[Izzy456]

I have self harmed for over 2 years and recently I met this guy we bonded instantly and he saw scars on my hips one day he the immediately looked at my wrists and found scars there too then he grabbed me tight and started telling me how I shouldn't do that and that I should rely on him and since then if anyone asked me about the scars he tells them to mind there own business and he really has helped me but I'm worried because if he leaves I'm not going to be able to cope I don't even know why I think he is going to leave because he told me if I left he would follow because he could never leave me and now I'm worried even more because the more he says this stuff the more I don't want him to leave and I don't want to lose our friendship but I don't want it to become more because I don't know if it would be the same if we where more than friends and lately Iv been so mad at my self because he will say he loves me an I'm his little baby and I just egnor him and walk away and I so badly want to tell him i love him back but I go to say it and the words don't come out and it's making me wanna hurt again because I get so sad I can't say it back even though I want to.

Hello Izzy456, welcome to PC. I hope you benefit from your time spent here.

[AnotherDayDown]

I hope he is a good one. When I first met my husband, he kept me from cutting. But four years later, he's the reason I think about cutting. Although I need to be giving this advice to myself...Don't rely on others to keep you from doing something to yourself, because when they fail or leave...it only makes you want to hurt yourself more. I guess that isn't helpful. I'm sorry.

[smmath]

i'm glad you found someone like that. with the way you described him he will never dream about leaving you... but if he does DONT SI... it won't help in the log run

[doglover5]

he sounds absolutely wonderful! :) i know exactly what you mean though, with all of the thoughts and worries that enter your head when getting close and letting down walls with someone like that. I always end up thinking those same things! and practically sabotaging anything good that could come of it with all the worrying, and then worrying about worrying. I don't have any advice, just hoping to give a bit of comfort in knowing that you're not alone!