[buddyandcharlie]

Originally Posted by DocJohn

Hi folks and welcome to our support group for people who have a schizophrenic or psychotic disorder and support for their loved ones and family.

If you're looking for helpful information resources on schizophrenia, you may want to check out our resource directory of reviewed schizophrenia and related resources online.

Welcome and I hope you find the support you're seeking here.

DocJohn

Hi, Doc John. I'm a sad mother whose son is 28 and has paranoid schizophrenia, going on three years now. Where should I go in the forums? I can't seem to find the right place.

[Angelique67]

Originally Posted by buddyandcharlie

Hi, Doc John. I'm a sad mother whose son is 28 and has paranoid schizophrenia, going on three years now. Where should I go in the forums? I can't seem to find the right place.

You are in the right place.

[Straightaced]

Hi so glad I found this forum, have been caring for my mother since she was diagnosed a few years ago. She is on the invega monthly injection, through cto as she lacks insight. Although the psychosis has subsided, she has zero interest in her life and is just not functioning well. Me and the rest of the family are very worried, shes lost interest in once enjoyed activities! I am trying to get into contact with her case manager but every time I call I get told she will call me back, but never does. I just am thinking is there anything at all that might bring her back to her former self, i know theres no cure but to minimise the withdrawn effects and get her interested in life. She currently is sleeping most the day, cannot see why we are worried. There was her sister who told the dr at her last appointment at the community mental health centre but it seems they are not fazed and are discharging her to the gp. I just dont understand how the drs, case workers are not more worried. I certainly am worried, is hard seeing my mum just exist with no interest in life!
She isnt saying shes depressed, I think its part of the illness. Is there anyone out there that has any advice on how I can help her?

[mermanleon411]

I had visual hallucinations in the hospital and I cried and my eyes got swollen and I could barely see and I saw shadows on the blank wall (It was blank I checked) of people eating people. It looked kind of like a puppet show. I was delusional with the delusion that I needed to get better from my problems by monitoring my bodily sensations. After a while and a lot of screaming I started to recover from that. I would also go into these rages where I would feel a lot of emotional pain that drove me to want to commit suicide because I was in so much pain. The antipsychotic completely made my anger and visual hallucinations go away but I'm left with a deep depression and weird thoughts. These thoughts I have that I am projecting my voice through sound once led me to lock myself in the closet because I was scared that people could hear my thoughts. I also struggle with self harm and depression. I have moments of deep suicidal sadness at least once a day and I really struggle with depression. I also threatened to stab myself once and I can barely remember but I went to the mental hospital once when I was psychotic and I was so out of it I couldnt stop feeling angry but now my symptoms are under control and I'm getting a college degree!

[westernscrubjay]

Voices. They'll be the death of us all. Unless...someone figured out everything one needs to know to make friends with them. Always angry? Critical? Make them sing "Row row row your boat" They won't like it-but they will sing it. If it takes all day, you make those voices sing. They might try to stop but don't you let them. Once they are stuck singing go ahead and laugh, you earned it. Teach them Happy Birthday. Does this mean you can make them say anything you want? You bet. They'll go away in a couple of weeks to a few months, but till then they are going to tell you how great you are, how they wish they could be you. You might even miss them when they go. Truth Voices are a rhythmic thumping in the brain that mimics critical or angry tone. Obsessing over it is not a choice. The obsession triggers the thumping and vice versa (this is just a crazy theory but it might work) If it helps pass it on

[Someone568]

I'm psychotic No one in my family wants to help me they all say it's gonna go away alone but everyday I get more and more irritated cause I just want them gone. I hear mostly voices they do the usual say things to make me feel bad about myself and make me think people are talking about me and make noises to scare me. Not to mention I'm severely depressed and have severe anxiety and agoraphobia. Hopefully this can help me figure out how to cope with them.

[Shoe]

See what you can do to see a mental health professional, a therapist or psychiatrist. Maybe medication can help you get over the rough patch. There were times in the past when meds help me weather the storm.

