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Old Jul 11, 2012, 07:11 AM
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I am so stupid!

I have been hurting myself for the past few days. I have been slapping, hitting myself. I have been digging things into my hands.

Why do I do these things? I know it's wrong yet I still do them.

I have been thinking of just "giving up" too! I actually don't know if I wanna stay or not!

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Old Jul 11, 2012, 10:15 AM
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Do not judge yourself. You 'think' you are stupid. You are not actually stupid. If you were actually stupid, you'd be diagnosed as such.

Don't be so hard on yourself
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Old Jul 11, 2012, 10:56 AM
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There is a valid reason why you are doing these things. Does it bring you some relief?
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Old Jul 11, 2012, 12:21 PM
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Why do I feel stupid though? I always feel stupid. I might as well have that as a diagnosis. Sometimes I really wonder why I do these things to myself.

I guess a little bit of relief. I guess its a frustration thing? Maybe even a gulity pleasure. I find hurting myself is soothing sometimes. I know I sound crazy!
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Old Jul 11, 2012, 01:53 PM
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Just because you feel stupid, doesn't mean you are.

It does sound crazy that it's soothing, to the ignorant that is, but I understand what you mean.
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Old Jul 11, 2012, 02:01 PM
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I guess a little bit of relief. I guess its a frustration thing? Maybe even a gulity pleasure. I find hurting myself is soothing sometimes. I know I sound crazy!
No, it doesn't sound crazy. This is why people SI. It is a way to cope and it does bring some relief. There has to be a payoff or you wouldn't do it. Do you have a T so that you can work on the issues that trigger your need to cope by SI ing?
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Old Jul 12, 2012, 06:30 AM
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Thanks guys,

I have a CPN(Community Psychiatric Nurse) but not seeing him for another 3 weeks. I am feeling better today. I don't want to hurt myself even though I am still feeling sad now and again. Maybe the depression is lifting
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Old Jul 14, 2012, 07:38 AM
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I am glad you felt better the day you posted this! How are you feeling today? I don't think you sound stupid at all; I totally get it too.
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Old Jul 14, 2012, 12:39 PM
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Hey Wolfin3,

Ye I am alright thanks. Not hurt myself in a few days. Mood is still blah but hey! Thanks again!
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Old Jul 15, 2012, 12:38 AM
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Please don't feel stupid. You are not alone in acting this way, probably more people than you know struggle with these same feelings. It doesn't mean anything about you, and does not make you stupid, or crazy, or anything like that. Big hugs.
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Old Jul 15, 2012, 04:51 PM
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Thanks Littleyellowspider,

You know when you sometimes just feel like life is not worth it anymore. The way life should be is just not what it is. Self hatred is just a huge part of me and I sometimes just can't get away from it
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Old Jul 15, 2012, 06:20 PM
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Can you get a therapist so that you can work towards the life that you want and work on that self hatred?
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Old Jul 15, 2012, 07:01 PM
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Hey there,

I have a CPN- Community Psychiatric Nurse who I see monthly. But that is gonna stop soon unsure when. I haven't got a T don't know where to look to be honest. Think I would need to ask my GP. I was given a CPN through my Psychiatrist
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Old Jul 15, 2012, 08:22 PM
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Asking your GP or your pdoc would be a good idea.
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