[suzzie]

i wanted to s/i bad today. but didnt want to give in again.
i tried drawing instead. and it worked.
im still thinking about it. but its not as strong now.

[Travelinglady]

Good for you, Suzzie! Congratulations!

[roads]

suzzie, that seems like a huge accomplishment to me!
you've found an option, an "other way"
that works for you ... it's like opening a new portal

now keep at it ~ don't let it close!!
roadie

[Dreamer11]

Wonderful to hear, Suzzie!!!
Thank you for sharing that...
your post encourages me

[suzzie]

the drawing isnt going to work any more.
found out today. that im slowly loosing my t.

[roads]

oh, no ... Why are you losing you T?
the drawing was something theat you discovered-- how come you can't find some way to adapt it to whatever changing feelings you have? ... maybe drawing on you to begin with?

[suzzie]

ts reply was suppose to bring comfort, securety, predictability, consistantly. when she called to reschedule. but she didnt. the s/i-ing does. and right now nothing matters.

her health issues. there getting worse. maybe she will get better. but it will a long time.
i dont if i can do t like this. this was the problem i had with first t. too much time between sessions.