[Green Tabs]

I work for local government and am afraid that if I "come clean" and am open about how lost and hopeless I am I will need to be hospitalized.... If that happens then the stigma of "he's crazy" will forestall my work from ever trusting me again. This is the corner people back themselves into, my finances are gone, my marriage is gone, constant pain and now seeking help will cause me to lose my income. Is there anything I can do, need to reach out to someone - bet I will be hospitalized but cannot afford to lose my job. I lose my job and its all gone.