[xxMSFxx]

So as much as i hate to say it...i relapsed. I havent SIed in almost 10 months. I felt like i couldnt talk to anyone. I got home from work n just cried. My boyfriend was too drunk to talk to me, and hes the only one i trust. I dont like talking to him when hes not sober. But anyway i just had such a bad day.

There only small cuts, and on my legs so i was just going to tell my boyfriend that i cut myself shaveing....I dont want to lie to him though. But maybe they will go away before i see him so that i wont have to tell him....telling him may also make him relaps, which is the last thing i want him to do... idk im just confused as to what to do. Some advise?

Im also afraid im gunna start SIing everyday like i use to. I regret cutting, but it did make me feel somewhat better... idk ...

[jennaorgana]

ah hugs from me!!

i am so sorry you feel so bad right now. and im also sorry that you are in this situation with your boyfriend. i feel like you might be able to tell him without relapsing him as well. you can just say you are having a hard time and you need his support. i think that will be gentle

have you ever thought about DBT therapy? that really helped with me and my SI. do you have a therapist full time? that also helps. make a list of a ton of other things to do besides cutting. that ALWAYS helps with me.

you can keep it in and talk to all of us though!! that should help

[xxMSFxx]

I dont have a T at all. This brings back my old problem of my parents not reliseing i need help. They saw the scars before n told me if they see them agian i will be grounded from my boyfriend...who is the only person i can talk to.

Anyway, SIing has been going threw my head all day, and i reallly dont want it to become a habit again. It took so much to stay clean for as long as i did. Now i just feel stupid for doing it, which makes me depressed....ughh i hate this

[Sannah]

Is a T a possibility?

[carrie-19]

Hey xxMSFxx,
You really should tell your parents that SI is serious and you need help. If they still disregard it maybe make an appt with dr you feel comftrble talking with and explain your problems to them. They can refer you a T also. It's difficult to see light at the end when you relapse but there is. Hold on in there keep posting and take a look and some stickies. Even if you don't try any stickies I sometimes jus read through them to get my mind off things.
Hope your having a good day, carrie xo

[xxMSFxx]

Ive been trying to get my ma to get me to a T but she always says something like im to busy right now, or shell forget. I know everythings gunna get worse once my bf leaves for boot camp. ill have no one to tlk to.

Ill try to talk to my doctor, but idk she makes me uncomfortabe.

[KeepHoldingOn]

I think you should insist on getting a T. It is the best thing for you right now. A T can give you the support that you need.

[xxMSFxx]

ill try. Maybe shell listen this time

[Sannah]

Talking to your doc is also a good idea.......