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#861
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I’m sorry about your situation , I hope you’re able to get into your own place eventually or move in with your friend. Are you able to get into supportive housing? That’s what I am. I have my own apartment I live in by myself and am independent and have my two cats. But there are staff that work downstairs in the main lobby that you meet with monthly to go over goals and whatnot and there’s a security guard in the lobby 24 hours a day 7 days a week that walk the halls and do their rounds once an hour to check and make sure everything is okay in the building. Idk if they have that where you are but I’ve found it helpful. Eventually though I am moving to a different state to live with my bf in September. __________________ “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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#863
Had a good violin lesson today. Also now that I’m not working I’m back to volunteering with the cat rescue. So I have time for that now which I’m happy about.
I’m moving in September in with my bf. I think it will be really good for me. Being around another person and people regularly. I will be getting a job at his job which is basically an assembly line but it pays really well like $20 an hour , I think he just got up to $22 an hour now. So we’ll both be working there. Eventually I’m gonna face my fear of driving and learn to drive. But yeah that’s the plan. So no more retail , yay!! __________________ “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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Legendary Wise Elder
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#864
Mustachio is so weird. She growls whenever she hears someone walking anywhere near my front door like a guard dog or something
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#865
Today was a good day. I went to the pharmacy and picked up my meds. I walked on the treadmill. I had my violin lesson, then after that I practiced violin and took a shower. And I had some coffee. So yeah it’s been good. Also I get paid tonight. So I’m gonna put part of it towards my 2 upcoming violin lessons and part of it towards groceries tomorrow. I’m getting the stuff to make crockpot pulled bbq chicken and am having it on hamburger buns with coleslaw on top.
Tomorrow I’m ordering groceries from my local grocery store. Cooking. Practicing violin, cleaning and trying to learn how to play chess __________________ “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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Metaphysic
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#866
What am I supposed to do with my movement and eyes?
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I'm so hungry. They didn't give me a snack tonight. All I have is a big box of jams that I use for snacks.
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#868
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#869
Anyway, that’s what’s up with me lately. I’m trying to get back on track though.
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Metaphysic
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#870
Sorry BB
![]() I went for a hike today. I worked this morning. I don't feel very accomplished - A friend got jealous that I feel for a girl... and got me to block her. I'm tired of nonsense like this. He's deeply in love with me - I love him as a friend - He helped me with my trauma for 2 years and then tore it all down - Saying I'm immature, fake, a terrible person, and that I will burn in hell - Then regretted it badly. So I said sorry to her, but in any way I don't want relationships - I can't put in the long term effort.. I just want to be alone and study neurons etc... Why do people love me.. All I do is hallucinate and overthink in isolation. But I have a lot of empathy, more than I realized.. It's like a loot of empathy - But I'm not an "empath" or anything special like that. Maybe this forum helped idk.. Although I've always been this way as a kid - School was way too harsh for me.. The real world is harsh. I need to grow up.. But I want to keep my sense of wonder, curiosity, etc.. I want to grow up as in, I want the LIFE grow in me... |
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#871
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#872
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I definitely went overboard the pst few weeks. But I haven’t vaped since Friday. So that’s good. And I plan on taking a couple week break from all of it. Then approach it again but in moderation. But yeah… I have a violin lesson today so I’m happy about that. I love my lessons. And I drew this the other day, it’s a character from pokemon. Gettin into eating healthy and exercising daily. __________________ “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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#873
I can officially play the entirety of part A of Bach’s Minuet in G on violin
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Metaphysic
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#874
We all share the struggle, in this world. Some people can do it, they can do it all by themselves - Or with the support of others, and become something, or just keep themselves stable enough to continue.. We are all to share the love. That's really it.. The goal is to die with a fulfilled life, it's like fireworks man.
You can be at peace with it. You can lose everything, and die alone - A horrible, miserable death. And what perception comes from the unknown is what we give to ourselves, either way. Like a computer program, from 1's and 0's - It all complexifies, infinitely - Through fractals.. nexus points.. All divine sparks, of good and evil.. All one. Love and God. |
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Metaphysic
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#875
I need to tell my psychiatrist on Friday that I'm doing bad in all ways but somehow still functioning in all ways
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Legendary Wise Elder
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#876
I'm not doing well at all, I'm trying to make positive changes though
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#877
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*Writes creative things* There we go. No but .. It gets better, ups and downs.. Throughout the whole cosmos-universe - At the speed of light always, right into the centre of the mind - Where Jesus is, Buddha, etc.. And magic happens through. If I were to just sleep.. for a long time, that wouldn't be ok... We need to be alive, and nourish our souls.. No machines here. When they are our masters, an evil place takes hold - And we are to fight to get out of the Matrix.. |
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#878
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#879
I have an appointment with my therapist later today. I haven’t slept. I can’t fall asleep
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#880
I have negative symptoms, so psychiatrist wants to switch me to Vraylar (And then phase out the Invega), but disability doesn't cover it.
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