[Mike_J]

So I didn’t have the worst weekend but it wasn’t the best either, spent most of the time over thinking like I always do. Had a therapy appointment on Monday, and considering our last session were my recent SI was brought up, I didn’t feel that I could show up to my Monday appointment with a new injury, so spent a lot of time once again over thinking what I should do this morning. Wanting to balance bloodshed (for me more is better) ending up with a scar that would be ascetically pleasing (yea I know dumb logic) and something that wouldn’t be totally obvious was self inflicted.

After a lot of thought (over thought) I came up with several options, though I would make a final decision this morning before I jumped in the shower, I like to watch the blood dip off of me and mix with the water as it flows down the shower drain.

I made a post yesterday admitting defeat, that my SI was inevitable and I wasn’t even going to bother trying to fight it. Strange thing happened, had an rather unusual session with my therapist, nothing we talked about made me reconsider my plans for SI. But there was a reply to my post, it fit in so well with what my therapist and I talked about, it did make me rethink things.

I don’t know what tomorrow will bring, but the SI that I spent so much time planning for this morning didn’t happen.

[Sannah]

Wow, what great news.

[Katileena]

Mike I'm sooo happy! This is huge! You have control, even just for today. Keep thinking like this...you'll get through it, I know you'll make the right choice

[puzzclar]

Well, that's one for both of us, WE DIDN"T TO IT!!! That's even better!! IT took a lot to stop this one time. i hope this stays like this. We plan, but DON"T DO IT!! Keep going, and some day we will both look back, and go hey things were not that bad, why did I. Or that's the hope.

Good for you, Mike_J.

Can we chalk it up as day 2?