[kaytibear]

I heard angels singing the other day as I was getting ready to go to my psych appointment. I realized it was just the wind. Sometimes the wind seems to have voices in it or water running does too. It feels like there are lots of voices in me just waiting to get out.
Sometimes I try to understand what they are saying and to give them a voice besides just being in my head but it's hard to describe.
Probably my most frightening episode was thinking I was possessed. I was too scared to tell anyone what I was feeling instead I just told my doctor I was hearing voices and could she please up my medicine. She did.
I do have some relief from the voices with pills. I just hate having to take them. I do take my meds sometimes I wonder what if anything they are doing some days.
Lately I've been stuck in bed listening to my voices argue and talk. I want to get up and be around people but I'm scared I'll say something crazy.
When I'm in bed listening to them they tell me if I just lay still everything will be OK. So I lay still and then sometimes they aren't so mean but sometimes they are. I don't want to spend my life in bed. I just want to be normal.
I don't talk to anyone save my family and one close friend who understands I may go off on a tangent.
My mother told me I should pray to get rid of my voices and tell the voices to stop talking. I wish that worked. I pray a lot and it gives me comfort but doesn't stop the voices nor does telling them to stop work or I would be cured already. I also don't think it's very healthy to tell someone who hears angels and demons that prayer will cure them.
Once I thought I was cursed by a girl I knew long ago. It seemed very real until it was over.
My therapist thinks I am experiencing the negative side and positive of this disease and that once my pills are right I'll be better. I hope so.
I wish too I could get my voices to stop . Sometimes listening to music helps but not much else does. I draw pictures too and that distracts them.
I hope I've written this clear enough to be understood. Thanks for reading.

Kayti

[pegasus]

Welcome kaytibear, hugs to you.

[evie_rose]

Music helps me, too.

Keep holding on. You are strong enough to get through this; just believe it's possible to get better, and it's much more likely that things will get better for you.

[[[ evie ]]]

[schitzo-girl626]

Originally Posted by kaytibear

I heard angels singing the other day as I was getting ready to go to my psych appointment. I realized it was just the wind. Sometimes the wind seems to have voices in it or water running does too. It feels like there are lots of voices in me just waiting to get out.
Sometimes I try to understand what they are saying and to give them a voice besides just being in my head but it's hard to describe.
Probably my most frightening episode was thinking I was possessed. I was too scared to tell anyone what I was feeling instead I just told my doctor I was hearing voices and could she please up my medicine. She did.
I do have some relief from the voices with pills. I just hate having to take them. I do take my meds sometimes I wonder what if anything they are doing some days.
Lately I've been stuck in bed listening to my voices argue and talk. I want to get up and be around people but I'm scared I'll say something crazy.
When I'm in bed listening to them they tell me if I just lay still everything will be OK. So I lay still and then sometimes they aren't so mean but sometimes they are. I don't want to spend my life in bed. I just want to be normal.
I don't talk to anyone save my family and one close friend who understands I may go off on a tangent.
My mother told me I should pray to get rid of my voices and tell the voices to stop talking. I wish that worked. I pray a lot and it gives me comfort but doesn't stop the voices nor does telling them to stop work or I would be cured already. I also don't think it's very healthy to tell someone who hears angels and demons that prayer will cure them.
Once I thought I was cursed by a girl I knew long ago. It seemed very real until it was over.
My therapist thinks I am experiencing the negative side and positive of this disease and that once my pills are right I'll be better. I hope so.
I wish too I could get my voices to stop . Sometimes listening to music helps but not much else does. I draw pictures too and that distracts them.
I hope I've written this clear enough to be understood. Thanks for reading.

Kayti

music helps me too,i bought a pair of headphones,and i use them when im away from the house alot.