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Default Mar 23, 2024 at 09:37 PM
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two things...

high blood pressure and irritability both can be caused by poor sleep. so maybe the defective CPAP machine is to blame for your state.

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Default Mar 23, 2024 at 09:47 PM
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okay, that wasn't supposed to be posted so quickly. the computer trackpad is doing weird things...

anyway, the second thing is this: what makes an experience good or bad? my therapist asked me this very recently.

after i got home i remembered the Story of the Zen Farmer

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Default Mar 24, 2024 at 02:27 PM
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HI Team,

Interesting that when Delightful turned in the machine she got a good nite's sleep. Hm. Maybe the testy sleeping pattern was a way for your unconscious to protest?

Thanks SPG for the reminder about the Zen Farmer. The blogger makes the common conclusion:

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Maintaining an open and receptive awareness—and not clinging to any outcome, desired or dreaded—we give space for life to flow, with all of its unknowable twists and turns, and its possibilities, too.
After hearing this story + this moral, I never see a personal example. OK, show how this worked for you were denied entry to a country because of a bureaucratic blip?

Like anyone who is not a hermit, I live my life interacting with other people who all are actively pursuing their private or corporate outcomes. Often, if I relax, really concede or surrender, they get their outcome which might not be the best for the situation. If it's a quick or minor thing, so be it, but if it has implications for our ongoing relationship or other areas of my life, well, no, spoiled person, you can't just get your way by throwing a fit or, no, incompetent company, I'm can't give up because your lack of service will cost me thousands in taxes I shouldn't pay.

My other quibble is that I never voted, vowed, or vetted that the flow state is the preferred state no matter what. Life flows regardless, and sometimes I must be a boulder, sometimes the shoreline, sometimes the surface, sometimes the bed, and sometimes I'll need to step out and find a better stream.

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Default Mar 24, 2024 at 07:11 PM
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Good thinking, R.

IOW, know when to hold 'em; know when to fold 'em (sort of).

I mean all this "bend like the willow" may be nice, but as you wrote, it's important to kick major behinds when the situation calls for it.

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Default Mar 26, 2024 at 09:00 PM
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Serenity to accept what I cannot change, courage to change what I can, and wisdom to know the difference.

Bad things will happen. When they do, we can make them worse by dwelling on them, stewing in anger, or we can accept the bad things and the bad feelings without making them any worse. if it's a little thing, this is good advice. If it's a huge thing, letting go is hard to impossible. There's my deep thought for the day.

Re the sleep machine - they work great for some people. The do not work for me. In fact they make sleep a lot worse. A lot, lot, lot worse. Apria has a 1.5 gold star rating on yelp. They have a Facebook page for flowing success stories, only almost all the posts (including mine) talk about what horrible service Apria provides. When I returned my sleep machine, a lady there said she waited on the phone for a half hour and never got to talk to anyone. I was nodding vigorously as she complained. The woman who worked there was taking it all in. Clearly, it wasn't her fault. They are understaffed. I said several times, "It's not your fault. Apria is a terrible company." I hope it helped her. She did say that in her last job, she had to foreclose on loans, so this was actually an improvement.

As for me, maybe if I'd gotten the support I was supposed to, the CPAP would have helped me. As it was, I had two really bad nights, and my BP hit a dangerous high. So I'm not going to give it another try. It's not worth risking a stroke. Know when to fold them. And I can make the whole thing a lot worse by dwelling on Apria. I complained to my doctor, to my insurance company, and on the Apria's Facebook page. That's all I need to do. Time to let go.

Good stuff, and a good night's sleep, to us all.
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Default Mar 26, 2024 at 09:02 PM
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That's glowing success stories, not flowing success stories.
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Default Yesterday at 08:20 PM
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I'm glad you acted quickly and with resolve to the CPAP problem. I'm waiting for a new machine, so I wonder if they'll send me yours? (No, I'm going through a different DME supplier.)

I recall that you got good sleep during your sleep study. So it suggests that if you had a machine that was set up properly and working properly, maybe the therapy would work for you.

Those CPAP devices are pretty crude things, though. They're essentially a computer-controlled reversed vacuum cleaner.

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