Aviza

I didn't sign up for a program that would add another payment to me. I could have afforded it but it would have really tightened my budget. It's to better my health. But i have other goals I desire more. I'm trying to follow Dave Ramsey's philosophy on repaying debt and paying cash for things. So I'm proud i didn't get further into debt.

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Son: 14, 12/15/2009 R.I.P.
Daughter: 18
Diagnosis: Bipolar with Psychosis. Latuda 100 mgs.
Roprinole 2 mg. 3x/day
Atitopole 25 mgs once a day

Revu2

Hi Aviza, subscriptions are the stealth debt channels. Right now, I have internet access, cell (under $8 a month), & utilities like electricity.

I'm a big fan of freemium apps, for the free part. The app developers find out I don't convert to their chagrin. Then they try various enticements. One even had ads for a bit, dropped the ads, then last month requested a donation. I thought about it for a week or two but when I felt ready to send a contribution, the button was gone. Oh, well.

Today, call at 2 pm, bits and pieces of creative work on a couple of projects. Yuck: copied the needed files to shift through to do our business taxes due on March 15. Just seconds of work, still Check.

R

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Revu2

A friend shared this quote:

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There is a vitality, a life force, a quickening that is translated through you into action, and there is only one of you in all time, this expression is unique, and if you block it, it will never exist through any other medium; and be lost. The world will not have it. It is not your business to determine how good it is, not how it compares with other expression. It is your business to keep it yours clearly and directly, to keep the channel open. You do not even have to believe in yourself or your work. You have to keep open and aware directly to the urges that motivate you. Keep the channel open. No artist is pleased. There is no satisfaction whatever at any time. There is only a queer, divine dissatisfaction, a blessed unrest that keeps us marching and makes us more alive than the others.” ― Martha Graham Graham’s response to Agnes de Mille when de Mille was complaining about her final choreography on Oklahoma! She was not happy with it, especially the Ballet scene. Pretty amazing friend to give her the quote of a lifetime.

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delightful

Thanks for the quote, R. The part I find most motivating is to keep the channel open even if our work isn't very good. I have no idea if my work is good or not. I really don't know. The story about Agnes de Mille not liking her choreography is an interesting story, but I'll bet there are hundreds of stories about Agnes McMurphy not liking her choreography, or Joseph McShmo not liking his acting, or Elaine Glimme not liking her writing.
Anyway. I like the quote.

delightful

Completed steps - I entered two contests.
I'm steadily working on the yuck jobs. I have quotes for central heating.
I bought a new computer. ("home" and "end" functions don't work.
And I'm writing.

At the moment, it's all good.
Me, signing off.

Revu2

Happy you like the quote. Yeah, they had reached a pretty high level. If you've read Anne Truitt's memoir series you'll see she struggled with that to. At one point she was not even scraping by and looked towards getting a j-o-b and wrestled with what that would mean for being able to follow her artistic impulses.

Stuff Barbara Sher's forums were just slathered in.

Off to a dental appt (fillings) in a few minutes. Yuck 1.

When I get back need to put in daily duty on getting my biz taxes done. Yuck 2.

Tomorrow morning, this will all be in my past.

R

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delightful

My next goal is to re-publish the paperback version of "Through Unfamiliar Waters." I somehow deleted it. It shouldn't be hard to do, but I'm resisting it. I'm scared that I'll have that frustrating experience of nothing working right. It shouldn't be hard. I've already done it once before. I'm not editing anything. And yet I'm putting it off. I used to think I was scared of success, but that's not what I'm scared of. I'm scared of expecting success and being disappointed.
The weather is either great or horrible depending on how you look at it. It's warm and sunny. My trees are blossoming. The worrisome part - we've had almost no rain this winter. The new weather pattern seems to be that winter rains start in late February and continue through April or May. I hope this is the case.
I think I mentioned that my heater went out. I am using my oven's broiler for heat. Climate change has helped me in this regard. We haven't had any frost this year. The outside weather dips into the 40s in the night, and my house gets down into the low 60s - not too shabby. In the past we used to have frost every day in January and February. Outside temperature used to fall into the twenties and thirties at night. No, I'm not advocating that we burn a lot of fossil fuel. The warmer temperatures and lack of rain also translate into the hot weather and fires we've had for the last five or so years.
I was able to write a lot, and now I've hit a snag. I have that vague idea of where I want to the story to go, but I'm lacking the details -the oy, vey, part of one of your posts from about a week ago.

Good luck, happy stepping, and all that jazz.

delightful

The paperback's in review. It will be in action in 72 hours. Yay!

Revu2

Hi thread,
Maybe twice a week, it seems, something creative my way comes. Today, I led a session on cross-counseling for a project and one of the participants asked for my contact 411. Yesterday I had a promising call with a potential client. I have to pull together a proposal, which I've already begun to putter with.

Friday appears commitment free, ha! I'll post what I can get to.
R

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Revu2

Moving slowly through my yuck tasks of completing tax forms. Before that, naturally, I have to complete my deductions.

At the same time, I have other yuck stuff more to my picking.

---A limerick--

We have those yucks set by others
Under which our joys get smothered
Weighed down I wonder,
Between puzzles to ponder,
If they'd do this to their mothers.

R

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