[kotoshinohaisha]

So i started to go to a new office. And it's my 4th day. XD so at first i just observe and tried to analyze how can i fit in..xD so here's my conclusion :
There are two fresh grads, another fresh grad i think? Or a few experience male, then one adult male in his late 30s or 40s i guess.
Well they're all passive people.
They always wait for the oldest guy to do the first step to have lunch, to go home. They're like ****ing brainless people who just follow. Lol. I'm so mean..xD well, i know why because they're still young. I'm already 26 btw.
So, there. In my 4th day yesterday i feel like it's so ****ing boring. Noone initiates anything. I don't even know their ****ing names. XD It's a different language you know so it's also extra hard for me to talk. Because they don't seem to speak english. So whatever it is today, I'll try to be stupid and dumb and talk with them. XD
Because in my socialization skills being dumb as a facade gives me a lot of friends. XD but if i just tried to look smart ofcourse everyone wants to feel smarter lol. XD
So there. I'm so fed up with the silence in our office. It's actually depressing. I will try to change the ambiance by you know, just talking with them. and i will try to introduce myself as well.

Well, i wanted to live and strategize my life in this real world 🌍.
I don't wanna be a slave of fear. Of rejections. XD or whatever **** people might think of me..

I don't care anymore. I'll just do it!!!!!! XD

It's for me and it's for others as well. XD i can actually do it, but there's this mentality of passiveness to go with the flow. But! It hunts me not to go with the flow. I'm a game changer. So I'm gonna change the situation by acting upon it!!

Alright! No matter what's the result, just the idea of overcoming my fear 😱 is a nice thing to have. XD hihihi. I'm so excited.

Let's change our boring 💤 life.

[kotoshinohaisha]

This site is actually pretty good because it makes me aware of my swear words. XD geez

[kotoshinohaisha]

Okay so first step:

Well. It doesn't make sense really xD haha. Sometimes your situation is unmanageable because first: you cannot change a person.
2nd: the only thing you can change is your attitude towards it. XD

There. I'll just be happy doing my own thing and trying not to please anyone or depending my happiness on anybody. XD

I will try and try but never force myself.

Whew. Studying is hard but i will study harder. K thanks bye to myself