[TishaBuv]

I didn't set up yet an appointment with any new psychiatrist. I did a little research about doctors, but stopped there. My internist suggested a well-known clinic in our area, but it is for addicts, and I am not a drug addict.

So I am trying to help myself.

I got my husband to move out and we will eventually get the divorce.

I don't know if I have any MI at all, or if it was a bad relationship that triggered me.

I am feeling so much better with him gone. No more tears.

All I can think about are the countless times I cried because of him.

It's like I am severely allergic to dust, and he is dust. I'll just stay away. If all intimate relationships are dust to me, then I'll stay away.

That's my plan.

Husband failed me. Mental health profession failed me.

I won't fail me!