I slipped :(

SheilaJane · Dec 03, 2009, 09:09 PM

I had a really rough day today and I slipped tonight. I feel horrible about it now. I just read the list on things to do instead. There are a lot of good suggestions in there. I'll use it next time. I just wanted to tell someone that I slipped... cause I feel guilty about it. It's a struggle, though, yes? We all slip up some times?

BeautifullyMistaken · Dec 03, 2009, 09:23 PM

Sorry to hear about it. But tomorrow is the first day back to recovery. Count days that you don't SI if it helps you. It's always a struggle to get through when you use SI as a coping mechanism.

I'm sure a lot of people slip up. (I did last week.) It always depressing afterwards because that's when the guilt sets in. After a slip up---I think to myself "why did I just do that"? I think one of the worst parts is trying to hide it from people...though I've become quite good at that (which is good and bad I guess).

There is a lot of good information and suggestions on that list. I actually saved it and one of these days I'm going to get around to printing it.

SheilaJane · Dec 03, 2009, 09:38 PM

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Originally Posted by BeautifullyMistaken

Sorry to hear about it. But tomorrow is the first day back to recovery. Count days that you don't SI if it helps you. It's always a struggle to get through when you use SI as a coping mechanism.

I'm sure a lot of people slip up. (I did last week.) It always depressing afterwards because that's when the guilt sets in. After a slip up---I think to myself "why did I just do that"? I think one of the worst parts is trying to hide it from people...though I've become quite good at that (which is good and bad I guess).

There is a lot of good information and suggestions on that list. I actually saved it and one of these days I'm going to get around to printing it.

Yeah... a friend of mine who's really been trying to help me with the depression and SI stuff just found out... I think she's mad at me now. So, now it's like my stupid "coping mechanism" (the SI) just turned my support away... at least for the time being. I think she'll probably talk to me later... she says that she needs time to "process." Ugh. Sometimes this whole thing sucks. I was doing really well with the SI stuff... hadn't done it in over a month. *sigh* guess the ticker starts again, eh? I just hope my friend isn't too hurt/ angry. I don't know where I'd be without her... :/

Sannah · Dec 04, 2009, 09:57 AM

Are you in therapy Sheila?

SheilaJane · Dec 04, 2009, 01:00 PM

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Are you in therapy Sheila?

yeah, I see my counselor once a week and I'm on anti-depressants. They help a little. today is going much better than yesterday, though.

BeautifullyMistaken · Dec 04, 2009, 01:12 PM

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yeah, I see my counselor once a week and I'm on anti-depressants. They help a little. today is going much better than yesterday, though.

That's good (on all aspects). All you can do is take things one day at a time and try not to focus on the past and future. (Harder to do though) Enjoy the weekend!!

SheilaJane · Dec 04, 2009, 01:14 PM

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Originally Posted by BeautifullyMistaken

That's good (on all aspects). All you can do is take things one day at a time and try not to focus on the past and future. (Harder to do though) Enjoy the weekend!!

Yeah... it can be tough sometimes. But it's what we gotta do

I hope you, also, enjoy your weekend!