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Member Since Feb 2020
Location: Detroit MI
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Hey there. I'm new here. Well not so new. I made an account in 2015 and forgot my information so here I am. I'm a mother of 6. I just had twins about 8 months ago. My youngest before the twins is 6 and my oldest is 9. So I have a 9, 8, 7 & 6 year old and a set of twins! Safe to say I'm a busy camper. I joined again because I'm struggling to find myself. It could be post partum, but it could just be fear. I just left a 9 year relationship and it is the hardest decision I've ever had to make. Also the BEST decision I could've ever made. That guy was horrible to me. I'm struggling to live life alone. I haven't left the house yet because we just purchased a house together, however, I will be gone before my daughter's 10th birthday in March. I just hate being around him. I hate the sight of him. His presence casts anger upon me and I'm not even a mad or evil person. He has just brought that out of me after so long.
I'm here because I really need some motivation. My friends have been encouraging me to leave for almost 4 years now. Yes, it's that bad. I had to leave when I was ready.
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On a good note, I decided to start writing my truth out on here anonymously. I was so insecure because of things that he told me but I decided to shut down my Facebook page for a while so I don't see him or anything or anyone that reminds me of him. That's a big step for me. I'm training myself to not think about him or what he's doing but I don't want to spend this healing process pushing him out without pulling myself back in because by doing that I'm just creating a big space for loneliness. I want to be alone but not lonely, if that makes sense. Anywho, I want to tell myself daily affirmations that'll help me make it through the day and remind me why I'm doing what I'm doing but it's hard when I can't get my mind right. Any help is appreciated and I would love to hear from you no matter what it is you have to say. I enjoy reading just as much as I do writing. I'll post again tomorrow. Hope this gave you just a little bit of insight into who I am. Call me anything except crazy! Last edited by bluekoi; Feb 03, 2020 at 12:02 PM.. Reason: Apply trigger code. |
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