Schizophrenia?

So, I am 17 and for the past years I have been extremely depressed, followed by somewhat happy, then depressed, and like that until now. usually months at a time being depressed, and maybe a few days maybe a week most being somewhat happy before depression again. I know I have Schizoid, but undiagnosed. I am not diagnosed officially with anything. I am constantly paranoid. Like all the time, and have really bad anxiety. I cannot even stand in front of my class of 20 people at school and read my paper without feeling light headed, sweating, and short of breath. I hate being in groups of people and like to be alone all the time, that goes with the Schizoid. I think I may also have "Quiet Borderline", which is borderline but I don't act out, instead, I don't show anger, but let it eat away at me inside, and I eventually take it out on me. I have had a few hallucinations, and a few voices in my head, but not much, just a few times, when I am ling down and it is very quiet. And like one time I could have sworn my guitar pic fell, I swear I saw it because it was in my hand and I went to put it down, then I looked for hours for it, and found it in my pocket. I guess that could be a hallucination.

But someone told me they think instead off all that stuff, that it could all just be a part of Schizophrenia. I looked into it and did read some interesting stuff. The early signs of Schizophrenia are stuff like I listed (at least by what I read), and a few other stuff. I got a 19 on the early signs of Schizophrenia test thing. 14 and up is the showing signs. I got 19. But anyways, by what I read there are 3 parts to Schizophrenia. Is that correct? I saw a chart. Early signs, then Vulnerability, then Isolation and/or drugs and stuff like that. I have the early signs I think, and I am Isolated, and vulnerable I guess because I am so shy, I am am interpreting what vulnerability is meaning. Being vulnerable to others.

So what does everyone think? Is it possible Schizophrenia?

Getting a 19 on the schizophrenia test on here isn't a bad score even though they do say anything over 14 is a possible sign that you have it. I got a 67 on that same test which is literally off the charts. I have been diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder bipolar type. You describe bipolar signs as well (being extremely depressed then happy and depressed again). How often do you hear the voices in your head or other hallucinations? I am very paranoid myself, I am being spied on by the government both the CIA and FBI and they put nanobots in me, a brain chip, my psychiatrist is trying to kill me by giving me an MRI (the nanobots are turning me into metal robot with technology 200 years from now jet packs and everything) and many other things. My anxiety is also off the charts and has been for millions of years. But I don't have anxiety for doing speeches in front of people (even though just 6 months ago I would never want to do public speaking!) In borderline personality disorder you can have "micro psychotic episodes" ones that last just for minutes or hours at the most but you can't have it longer than that or the diagnosis changes. Do you have any delusions? You described some of you hallucinations. Being paranoid can range from just not trusting people all the way to a delusional psychotic level. My voices are not that bad, but my visual and tactile hallucinations are severe. I do hear things occasionally though. I even have olfactory hallucinations but that usually indicates a physical medical condition and not just schizophrenia unless you have a delusional reasoning for the smell.

I see. I was just curious. I am paranoid so much, like even the littlest things. My younger brother who is 13 went lay down on the couch upstairs last night, which is across from my room, and usually he is downstairs. I got sooo paranoid that he was going to do something to me. And I see what you are saying. So if I do have it, it is probably very slightly. Either that or I just have really bad Anxiety, Paranoia, Depression and all that other stuff.

You should go to a psychiatrist for official diagnosis. I don't have enough information to diagnose and even if I did, I am not a real doctor even though I have the information like a doctor does. (I have my own DSM IV and everything! A DSM is the book that psychiatrists use to diagnose people) According to Dr. Evil (my pdoc) I have everything in the book! He really believes that I am psychotic even though I don't. The definition of psychosis is a loss of contact with reality. Everything that is happening to me is real or at least seems real to me. But to an outsider they would call it "psychotic" just because it sounds too weird to be real! Does the paranoia come only while depressed or manic? If so, that is bipolar disorder. If there is a 2 week period of no mood symptoms whatsoever and psychotic symptoms continue, then it is schizoaffective disorder. It also depends on how serious your psychotic symptoms are. Are they interfering with your life?

I was diagnosed schizophrenic. I never heard about vlunerability playing such a role in schizophrenia, I would love a link if someone could provide one, I have always been just that vulnerable!!!

I feel unreal a lot. Like A LOT. constantly I just get these random feelings of that I am not real, or feelings of realizing I am real, and that I am actually alive. It gets in the way, like If I am driving, it may happen and then I get scared of maybe passing out. I am paranoid a lot too, and that does interfere too because I can't help be be paranoid. I don't drink refills from waiters, unless I know them, but then I still don't drink refills if they walk off with another persons cup too. I am not very assertive, and if I am and make anyone feel bad in any way, I am scared (paranoid) that they will actually kill me. A whole bunch of stuff I am paranoid about.

I don't show my emotions very well. If I am depressed, no one will be able to tell, or if I get angry, no one knows. I am like that all the time.

Zloppy, I have Borderline, schizoffective and bipolar.......you can have bits of all......it took a long time to be diagnosed and treated....I had alot of your symptoms.

Some other people pointed out other disorders and i agree with all of it......and you really need a shrink to nut this out.......it is the only way. You are so young! Please get it sorted professionally as soon as you can......make it your focus and you will be surprised at how much better you feel.

You have great insight into whats happening with you which is half the battle......now for the healing.....do it any way you can......ask for help and it will come to you.

Feel free to message me privately if you have any questions...... you are on the way to feeling better....

Im not pdoc so Im not sure I can actually tell you if you have SZ. Anyway you should definitely consult a professional. If this is just the tip of the iceberg then you're going to need help. I don't find pdocs to be especially insightful, but they got me on the right meds and gave me my life back.

i have always been shy on my life and i am 40, i am a Schizophrenia with extreme paranoid.i heare the voices 24/7 and the images appear all the time. i nevere used meds until this year.(only 3 weeks).it ended bad but meds are not good for me but maybe some will help you. i learned to deal with my issue all my life so trust your instincs is the best advice.