I just want to vent out my feelings. Yesterday my laptop's internet wasn't working and then I got upset. My mum was in my room and my bit myself in front of her because I just felt angry. It was a stupid thing to do. After that she mentioned about my cuts. She said my cuts look disgusting. She said she won't help me because I cut myself. I need to sort my head out. She called me a weirdo and a cow. I feel sad and I feel like crying now but it's my fault. I am a weirdo. I'm sick in the head. My mum also told me to look at my cuts. I'm such a stupid weirdo..... :'( Oh great... I'm crying right now. After that happened, My sister was in the room too and she hugged me and tried to comfort me. But I just keep getting suicidal thoughts after. Everything is my fault. I'm a waste.

[iamspecial]

hi happycheeks,

You're NOT weirdo or a cow, you just need help and someone to talk to who will listen to you and care for you and your mum shouldnt really be saying those things to you b/c they are really hurtful and you need the support from your mum even those you have self harmed. i thought she would want to help you not put you down. im sorry that she isnt supportive for you if you ever need to talk i am here anytime, just send me a message or come on chat and i will try and help you and support you best i can. i know what it is like and it is horrible to go throught it alone so i want you to know you are not alone and there are people on here that can help you and will help you. chin up chuck

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Originally Posted by iamspecial

hi happycheeks,

You're NOT weirdo or a cow, you just need help and someone to talk to who will listen to you and care for you and your mum shouldnt really be saying those things to you b/c they are really hurtful and you need the support from your mum even those you have self harmed. i thought she would want to help you not put you down. im sorry that she isnt supportive for you if you ever need to talk i am here anytime, just send me a message or come on chat and i will try and help you and support you best i can. i know what it is like and it is horrible to go throught it alone so i want you to know you are not alone and there are people on here that can help you and will help you. chin up chuck

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Thanks for your concern. Yeah it is hurtful to hear from my mother. I'll be sure to message you.

[ladyjrnlist]

Your mum said the wrong things. Maybe she thinks this will help you stop. Who knows? Either way, what she said was cruel. You are NOT a waste.

[Sannah]

Getting a therapist would be helpful.

Originally Posted by ladyjrnlist

Your mum said the wrong things. Maybe she thinks this will help you stop. Who knows? Either way, what she said was cruel. You are NOT a waste.

Thanks for your reply. I'm sorry but I feel like I am sometimes.

Originally Posted by Sannah

Getting a therapist would be helpful.

I don't know where to get one. I might have to go to the doctor or I may have to speak to a counsellor at my college.. I don't know.

[Sannah]

Both would be good places to start! Keep us posted?

Originally Posted by Sannah

Both would be good places to start! Keep us posted?

I'll try. I don't have the bravery to go to a doctor or counsellor.

[Sannah]

Let us support and encourage you to seek help? What is the scariest thing about seeking help?

Originally Posted by Sannah

Let us support and encourage you to seek help? What is the scariest thing about seeking help?

I might be wasting the professional's time. My mum might become mad at me for seeking help.

[Sannah]

I don't think that you would be wasting their time. You need help. Do you think that your mum would be angry for you to seek help?

Originally Posted by Sannah

I don't think that you would be wasting their time. You need help. Do you think that your mum would be angry for you to seek help?

I don't know. Maybe..