[granite1]

I just want to get so amazingly drunk and beat the crap out of myself .maybe then ill feel better . my T has been away .I have proved to myself how much I am hated here by some. I just want to beat the crap out of me so maybe ill feel calmer .

[Insignificant other]

Heh heh .. don't be so hard on yourself! I don't know you but Im sure your not that bad! Just look at all the hugs you've given to others!!!!!!! Hello

[granite1]

thanks insignificant other .but no these days I am horrible but it is ok I can be that as I am nothing else these days.

[kaliope]

I am hearing how much you say you want to hurt yourself. I know you somehow feel deserving of harm, but try to show yourself compassion and love instead. take care.

[Wren_]

granite i hope you can find something else that helps but doesn't involve SI; I missed that your T was away at the moment when are they back?

[granite1]

Originally Posted by tigergirl

granite i hope you can find something else that helps but doesn't involve SI; I missed that your T was away at the moment when are they back?

thanks tiger girl sometimes si is the only thing that can just knock some sense into me and calm me down and make me ok. my T is back next week.tuesday.so soon

[Wren_]

I'm glad t is back soon; having them away can make everything that much harder

[granite1]

I wanted to say that I made it without SI. I am trying .I just wish I would feel better again I was doing so well and then bam life and this world sux.

[stainedglassheart]

Originally Posted by granite1

I wanted to say that I made it without SI. I am trying .I just wish I would feel better again I was doing so well and then bam life and this world sux.

Good for you on making in without SI. That can be one of the hardest things in life to do sometimes. I hope you feel better soon.

[Wren_]

I'm glad you did granite
I hope you feel better again soon as well