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Poohbah
Member Since May 2012
Location: Mass
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I saw my T today. My case worker usually drives me, but she is on vaca this week, so her office mate volunteered to bring me in, which was really nice of her.
So I had to sit on the bench in front of my building waiting for her.... I was so nervous, and anxiety was so high being out there on display. I started banging my arm on the seat of the bench... each time to the count of eight. I have made quite a mess out of my lower right arm. oh, well.... tomorrow another day to try to go without doing any si'ing.... had to get this out. thanks for reading __________________ |
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Poohbah
Member Since May 2012
Location: Mass
Posts: 1,247
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#2
got even worse.... cut 16 times on my leg wtf....
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Member Since Oct 2012
Location: midwest
Posts: 656
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Is it possible you were angry at your case worker and punished yourself instead? I know I used to do that. If someone let me down or did something that made me mad and hurt, I'd take it out on myself.
You don't have to answer that if you don't want to. I know SI can be intensely personal and suggestions can be really annoying. Sam2 |
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