MAY TIGGER!!!, Mistakes

Hi evryone
I am having so much trouble with remembering things, and getting so angry wth myself, in turn I feel like I need to punish my self by cutting.
I am feeling like te biggest looser in the world right now.
Yesterday I made the mistake of putting wndshied washer in the container of the car that says "Coolent Only". The thing is, is that I have always put itin the wsher container before. I keep making stupid mstakes like this lately. The rest are to many to explain.
I am losing it!!!!! I feel like I need to keep cutting, so I am writing ths out so maybe I won't
Thanks for Listening, I hope I am not upsetting anyone

Are you sleeping OK? I know if I am running on the high side and start losing sleep because of it I start making bizarre mistakes such as the one you mentioned.
Carrie

To whom do I owe the biggest apology? No one's been crueler then I've been to me.
I am sorry to myself, my apologies begin here before everybody else.
I am sorry to myself, for treating me worse then I would anybody else. --Alanis Moresette

Hi there, maybe you have too many things going on in your life, I know this forgetfulness I am having is most likely from that in my case my pdoc says, and maybe my meds.
Don't feel like a loser, you aren't, you are "human", no need to be compelled to "punish" yourself.
I've done some really odd things this year, too many to list, one was a certain cleaning solution for my contacts I grabbed instead of the saline solution and put it on my lense to rinse off and ouch, I realized what I did, but don't you think I knew to rinse with the saline and instead grabbed the same stuff and put it in my eye to rinse, had to get to hospital cause even rinsing after with the right stuff didn't stop the reaction sooooooooo I went to the ER and had to spend an hour there while having my eye flushed out.
Now I put red tape on every new bottle of the cleaner to allow myself to see it is the nasty stuff, the bottles of the saline and the cleaner are the same size and almost look identical, the eye doc said that was clever of me to now do this and even said he is going to advise his patients that use the same stuff to try "flagging" their cleaner solution bottles.
Sorry, got off track here, but please don't be so hard on yourself, sometimes we do things wrong even if we have been doing them for years right.
Please take care, and know it was a good idea to stop by before doing something that may harm you.
There are lots of warm, supportive people here that can help you through the "low" or "exasperated" times.

Sincerely,
DE

In giving advice seek to help, not please your friend
SOLON

I feel so alone when I make mistakes, I have always had such high expectations for myself and I just hate myself so much when I do something wrong.
I am so accepting of other peoples mistakes and try and help them.
I don't have any problem seeing others make a mistake and, I give them support etc.
I grew up with an abusive Dad who always made me feel stupid and even said I was, and that I would never be anyone.
At mael times he would sit there and drill me on academic stuff, and if I made a mistake or got the wrong answer, he would punnish me by making me write out the write answers over and over again, or I would have to write like 500 lines if i did not get sonmthing done on time(IE I had a time limit on doing the dishes, no matter how many there were, and if I did not get them done in time I would either have to do them all over again or write long lines.
The list goes on, on what I had to do, so now if I make stupid mistakes I hear his voice cutting me down.
One time I cut after he had grounded me for 1month, and when he was in an o-kay mood I showed him and told him why I did it.
After that he seemed to ease up a very little bit.
So now this has been my pattern over the years, because I get so mad at myself and feel the need to be punnished.
I was in therapy for a long time, about 9yrs. Now my T is gone and I only have group psycotherapy once a week, but I am not comforable sharing to much info. there.
I have no where else to turn.
Thank you so much for making me not feel so bad about making mistakes. It really helps, Caring words from you make me not feel like such a bad person.
I am having a hard time shutting out my dad's word to me, I get numb and cut, pretty bad eh!! I should be over that by now, I have a positive relationship with him now too, so I don't understand why I can't get over this. Maybe you are right it is the meds that make me forget or just to much on my mind, I don't really know.