[OliversTwisted94]

I don't know what to do about my schooling. I have been in an emotional super-crises mode for a few weeks now, and I have had trouble keeping up in school. I am finishing school online, because I needed to repeat my senior year. I have always gone through "stages" where I will do something really well for a few weeks, and then suddenly lose all comprehension for it. I will try to do it and it's like all the information was sucked out of my head! It happens with my drawing, painting, watching TV, reading, writing, and- most troubling- schoolwork. I had a solid three weeks or so, and then I just checked out, per say, and when I even try to catch up on anything, I just stare at it like "AAAAHHHHDDDDDUUUUURRRR". Needless to say, this is just adding to the emotional distress I am dealing with. I don't know what to do; should I be focusing on my mental health and emotional well-being (and pour all my strength into trying not to harm myself physically), or focus on my schoolwork and trying to graduate???

(P.S.- It should be noted that, while I do experience some depression-like symptoms, things are much more complicated because I have to deal with avid hallucinations, delusions, and paranoia, as well as disorganization of thought and sometimes speech.)

i'd ask yourself the following questions:

1. what is it you wwant... do you want to go to colledge?. university?. a good job?

2. do you feel you need to improve your emotional situation right now- has it got to the point where it needs to take priority?

what's more important to you.

good health,

or good qualifications- and a good outlook for the future

go from their

[OliversTwisted94]

thanks for the advice . I know my head is telling me to focus on schoolwork, because I didn't repeat my senior year just to drop out a few weeks in; but my heart is telling me that, maybe right now for my well-being and sanity, I should focus on my mental issues and safety. I know it will be a struggle, but I can always catch up.

Originally Posted by wiltedrose2394

thanks for the advice . I know my head is telling me to focus on schoolwork, because I didn't repeat my senior year just to drop out a few weeks in; but my heart is telling me that, maybe right now for my well-being and sanity, I should focus on my mental issues and safety. I know it will be a struggle, but I can always catch up.

good luck with what ever you decide

hugs

[Perna]

I would try to figure out a plan to use the schoolwork to help with the emotional struggles. Are there any of your courses you really like or things you want to learn from them.

I love to organize so sometimes just taking my messes and organizing them and making plans, etc., even if I don't get right to work, the organizing makes me feel better and takes a little of the stress off me; having "must do this!" constantly running around in my head with random details doesn't help me, just makes me crazier and want to run harder.

If I can't concentrate on what I "should" (I have trouble reading textbooks) I kind of page through so see what it covers (read section titles, questions at the end of the chapter, etc.) and get an idea of names and dates and overview and then I take something that catches my interest and just start learning about that, web surfing, my own way. The older we get the less we need other people's organization of how we "should" learn something and I found that if I just play around, I learn what they want me to learn, just not in the order they specified or in the exact detail for each section, etc.

Find real-world applications for what you are supposed to learn and work on understanding that instead of the other way around where you learn the book stuff and then apply it. Most things can be learned and or looked up/researched as they are being used.

Work on thinking of yourself differently than the conventional view; if you work for 3 weeks, then deliberately allow yourself 3 weeks off, perhaps; realize at some point, if you want to finish school, you will so just let yourself figure out the details instead of someone else and their structure.

[unstablemind8]

If you don't have to sit down and do x amount of hours at once, you should plan your day. You could say you are going to spend half an hour three times a day doing your work. That way you will be able to process the information you retain and keep a journal about it. You could also go see a therapist and see what you should concentrate on.
Hang in there!!!