday but feel good and rested. I have today off. I didnít get up till 2pm. Iím just laying around watching hallmark Christmas movies on the frndly subscription streaming app. Gonna see if I can get some organizing done around my apartment. I donít work again till tomorrow night 5pm to 9pm. Im excited for thanksgiving. Also I found a Turkey casserole recipe Iím gonna make with the leftover Turkey after thanksgiving.

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Old Nov 22, 2023 at 10:26 AM
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Does anyone know of any good self-help websites or books? I need something to read or go to when I'm feeling down and need some encouragement. I know I can come here, but sometimes I need to read some sort of motivational article or something like that.

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Old Nov 22, 2023 at 12:19 PM
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I work tonight from 5pm to 9pm then Iím off tomorrow because the store is closed for thanksgiving. Slept really good the past two nights. Itís only 12pm now. Spent some time reading. Feeling good, just listening to music now and drinking a coffee. I get paid Friday morning and Iím getting a bunch of cleaning supplies and stuff to get my apartment deep cleaned and also stuff to make it smell really good. I slacked on cleaning for a few months so it really needs it. I also need new vacuum filters too. And some aromatherapy lotion just because I love aromatherapy and these specific ones from bath and body works are my favorites. One is eucalyptus spearmint. And one is orange ginger. Getting some febreeze plug in diffusers to put around the apartment and new wax melts for my scentsy. Christmas scents.

I made a list of what I want to cook for Christmas.

So here it is

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-glazed sweet potatoes
-stuffing
-cranberry sauce
-dinner rolls
-homemade baked Mac and cheese
-homemade egg custard pie
-homemade chocolate chess pie
-deviled eggs

Definitely the most ambitious Ive ever done but Iím excited. And also gonna have some holiday drinks around the house. Not alcohol. I mean like eggnog, cocoa, cranberry juice, some Coca Cola, mocha peppermint coffee creamer.

Yeah, idk why Iím gonna do this but I really want to go all out this Christmas. Itís just me but Iíll have tons of leftovers which is good. Not healthy really but itís the holidays. Then New Yearís Eve Iíll order a pizza or maybe some buffalo wings

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Does anyone know of any good self-help websites or books? I need something to read or go to when I'm feeling down and need some encouragement. I know I can come here, but sometimes I need to read some sort of motivational article or something like that.
You should check out Jay Shettyís podcast , he was a monk for awhile. He does like motivational speaking and stuff now. He also wrote the book Think Like a Monk which is great

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Old Nov 22, 2023 at 12:22 PM
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My sister isnít coming over for thanksgiving because her boyfriend has covid and they live together so theyíre not going out for the holiday since they donít want to get people sick.

Itís just gonna be me and my cats ; and my boyfriend over the phone and FaceTime, weíll watch some shows and play some games.

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Old Nov 22, 2023 at 02:56 PM
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Iím doing a no buy year for 2024. Technically starting next week though. So I can buy legit essentials, and replace certain things like socks or shoes (only if I actually really need to) but no buying anything else for the entire year. I can buy reasonable gifts for people for holidays and birthdays. But no impulse purchases. No books, ebooks, games, electronics, etc nothing non essential, I can pay for my violin lessons, but thatís my only indulgence. For the whole year.

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Iím doing a no buy year for 2024. Technically starting next week though. So I can buy legit essentials, and replace certain things like socks or shoes (only if I actually really need to) but no buying anything else for the entire year. I can buy reasonable gifts for people for holidays and birthdays. But no impulse purchases. No books, ebooks, games, electronics, etc nothing non essential, I can pay for my violin lessons, but thatís my only indulgence. For the whole year.

I think itís a good plan to try to reduce spending, but you gotta give yourself a small budget for some fun.

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Doing good. I wake up - And an hour later, it's dark.
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