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Location: America
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I understand no formal diagnosis can be made over the internet. However, I'm wondering if I am Schizotypal and if perhaps you guys can give me some answers.
So, I'm very introverted. To the point where I do consider myself socially isolated. I do go to school and very rarely ever hangout with people outside of school (I just turned 17 BTW). I have social anxiety disorder. I am very self conscious about my looks to the point of where I do wear makeup (I am male). I don't hate having relationships I just really really really really suck at forming them. Now, I guess you could say I have "magical beliefs." For one, and I hate saying or typing it because I feel like some kind of weird paradox will happen but... everything I say becomes... true... I hate typing it or saying it because I just have this weird feeling like a strange unexplained paradox will happen! Also, I often feel like a protagonist in a big book right now. I don't think there is anyone "reading." I mostly mean that in a more figurative way. However, I just feel like the main character. Everything I do is just my character. Almost as if it was written into me by someone. I don't mean main character like I'm the center of the universe or like in a narcissistic way. I don't think highly of myself in that way. I just mean... I feel like I'm in a book and that book is both figurative and real at the same time if that makes sense? It's hard to explain. But, it does influence my day to day actions. Also, I do experience "episodes" of very distributing depersonalization/derealization from time to time. For the last few weeks I was just waking up to it. But, it also has been subsiding now. I'm not having as many "episdoes." I have not even had any the entire week. Also, yeah I do dress pretty horribly. I have not cut my hair in almost 2 years and I admit I'm super unkempt. My clothing is also very unkempt looking. So, does this mean I am possibly schizotypal? Should I seek help for this if I am? It's not that disturbing to me if I do have it. But, I mean I'm not saying I do want to have it. I'd rather be normal. |
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Member Since Oct 2014
Location: California
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Maybe you are. You describe it pretty well... Feeling like the protagonist in a book might not be as abnormal as you think though. I felt that way at your age too - maybe it's a youth thing. Now, believing that everything you say will come true, now that's magical thinking.
I'm definitely schizotypal (except that I wonder if it is schizophrenia for me). I work very hard to FORCE myself out there and fight some of the aspects of it. It is very difficult for me to shave everyday when I'm not working (I'm in the military) and struggle to actually shower (like with soap) although I do stand under the water everyday because it feels good. I guess what I'm saying is get out there and get a haircut! You can cheat. Go in and show them a picture of a celebrity you like or just tell them. I always go with the Carl Urban. I WANT to have friends - and have a few - but really suck at making friends and maintaining friendships. I'm really trying to reach out to the friends I have more and more. It's okay to be ST. But don't be a victim of it. |
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Member Since Jun 2017
Location: Oregon
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I probably don't have this, but I mightve when I was in 6th grade (I'mcurrent in 9th), I had this weird thing where I thought the boys could read my mind so I had to think everything carefully and make sure I didn't think anything weird just in case they found out reading my mind, if that counts as a"magical belief". Also I did see somewhere that people with this disorder dress weirdly, and back then I had the weirdest nontrendy style (but I was like 11 and 12, so ). Idk.
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