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Old Dec 24, 2012, 09:27 AM
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I guess I should start straight off. Less confusing. Anyway, i have SI'd for a few years. It's mainly off and on, and some parts of the year are worse than others, but lately I've been feeling the urges a lot more. I don't want to feel like this, don't want to do it anymore, but it's hard.Things have been going well lately, but I've been feeling worse. I'll be happy and sometimes seem kinda manic during the day (I'll have trouble shutting up, just be extremely off-the-wall happy and excited), but then I'll crash later on and the urges'll come back. I haven't told anyone about them but my mom's said she's suspected my dad and I are manic-depressive for a while and I think this sort of proves it, but I just don't know what to do anymore.
I want to tell, I don't want to tell, and in the midst of it all I just feel like no-one would care either way.
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Old Dec 24, 2012, 10:01 AM
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I know the feeling. but you'd be surprised (at least I was) how many people care and want to help you. stopping cutting requires support. tell someone you trust.
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Old Dec 24, 2012, 10:56 AM
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I know how you feel too.... ive cut for almost 5 years now.... I have schizoaffective bipolar disorder and ADD..... I'm trying to stop too, for my boyfriend.... we can do it together!!!
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Old Dec 24, 2012, 10:57 AM
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Are you going to get treatment then?
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Old Dec 26, 2012, 04:53 PM
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@Angelornot: I want to, but I don't know how I would. I really don't want to tell the wrong person, but I also don't want to make my friends feel guilty or mad.

xXSkitty KittyXx: Thanks for your support Yes, lets! Feel free to PM me

@Sannah: I don't know. I want to, but that would require telling people first. I know I should, but it's their reactions I'm afraid of...
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Old Dec 27, 2012, 12:00 PM
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What would be the the worst reactions that you would fear to occur?
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Old Dec 27, 2012, 04:11 PM
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@ Savannah: I guess it's my family's. They, and my friends, might start treating me like glass and pull me out of everything that I actually do enjoy right now. My parents might feel like they're the ones who caused, what with their expectations for me, and I just don't want to let them down any more than I already do with all the mistakes I make.
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Old Dec 27, 2012, 05:51 PM
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They, and my friends, might start treating me like glass and pull me out of everything that I actually do enjoy right now.

My parents might feel like they're the ones who caused, what with their expectations for me,

and I just don't want to let them down any more than I already do with all the mistakes I make.
These things might not happen or if they do, you can work through them. Getting therapy is really important and IMO worth the obstacles that you might have to work around.
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Old Dec 27, 2012, 08:32 PM
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I cut from age 14-18. I have stopped for 6 years with some slip ups. I just got out of the hospital for treatment of thoughts of cutting. It was wonderful. I was able to help myself as well. as others. Skype point is its okay to ask for help. You can stop cutting. I've been cut free for a year 5 months. Take it one day at a time and distract yourself.
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Old Dec 27, 2012, 09:20 PM
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Thanks... I think I will try telling them. My parents at least, if no one else yet. They deserve to know, and I'll have to tell them eventually I guess. Thanks for helping me out, I really appreciate it.

I don't know how to tell them though. Any suggestions? I might end up screwing the whole thing up otherwise...
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Old Dec 27, 2012, 10:08 PM
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Tell them u are having yucky thoughts and its leading you to hurt yourself. Are u.close to your parents?
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Old Dec 28, 2012, 10:56 AM
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Haha... Yeah, we're a really close family.
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Old Dec 28, 2012, 11:30 AM
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Any ideas yet on how you are going to tell your parents?
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Old Dec 28, 2012, 11:30 AM
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Thanks... I think I will try telling them. My parents at least, if no one else yet. They deserve to know, and I'll have to tell them eventually I guess. Thanks for helping me out, I really appreciate it.

I don't know how to tell them though. Any suggestions? I might end up screwing the whole thing up otherwise...


good luck!

hope they take it well... lemm know
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Old Dec 28, 2012, 11:48 AM
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Thanks, shattered sanity. I will , but I can't tell them until either Sunday, Wensday, or next weekend. I want to tell them face-to-face.
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Old Feb 03, 2013, 12:31 PM
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Thanks, Sannah

Well, to update, I still haven't told anyone, having enough trouble coming to terms w/them on some other decisions I made. Hopefully they'll help, since it should help bring up my self confidence and stuff while I start training. As time goes by I'm also thinking about how to tell people, and I think it's starting to get a bit easier. Had a little practice when I told my family I wanted to go into the military, haha.

Wish me luck!
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Old Feb 03, 2013, 12:55 PM
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Good luck! Please continue to keep us posted on how you are doing?
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