I began self-harming when I was 13. Cutting was my major problem. I would find whatever was sharp enough to rip my skin and use it. At first it was broken plastics, but it eventually esclated to actual blades. That went on for three years before I sought any sort of help. My reasons then were the basic "its pain I can control". I stopped off and on until I was 17; two years ago when I quit completly. For the last six months, though, I've began hitting things, including myself. I've left bruises all over my hands and wrists, banged my knees together and against things, and started banging my head against the floor. I havent done any of that for the past two weeks or so, though. I'm wondering if I should start worrying about cutting myself again. When I first started, it was because of my depressionn. But now, it seems to be whenever I feel stressed and completely over whelmed. Like all this pressure is inside my muscles and veins and I have to hit to get it out. Is it the same problem?
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