I haven't SI in a really long time. But the last week or so, I have taken up all my previous SI habits again, and then some. Now that I'm doing it again, I feel like it's back in full force. I'm in therapy and dealing with a lot of painful emotions, and the only real way I have to cope is to SI. Today was a particularly bad day. Now I just feel tired. I feel beyond tired. My body feels tired, my soul feels tired. I feel like I am 90 years old. I feel incredibly sad. I feel like there is no more hope. I have picked myself up from some pretty dark places, but this has been the worst.
I feel like there is no longer a future for me. I feel like life has no meaning. I feel lost. I feel empty.
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