[EmeraldMonster]

Hello everyone, I have been feeling psychotic 'on and off' for many years now. I think it was more consciously hidden by myself before now, due to not wanting others to know how ill, alone and scared I felt. I had an awful traumatic childhood including a narrcissistic mother and secret abuse from my father for 12 years. Schizophrenia is in my father's side of the family. His sister got diagnosed later in adulthood and she went from being so clever, having a Scholarship to not being able to cope with the basics of day to day living, let alone work. I remember her in her dressing gown all the time, drinking coffee, which is coincidentally what comforts me.
I hate the world right now, I suppose I always have done. I have encountered many nasty people and situations along the way. Even this 'SARS-Co-vid-19' virus is not making others grateful for what they have. They have to start fights with others in public. The world will get back to normal at some point, whatever normal is!?

I last recall feeling this bad when I lived alone in my flat, I tried to keep down 3 jobs at one time to pay for it, and I just ended up getting so overwhelmed and stressed (what I classified as feeling 'mad'). This occurred when I moved out of my parents home (against their wishes), because my father wouldn't stop molesting me. I couldn't function properly and had suffered so much emotional abuse (from both parents), that I was scared to be in the 'big' world. I still am terrified.

This brings me on to just a couple of hours ago. The NHS called the police round because I had to ring up to say I wasn't coping anymore at the moment. I was desperate, and couldn't avoid asking for help much longer. This manic depressive episode has lasted 6 months, I've lost 10 kilo in weight and I don't want to eat.

Lots of triggers have contributed to this current downfall. Arguing with my hubby about not cheating on him (he suspects I have been, as I am psychotic and I have lost so much weight). He admits he is paranoid at times, I have to stress through no fault of his own. I can't deal with confrontations and arguing. Ironically, I usually have to shout at the top of my voice to defend myself as a human being (with a kind conscience and soul). Otherwise, I lie in my bedroom and ignore the disturbing issue.

I have been instructed by Psychiatry that I have Borderline Personality Disorder. I am now fighting for a second opinion as I was told at therapy I did not need further counselling. I strongly disagree, I'd waited for a year to get an appointment, which anyone with pending mental health issues will understand is a struggle! This was another trigger, having my beliefs diminished that I needed further help.

I have been told group therapy is my only option, I can't face that as life is overwhelming enough. I don't feel able to cope socially and have lost my faith that there are still kind people out there.

The police officers were great, more helpful than psychiatry. They managed to get someone from mental health to speak to me within their visit and thankfully, the doctor will ring me this morning to ask more questions about my symptoms/Schizophrenia traits. The police lady could see I was very distressed, muddled and not coping mentally. She was so helpful in getting me some assistance.

The doctor will ask a few more questions in the morning and discussed possibility of trying an antipsychotic, such as Stemetil. I mentioned to him I'd been taking 3mg Buccastem (used from migraines, nausea and Schizophrenia). This is obviously a very small dose, but I double up if needs be and this has greatly helped with calming down the psychotic episodes, helping me to think straighter and not having conflicting voices telling me to kill myself and also thoughts of vengeance have decreased somewhat.

The lady at NHS mental health then rang to follow up. She agreed Stemetil sounded effective, and 'good'.

As usual, I have slipped through the net. However embarrassing this whole event may sound, I am glad I've stood my ground. The guy on the phone for NHS 111, was less than helpful (telling me what I didn't already know, and that there was no option but group therapy!). I proper had a go at him anyway - while frequently apologising! I'm sorry, but some people can't cope in a group, especially me!!
I am pleased I am getting some promising help. I hope I feel better and moreso, 'like myself' soon.
It is a shame how far you have to go to get a second opinion. It's mad to think that I got in my car the previous night, on all my medication and went on a frenzied drive to try and kill myself, no seatbelt.

It's so amazing, the police helped me feel I can survive another day, even if just to wait for the psychiatry doctor to ring. I thanked them so much. It's a shame my other mental health doctors have let me down.

Best Wishes to all and thanks for listening. x

[Katysvans]

Hello!
I have too much laziness in doing the things,apart i have too little friends, I usually dont socialize very much ,at this moment i am not working because I had problems in works because of my illness, apart i cant concentrate too much i see thing that dont exist believe i unreal things and feel that god talk me, i have feeling of non existing feelings and things. I dont talk too much and i am a person with too little words, i am a woman and i am a nice person, a little lazy but in general good person