yesterday was so bad...trying not to cut all day then and now it's today. I do have T, but I don't care...my trigger is bigger than T and it's so hard to stop thinking about it. I know I just want some control in these situations where I can't get any and I also can't get out. It just keeps running through my head on replay....

[tigersassy]

Totally understand. I want control over my emotions that's why I SI.

[Moodswing]

I have used the alternative of a red pen to put slash marks on my arm. It can help. Have you tried it? I know it sounds silly. It does not cause any pain but gives a good visual.

Thanks for the suggestion...I actually have drawn all over my arms with markers, and it helps when the urge is not super intense.
A T once told me to hold an ice cube until it melts when I felt like cutting. I guess that might work for some people but it's NOT the same sensation and having a frozen hand actually feels worse!

[fadinglight123]

I wish I could take the hardship and pain away away from you. I know how hard it is, trying not to relapse. I know how much it hurts and how hopeless it feels when you do relapse. I hope you make it through.