[abusedtoy]

Here are two things that there is an another part would do to me, which is me also, because I have multiple parts of me, if you know what I mean by having dissociative identities.

Firstly, I would have a habit of self-flagellation, because there is a part of me that thinks that I do not deserve anything good at all. One alter would beat up another for him to feel pain, over his legs, arms and back.

Secondly, I feel like this is close to OCD, but not completely perhaps, because it is not a daily-thing, but in the past, I have one thing that I would do before I go to sleep, otherwise I would have no peace. I would have flashbacks of school bullying in front of a crowd of classmates, in the centre school ground during break time, looking at me, laughing at me and mocking verbally, making fun of my humiliation after being poured over my clothing with a cup of orange juice.

Possible trigger:

Since I was wet of my skirt, legs and even my underwear completely. I have the need to sleep in humiliation every night with my wet clothing on to cry to sleep, otherwise I could not. There is a part of me that would pour a bottle of water to relive the incident.