[MsBunny]

My attendance at school for the last three years has been awful. I missed yesterday and now I'm missing today and I'm wondering why the hell I've been such a useless waste of a human being all this time. But I'll just do it again. I'm completely incompetent in school. I used to be pretty good at it, too. Now my grades have been going down. Why do I act this way? Is something wrong with my head? Am I a drama queen? Am I lazy? Do I just have no will to go to school because all my life I've always been a loner? Spoiled? What can I do to get my *** to school? I'm in ninth grade and exams are next week- have I failed my whole life or is there still time? It feels like doing anything is completely useless at this point and that there's no way I can have a life if I do bad in school. I've already done bad in school. What the hell is wrong with me? I'm terrified of getting another attendance councilor because I hate them. I'm antisocial, quiet, shy, yet I still want lots of friends. It's almost like I have two different personalities crammed together. My parents were mad at me for missing the day and I told them that I would walk in by myself and that I wanted to start doing that. My dad said that he "didn't want me to do it because he doesn't think it's safe, but it would be better if I brought friends along." and then my mom muttered "She doesn't have friends." I cry whenever I hear her say things like this because it's obviously true. There have been a few occasions when I was sick of having no friends so I went out of my way but just ended up looking like a fool in the end. It's awful to be in school and have no one to partner up with. My family doesn't have a lot of money at all, but is there ANY way to get home-schooled? My parents think that I've been missing all this time do to my laptop, but that can't be the only problem because I was missing time before I even got this thing. So am I just being over dramatic? Am I crazy (my mom and her parents are)? Did I lose my last chance at being successful in life?

[hoping4best]

U sound very stressed. First of all, no..this isnt ur last chance but try to break the pattern. Its true that it becomes easy to bear school if u have friends there too, but if u dont have friends then skipping school still wont do any good. I remember when i was in high school i spent a whole year without ANY friends in class..n i dreaded the free periods and break time. My friend had changed school and as i used to be with her all the time i didnt have any other friends when she left. But eventually people noticed my presence again and i made a couple of friends thereafter.
As far as studies are concerned, m a lot older than u are BUT i still find it hard to concentrate and study well. But im not quitting just hang in there and dont lose hope. I'd suggest may be talking to an elder (if seeing a therapist is not an option for u) about how u feel about ur career and life might help. Just dont quit school. Try to be nice to people, be courteous and people Will notice u and would like to become friends.

[Tala446]

Freshman year is tough. It's really hard to acclimate and find your place in things. It's important that you go, and I think if you started to go that you'd find your grades go up, too.
I know it sucks to go, and a mental health day once about every three months is about my max. Limit yourself. Study just 5 minutes a night. Small steps, and before you know it, you'll be doing better in no time.