[Ashley1231]

Well last Sunday my dad found out how bad my self injury really is since he only thought I did it a few times which is not true. He started crying and made me show my brother and mom after he called her over. I was bawling the whole day and tried my best to answer their questions. My dad then made me throw everything away and I have to keep my door open or he said he'll take it off. He took me to my therapist and a psychiatrist who gave me medicine for depression. While I was talking with my therapist, she told me I had two plans (prior to going to the psychiatrist) plan a was to go to a psychiatrist and get medicine and see how that goes and plan b was to go to inpatient therapy if I ever cut again. I was doing so well about not cutting until I found a razor blade I had forgotten to throw out. And well I slipped so now I have to do plan b. I'm just wondering how I should tell my dad that i haven't stopped cutting because I dont think I've been handling this situation very well at the moment.

[agma]

In my experience, it has been impossible for me to quit cutting just like that. Slip-ups do happen. When I was asking my T on how to tell my husband that I had cut again, I liked what she had suggested. She used the analogy of someone learning to ride a bike. It is hard at first, and people fall-off a lot (slip-up and cut). Eventually with a lot of practice, you get better at it (using positive coping skills instead of injuring). Although no matter how long someone has been riding a bike, they may occasionally have an accident or fall off (slip-up and cut). I was also told when I started in treatment that it is normal for people to cut more in the beginning. This is because they are talking about things that are very hard and painful for them. This can be a sign that therapy is working. I would suggest talking to your T about telling your dad that you cut and that you are nervous. Your T might have some suggestions on how to talk to your parents. You could also ask your T to help you tell your dad. The first time I told my husband, I had him come into a therapy session with me, and having my T there made it a lot easier for me to tell him. Hope this helps.